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3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | first day of driver's ed........ then the second half of teh first day of jazz camp (missed first half for driver's ed)...... then a soccer game agains teh dirtiest team in teh world fun times |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | I start driver's ed tomorrw sounds fun, I know (can you sense the sarcasm?) |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | I am having a fight club party at my house in about 2 hours. well, more of a get together......shut up. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | I'm going to dye my hair hot pink. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | I got a ride to fight club last night, and it KICKED ASS! |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | GAH!!!!!! I can' even get a ride to fight club!!! This is crap. I can't belvieve how unbelievably crappy this is. GAH! phoo. ok calm down. I can deal with this. i dealt with the offspring thing, I can deal with this. damnit. This is shit.I can't believe this. I NEED TO GO TO THIS MOVIE!!!!! AT THE RIVERVIEW!!!!!! AT MIDNIGHT!!!! TONIGHT OR TOMORROW NIGHT!!!!!!! |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | 'ello again. Here I am, talking to my online 'diary', and no one can hear me, or will read this. no matter. FIGHT CLUB!!!!!!! Tonight. it is going to be awesome. I's just hopin' that I can go, what with teh whole midnight curfew my parents imposed on me while they were in sturgeon bay. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | I have realized that MXC is one of teh greatest shows...... IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah..... that's what's going on. I dougt that anyone is acually going to read this..... but I'll write it anyway because I have nothing better to do. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | 1st post. I have nothing to say. I may later...... wait.. wrongness.. I may start a band, once i learn how to play bass...... that's all for now |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | doo dah doo dah doo dah. I have not mucho happenning. I broke up with margot the other day..... not much to say about that. I'm going to the Underground tonight... and then to ROCKY HORROR!!! yah |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | yar. First off, I just learned that normal posts are 8 gauge, meaning my barbells are twice as thick. OW. I also just done my first job as a bouncer!!!!!! That was fun as hell!!!!!!! that's all ahmo say. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | Well, more ear. I just got it pierced. In the cartilage with 16 gauge posts. I think that most posts are 12 or 14 gauge (smaller). I have really big rods through my ear. oh well, I've just got one more left to do. It has just been brought to my attention that................. nevermind, I was going to say something, but couldn't think of anything to say. |
3,601,014 | male | 15 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | alrighty I havent' posted in a really long time. This means that the people who actually end up reading this will be treated to an exceptionally long blog. I will tell you everything interesting that happened this past month. I'm done. no, I'm kidding...... This past mont, the thing that really sticks in my mind is warped tour. It was awesome!! I wen't with Zeke and my bro (that wasn't teh coolest thing in teh world, but hey). While there, we done spotted Ethan, Kip, Sean, Carrie, Katy, and the one dude that were with them that I didn't know. Yeah. After teh first time we saw them, we were trying to find them again, so's we could tell Katy that Zeke had lost his glasses in a mosh pit. woulda been great. So, at warped tour, I was treated to my first mosh pit!!!!! as well as my second, third, fourth fifth, sixth, and possible seventh (I can't remember). aaaaaahhhhhhhhh.......... I'm also proud of myself, as I went over half the way around my block on the back two wheels of a wheelchair today (this is balancy, not someoneelsebeingadicky) yeah uuuuuummmmmmmmmmmm........ happiness cuz i can be drive..... yeah, that's all I can remember of my month so far I'll come back later with more if I can remember more........................... |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 30,May,2004 | whew, i must admit taht i am totally bored. that's what my computer's for though. on the other hand, i could be kinda nervous. jesus is getting back from houston soon...i think today, but i'm not sure and i'm kinda nervouse about it. i haven't seen him in a year. now i'm sitting here listening to 'take another little piece of my heart' by janis joplin. she is totally my hero. she rocked so hardcore. this last week has been pretty weird. michelle and amy have been pretty bitchy to a lot of people now that they have each other. don't worry, i'm not just saying taht cause they ditched me, several people have mentioned to me that they've been doing that lately. the weirdest part is that i don't ahve a huge problem with it. it kinda opens up new oportunities for me. like i use to just hang out with michelle at lunch since i don't have a lot of friends who have 1st lunch with me, but the other day when she was off walking alone, i sat at sophia's table, and then just sat and talked with ian and bethany. it was fun. i guess i should thank her later in life for ditching me. sure ditching people the the number the biggest aspect of un-chillness, but i guess that just makes these people michelle and amy are turning into...well...un-chill. i've been a lot more jack lately than kiki. i was totally kiki last summer. 'a tight tye-dye dress she was a psychadelic mess.' that sort of thing. i didn't care about a thing and i was totally in love with this random guy i made out with who didn't speak a word of english. it rocked. now i'm kinda more jack. 'the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned.' THAT sort of thing, i'm not worried about it either. i like jack a lot. thanks meghan for the nickname. Jack, hannah Jackson. it makes sense. Europe is more of a Jack country than Mexico is too. i went to san miguel de allende, mexico last yaer when i was Kiki and this summer when i'm Jack, i'm going to Germany and Italy. and the last like 3 years i've been on vacation i've met totally amazing people who changed my life. so maybe that'll happen again. i hope. it rocks. anyway, my computer is tweaking out and my brother has a not so shabby looking friend over. so adios. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 22,May,2004 | now i'm sitting here listening to this song....i'm not sure what its about because i've never listened to the words. it feels like its about being totally content with everything. its called 'heaven'. i really love it. i was also listening to this postal service song all day and there's this part where he says 'tell me am i right that there could be nothing better, than making you my bride and slowly growing old together.' i really love it. i don't even get how i was sooo pissed off yesterday and feel so calm today. i heard that tears contain these hormones that make you feel upset, so when you cry you release them. maybe i just let them all out yesterday and now i feel fine. i spent most of today sitting around and i bought this c.d. case that holds 208 c.d's then i put all my c.d's in there in order my genre. wow, what a nerd. it was hard. i read a lot of a prayer for owen meany too. that book rocks pretty hard core. i recommend it to anyone who reads this. if anyone does. did you know i'm going to open up my own chain of bars in Argentina someday? maybe once i get enough money, i'll be able to open some in the states. i think that sounds like an awesome job. my goal is for someday when i just randomly meet someone, they say 'so what do you do?' and i'll tell them, 'oh, i own _________ Bars.' and then they'll say, 'really? i love that place!!' i think that would rock so hard if that happened. and i think it probably will. someday right? ha ha ha. its always someday! i haven't smoked weed in a week by the way. pat on the back. bye for now. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 21,May,2004 | this is the second time today i've written in here, but this is the only one you can read. in the first one i wrote a lot of stuff about some people who i was pissed at. i did it cause i needed to vent and hadn't talked to anyone about how pissed i was. i calmed down though and now i feel better. i'm still mad at michelle and amy, but i get them. maybe they'll apologize, or maybe i'll just talk to them. who knows. i just got back from VanHelsing with Krista, Tyler, Kirk and Lindsay. That movie made no sense at all. ha ha. freakin ridiculous. but i had a good time in general. i just needed some calm, laid back people to hang out with, and now i feel sooo much better. however, i am traumatized because tyler took of his pants for most of the movie and just sat there in his boxers. i've seen his ass so many times in my life, that freaks me out. ha ha. arggg. the auction is tonight and my mom had an emotional break down before she left and just started crying and talking about how she cried there and had so much left to do and no one was helping her. i felt really bad but she really got over it. i hope things stay like this. i'm gonna go get some sleep for chilling with linz tomorrow. adios. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 20,May,2004 | this is the second time today i've written in here, but this is the only one you can read. in the first one i wrote a lot of stuff about some people who i was pissed at. i did it cause i needed to vent and hadn't talked to anyone about how pissed i was. i calmed down though and now i feel better. i'm still mad at michelle and amy, but i get them. maybe they'll apologize, or maybe i'll just talk to them. who knows. i just got back from VanHelsing with Krista, Tyler, Kirk and Lindsay. That movie made no sense at all. ha ha. freakin ridiculous. but i had a good time in general. i just needed some calm, laid back people to hang out with, and now i feel sooo much better. however, i am traumatized because tyler took of his pants for most of the movie and just sat there in his boxers. i've seen his ass so many times in my life, that freaks me out. ha ha. arggg. the auction is tonight and my mom had an emotional break down before she left and just started crying and talking about how she cried there and had so much left to do and no one was helping her. i felt really bad but she really got over it. i hope things stay like this. i'm gonna go get some sleep for chilling with linz tomorrow. adios. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 20,May,2004 | when i gpt in the car this morning that new hoobastank song was playing. i really do dig it. then a bob marley song came on, and then nirvana. i'm pretty sure it was brad nowell making sure i was happy. this morning iw as talking to my mom about what a kiss ass tyler is to adults and what a dick he is to the rest of us. i never talk to him anymore, cause he was such a drama queen last time we really hung out. and, when i first got up i was thinking about michelle having tess come to tualatin for the day. i doubt she'll really come, but i still don't want her to. i don't know what i really have against her besides the fact she broke pretty much every rule of chillness: she ditched me, she lied to me, and she made me feel like shit. the worst part is i don't think she really cares about any of it.i just don't like the fact that her grandparents live next door to me and she still could never come over to just say hi. it seems a little unfair. we had been friends since elementary school. i don't want her to come. thank god the auction is almost over. my mom is doing a lot of stuff for the tualatin auction so there's all these people and all this random stuff all over our house. all these soccer moms....its driving me crazy. it all ends tomorrow though. then my mom will start making me dinner again. yay! p.s. i made a list of my top 22 favorite songs ever and here it is.... 22. Closer-NIN 21. When I Grow Up-Garbage 20. Dancin With Myself-Billy Idol 19. Crash Into Me-Dave Matthews Band 18. Cold Hard Bitch-Jet 17. Steal My Sunshine-Len 16. Saturday Night-Misfits 15. All the Young Dudes-? 14. Semi Charmed Life-Third Eye Blind 13. Bohemian Like You-Dandy Warhols 12. One Love-Bob Marley 11. What It's Like-Everlast 10. Damn It Feels Good to Be a Gangster-? 9. Gigantic-Pixies 8. Lovefool-The Cardigans 7. You Shook Me All Night Long-AC/DC 6. Take Another Little Piece of My Heart-Janis Joplin 5. I Miss You-Incubus 4. Never Been To Spain-Three Dog Night 3. Inside of Love-Nada Surf 2. Wish You Were Here-Pink Floyd 1. What I Got-Sublime ....good huh? |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 19,May,2004 | i just did homework from 4 15 to 8 15. 4 hours!! jesus! oh well. i had an all right day i spose. some of my dear friends have been annoying me in the extreme lately, but i assume this time will pass. or maybe its like when that palm reader todl me and i have a friend w ho's going to ruin my life if i don't stay away from her. ? who knows. i hope no one ruins my life that'd suck. mmmmm....my dad was just smoking a cigar and my house smells really good. i am totally pro cigar smoking because of how great they smell. i'm thinking about finishing the magazine i started a long time ago this summer. i was going to do it this year but then i realized i needed more people to write articles and then i realized i didn't like any of my old articles so i just stopped. my friend in california told me thought that he wants to write an article for me and i trust him to do an awesome job. that'd rock if it works out. if it doesn't...ohwell. just like 'tao does not do, but nothing is not done.' very to the point. send me articles if you have any about anything at all. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 17,May,2004 | well i just finished a book called 'the tao of pooh' its all about taoism in winnie the pooh. its basically about how pooh represents the tao belief in the Uncarved Block, which is pretty much saying that simplicity conquers all. don't analyze anything too much. something about how winnie the pooh listens to a bird sing and owl wonders what kind of bird is singing. then there's this whole thing about Nothingness and how great it is. like once you realize the secret to life is Nothingness you ahve reached complete enlightenment. ca-razy. i don't think i can do that, but i like realizing that my constant lack of comtemplating things is a great thing in the buddhist world. h aha. rocks! i also loved the part about how you s houldn't try to do things or concentrate on them, and they will just happen on their own. how great, i HATE doing stuff! i also found out the Theory of Knowledge class at Tualatin just read the book. i read it while sitting in my hammock, listening to full on surfer music and burning Sex on the Beach insence. what an utter hippie huh? next i have to read Things Fall Apart and A Prayer for Owen Meany, grar, for Beeler's class. ah well. i think this was a good first entry for my Blog (which i pretty much stole from Mel, but i'm going to pretend she is just a great trendsetter and i didn't actually just take it). well..i'll write again later. p.s. the song of the day is Times Like These by Jack Johnson. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 23,June,2004 | last night i kept thinking about all the nice things people have done for me. cause last night my mom came upstairs just to tell me she loves me before she went to bed. that mad me feel so good. then i started thinking about when chris gave me 'mail' because everyone in our class kept getting mail. and laura told me once that she thought 'everyone' had been jealous of me at one point or another. that doesn't sound nice, but she meant it in a nice way. and carissa telling me once that i looked really good lately. and jacob telling me how nice my boobs looked. ha ha, that one is strange. i hope i've said all those nice things to people. because even if someone just gives me a little compliment, or just goes 2 seconds out of their way for me, i feel so good. like someone really cares. or just wants me to feel better or now how they feel. i tried to think of when i gave someone a random compliment, but i couldn't. but i bet no one who gave me those compliments remembers saying them. so oh well. i love those commercials telling you to send money to a kid in a 3rd world country. they are sooo cute. i always want to pick up the phone the second i see them. they're so adorable, you know? anyway, i think i'm going to go read for a little while. loves. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 22,June,2004 | 'Saturday Night' the Misfits There's 52 ways to murder anyone One & two are the same, and they both work as well I'm coming clean for Amy, Julie doesn't scream as well and the cops won't listen all night So maybe, maybe I'll be over Just as soon as I fill them all in And I can't remember when I saw her last We were running all around and having a blast But the back seat of the drive-in is so lonely without you I know when youre home I was thinking about you, there was was something I forgot to say I was crying on a Saturday night I was out cruising without you, they were playing our song Crying on Saturday Night As the moon becomes the night time you go viciously, quietly away I'm sitting in the bedroom, where we used to sit and smoke cigarettes now I'm watching, watching you die And I can't remember when I saw her last We were running all around and having a blast But the back seat of the drive-in 's so lonely without you I know when you're home I was thinking about you, there was was something I forgot to say I was crying on a Saturday night I was out cruising without you, they were playing our song Crying on Saturday Night i really love that song. a lot. i mean that is truley a great song. i was a little stressed out today. i had to go to driver's ed then figure out when i can change my orthodontist appointment to, and i took my harp home and i can't fucking break it cause its about $850. whew. that makes me sound like a big fucking nerd huh? i think i'm gonna go sit in front of plaid pantry this week and get someone to buy me some cigarettes. but i don't know. it seems sometimes like smoking cigarettes is better than smoking weed, but then i always change my mind again. i think i'm gonna go take a nap or paint in my garage or something. but i'm gonna go for now. bye. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 21,June,2004 | i had driver's ed for the first time today. it was pretty boring. and i had to walk 2 miles home. i really like walking though. i could just walk forever i think. i'm going to walk down to lindsay's in a little bit too. that's about 2 miles. i decided last night that i'm gonna go buy i bunch of nice clothes. like really nice clothes though. the kind of clothes you'd where to work. it's cause i was watching dead man on campus last night, and the guy who played zach morris in it was a big big stoner and wore really nice clothes all the time. i like that a lot. anyway, i'm gonna go take a nap so i can walk to lindsay's in an hour. p.s. when i get to heaven, i'm going to have sex with james dean. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 18,June,2004 | i saw cesario for the first time in a year today, and he gave me a pink lighter. went to the balloon festival. it was nice, and relaxing. and there's a pizza place/hookah bar in tigard. i'm gonna get them to sell it to me someday...soon. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 14,June,2004 | i saw cesario for the first time in a year today, and he gave me a pink lighter. went to the balloon festival. it was nice, and relaxing. and there's a pizza place/hookah bar in tigard. i'm gonna get them to sell it to me someday...soon. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 14,June,2004 | The day before yesterday was the last day of school. it was kind of a weird day. everyone left really fast, so i didn't get a chance to say bye to a lot of people. but that's okay, cause i'm gonna end up seeing tons of people over the summer. there's nothing to do in tualatin, so everyone just kinda walks around or goes to mashita and shit like that. i think it's gonna be a good summer though. i can feeeel it. ha ha. today i have to go get my passport renewed then i'm going to meet, james vik, cesario, and lynsea, cara, and molly at the balloon festival. fun fun. but i probably won't end up getting there til about 4, and they're all going around 12. oh, another i realized on the last day, is that spencer changed a lot. i can't really believe i ever had a big crush on him. i mean he's a cool guy an all, but jo (bo and jason) influenced him a lot too. like he kinda seems to think he's too cool for stuff and people. plus he may be going out with that chick i new from like 4th grade. oh, and he said he quit smoking pot and drinking. go figure. oh well. i'm going to europe, i'll meet a hot, cool guy there right? i'm pretty excited about going to see cesario today. i haven't seen him in awhile. a year to be exact. he called me last night, so we talked for awhile, but we've talked a lot since he moved. but now i actually get to see him! ha ha, yay! anyway, i better go. p.s. i had a dream last night where dad started smoking. ? |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 14,June,2004 | sorry, this is the poem from that book. Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Chops' because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with little toe nails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's And he had to ask his father was the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it 'Autumn' because that was the name of the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him and A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left the butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it 'Innocence: A Question' because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him and A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year that Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much make up That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring loudly That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it 'Absolutely Nothing' Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A And a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen i cried a lot when i wrote this. i didn't know where to put this, because i knew i wanted some people to read it, but i didn't want anyone who didn't get it to read it. i didn't want to exploit it. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 12,June,2004 | i just cried. i don't cry very much, but i was reading 'the perks of being a wallflower' and there was this poem in it and it just kinda hit me that its really powerful, even though i've read it before. anyway, i just went to the bathroom so i wouldn't have to explain suddenly crying to my parets. and i closed my eyes before i went in there, cause seeing myself cry usually makes me cry even more and i could feel tears falling down my face and i was breathing really deep. then i finally opened my eyes and everything was blurry at first, but i could feel the rest of the really warm tears fall down my face and i realized how hard i was really crying. i don't know why, but sometimes stuff just hits me hard. i think it did today because my parents have been acting sort of weird and my dad said he wants me to go camping with them next weekend because its father's day, but i don't want to go because i don't want to have to be with michelle. and i felt a little bad and i don't fell like watching t.v., so i just read. anyway, luke is gone camping, but everything has felt sort of ok lately. i've been leaving a lot during lunch cause i hate it and don't have a lot of people to hang out with. i have been going with a couple different people who smoke to the condos across from my school. they go to smoke and i go to have a nice little chill spot with someone i actually like to be able to talk to. that's just the way school has been lately. and thank god there's only a day and a half left. today sucked so bad because i had my 3 hardest finals today. but at least i got them over with. and then it'll be summer and i think i'll feel a lot better. i always feel prettier and happier and have less things to worry about in the summer. a lot of people have told me that your freshman year sucks because you're still not sure about your group and where you are and all that stuff. but i guess it gets better later. its not like i don't many friends. i have a ton of friends, but they're all in different groups. so i don't have a clique. i don't want to worry about it anymore. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 12,June,2004 | this is all a little too stressful for me. i have to study all today for finals..but i promised james i'd think about oging to see riddick with him tonight. i saw him at the movies last night when i was with linz and she's sure he's her soulmate. i think that'd be chill if they went out. she could really experience my tigard friends. she has dwayne though...oh well. i'm suppose to be studying for finals right now. i don't think i can. i sat down and started to, but i started to cry everytime because i kept thinking about how i can't do this and even though i decided to start working harder, i can't pass these finals. it sucks. i normally wouldn't be upset about that, but about the second i got home, my parents were telling me i have to go camping with them next weekend. i told them i'm not going, but they said i have to go for michelle. fuck that. i don't owe her anything. i don't have to do anything for anyone who treats my like shit and ditches me. of coarse i didn't tell them that, but i think i'll tell my mom about it later, or else she won't get why i'm so pissed off about going. i don't want to talk to michelle and i sure as hell don't want to have to spend and entire weekend with her. that sounds mean, because we were such good friends, but i just can't take all this shady shit she's been pulling lately and people do just change and drift apart. i guess i should go study or try to cool off or something. bye. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 09,June,2004 | i haven't been able to write lately because my computer's been so screwed up, but hey, i'm back again! saturday was chaos. it was my brother's graduation and i had to hang out with my parents who haven't been able to stop fighting lately, and my crazy fucking grandparents. i eventually got to liam's concert at the paris though. i met ashley and carrissa there and also katherine and kyle and a few other pretty cool people were there. i totally fell in love with the lead singer of the first band. his band is named troy's bucket and they rock soooooo hard. the guy's name is james. since hardly anyone was at the show, a few chicks (including me obviously)went to the very front of the stage where james poured water on us and dedicated a few songs to us. he also got got on his knees right in front of my face and sang and smiled. arg, i fell hard and he's 20 and lives in arizona. damn all those gorgeous guys of the world....okay, not really cause where would i be without those gorgeous guys? i highly recommend troy's bucket by the way if you dig ska/metal/punk. the concert was a lot of fun though and it was a nice ending to a very shitty day...except when i got home the futon upstairs was made into a bed which means my dad was planning on sleeping up there instead of in the same room as my mom..which worries me. but i try not to think about it. i don't like dealing with bad shit by obsessing over it. speaking of which, this weeks been weird because of one main thing in particular. that thing would be whatever's going down with amy and michelle. they just give off such a bad vibe to me, and they're sort of turning into that 'oh we're too 'dank' for you' thing that they got from jo. just..avoidance until its a problem. i just won't hang out with them until i have to..and that's looking like no time soon. anyway though, i'm watching the top 50 sexiest video moments right now, so i'm gonna go. have a lovely day all. |
3,371,688 | female | 15 | Student | Virgo | 01,July,2004 | the entire way i dealt with relationships changed when i was 16. i guess if you think about it must have started when i was 15. i went on a trip to europe with my parents and 18 year old brother, Luke, the summer before my freshman year. when we got to munique, germany, i met someone. Luke and i had gone off to wander on our own one day. we thought it was all right, then my brother saw some pretty hot girls (he and his girlfriend had broken up a few weeks before we left) and that's when i saw a pretty hot guy. he was with a group of a lot of kids, probably all about 16 or 17. he stood out though. stawberry blonde hair, skinny, but it was mostly muscle, and very very icy blue eyes. he looked at me too. he looked hard. or i just thought he was looking hard, but it could have just been his intense eyes. either way, he liked me enough to check quickly that no one was watching, tap another guy on the arm, and come up to where i was sitting. i remember it was really beautiful out and there were a few clouds far away but that was it. i also remember that he came right up to me and made no effort to be discreet. i think i was starting at him the whole time (probably with my mouth open)but that didn't seem to matter. as soon as he got up to me, he simply introduced himself. 'hi there, i'm sam. do you mind if i sit?' he had a decent irish accent, and his smile made his eyes seem less intense. one thing about him that was the most specific, was the muscles that stood out in his jaw. you know when someone squeezes their jaw together and you can see these little muscles stick out? yeah, he had that. and i had it bad. i just smiled, he didn't seem mind my braces, so i said i'd love if he sat and i told him my name. one thing i don't remember is what all we talked about. i remember it was about 1:00 when i met him and when my brother came back at 7:00, we were still talking. there was music, something about the incredible hulk and spiderman, and not many serious topics. he asked about other guys i'd been with. so i told him was i'd been fingered, and i'd given hand jobs and told him about the guys who did them, then about the few random guys i'd met and made out with. i asked him about the girls he'd been with. he told me he'd had one girlfriend for 2 years, since he was 14, and he had kissed only 2 girls before her. he lost his virginity to this girl. they had sex 2 times, then they broke up. i wasn't sure if i should believe him, but the more he talked about her, the more i did. my brother went to go get food, and that he'd come back at 8. so we talked more. it doesn't really matter what we talked about. but i liked him. when we left he gave me a soft kiss on the lips and asked if i'd meet him the next day. 'i'm doing family stuff most of the day. but luke and i were going to go to 'muse' at 9:30. we could meet there.' he smiled. 'that sounds great. see you then.' then i left him standing there. when my brother asked about him, i was surprised to hear myself talk about him like he was just some guy-friend i had met. which is really what he was. he didn't metion sam to my parents either. i did meet him the next night. at the club. we danced more than we talked this time. i was surprised at the lack of i.d. checking, but i guess germany is just that way. i didn't drink as much as i had planned on. i wanted my judgment to be intact. i knew he liked me because of something he did at the club, that, at the time, seemed pretty big. a slow song played (someone requested it and it was in french) so we danced really close, and his lips moved from my neck to left ear, but he never actually kissed me, just kept them there. this wasn't that part that showed me how much he like me though. the actual part seems really corny when i think about it now. after the slow song was over, a very 'groovy' techno song came on, he looked at me, then he held me close again and we kept dancing so so slow. i felt so good. so good. 'do you want to leave? that sounds bad, but i'd really rather be alone with you.' 'i'd love to leave,' i said after i sighed. he took me to the hotel where he was staying. of coarse i did the nice sister thing and told Luke i'd meet him at our hotel at 2:00. he didn't question me. we had to sneek into the hotel and his room had 2 other guys sleeping in 2 other beds. he coughed loudly when we entered. 'hey umm, guy? could you do me a favor?' they looked at each other, smiled, got up, and went into the room next door. i had to ask, 'so who are you here with?' he smiled, 'well...its suppose to be a retreat for the kids at my private school, but all the nuns are gone with the missionaries so they hire chaparones. and, thankfully, these chaparones don't care in the slightest what we do.' 'and where did your room mates go?' he laughed, 'oh, they weren't mad. john is in a fight with this girlfriend, who's in the room next door. and it also gives brian the chance to make the moves on john's girlfriend's pal who came along. no inconveniece whatsoever.' i smiled (feeling relieved), 'good, i hate being mean.' 'i actually know that already.' then he came closer to me and kissed me. then again, then again. then he took my shirt off, then i took of his, then the took of my bra. then i took of his pants. then he took of my skirt, then i took of my panties and his boxers. by then we were on the bed. he was hard. very hard. and i was wet. he kissed me everywhere. i forgot about everything. but later, i remembered every detail. especially when he stopped and walked across the room to john's bag and took out a Trojan. when he got back over to me, he layed down to his face was right at my belly button. he kissed my piercing there and then put his chin down so he was facing me. 'do you want me to make-love to you?' i nodded and smiled at him. then i sat up and lift his chin so i could kiss him very softly. and we had sex. it hurt, but i didn't bleed, and i felt good. it felt amazing. i heard that girls feel self concious and vulnerable right after they have sex with someone and try to hide their bodies, but we just kissed for a little while, and i got up to put my clothes on while sam watched me. it was 1:17 according to my watch. 'are you leaving already?' he asked? 'remember, i told my brother i was going to meet him back at the hotel at 2.' 'right...but its only 1:20.' i smiled, 'well i expected you to walk with me for a while, to make sure no one hurts me.' now he smiled. 'i don't want anyone to hurt you.' he put his clothes on and we walked out with no worries. we didn't talk very much as we walked around, but a few key things were said. 'you know i'm leaving tomorrow.' 'i'm aware. are you going to call me?' 'i don't know.' 'so you don't want to stay in contact with me' he didn't say this very upset, actually. just like a fact. 'would it matter if we did keep talking? we're not going to meet again. and you are, so fully amazing, it wouldn't work. i'd meet someone back home, or you would, and we'd just be more attached.' 'oh you don't get attached after sex? supposedly losing your virginity. virgins bleed.' he said all this in the most acusatory tone, however. 'hey, you don't want to accuse me of lying. you know i didn't lie. and you know i wouldn't have slept with you if i didn't feel something for you. i just want to be with you, right now. and not think about what's happening.' he paused. and we walked. a few minutes later, he sighed, and then responded, 'you are right, about everything. that's what i want too.' we didn't talk again until we reached my hotel and saw my brother standing in the lobby. we kissed for about 2 mintues then i stopped. 'i'm not going to forget you, you know.' 'i know.' then he left. that was it. the rest of the vacation went by, and i had a good time. a great time actually. but i thought of sam. i kept thinking about him. and that, folks, is about when i changed. at least all my relationships. before when i met a guy, i would flirt to no end. i could talk to any guy i wanted at a concert, or at a store, or walking downtown, but once i got to know him, it all changed. i suddenly couldn't continue to act like a girlfriend. but now, that 2 day period of not actually knowing a guy, could last for as long as i wanted it to. okay, so this is all made up, but i want to write a short story and this is the first part of it. don't be surprised when i put more up. |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 20,August,2004 | So today I have a lunch appointment with my boss and a radio rep. On the way, I ask my boss how her day is going. She begins to rant about who?---the accountant that doesn't like me. I now have dirt on her. It seems as though she made a mistake that cost the company $20,000. But she'll call me out for being 5 minutes late?!? And then my boss has a daquari at lunch-giving me dirt on her. Then she tells me about how the owner keeps throwing away money on 'hoochey-mamas'. And apparently, he is rubbing it in everyone's face how he recruited me. And my boss is pissed b/c she thinks it was just luck. I'm finding the whole 2 1/2 hour lunch to be very exciting. However, right before lunch, the accountant caught me playing solitaire. Oh, what an exciting day at work. Just when I thought everyone was against me, turns out, they are against each other. |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 19,August,2004 | So it happened, new guy who will now be referred to as Mike turned into the jerk he had convinced me he wasn't. Are my insticts so bad that I can only pick jerks out of a crowded room? On Friday, he tells me he is sick so he breaks our plans and promises to make it up to me. On Saturday, he has to work. On Monday, I call his cell phone and he must have hit against something b/c I can hear him talking to his friends but he obviously doesn't realize there is someone on the phone. So I hang up and send him a text message. I hear nothing back. On Tuesday morning, he replies saying his phone was out of minutes so he couldn't call me last night. LIE!! I caught him in a lie. But I didn't even mention it b/c I really didn't think it was a big deal. So he goes on and on about how it sucks that he hasn't seen me in a few days, he misses me, blah-blah-blah. Of course, I gush. We make plans for Tuesday evening. At 5:30 he calls and says he has to run a friend to the airport in Dayton--will be back in a couple of hours, we will go to dinner and drinks. I say cool. I never hear from him again. Unless he is dead, that sort of behavior is unacceptable. How did I get played by a guy that I affectionately called Bhudda? He was fat, short, bald, and hairy. Oh, and he had a gap between his teeth. And he was a waiter! I did not find him attractive at all but thought he was cool so I went with it. I was actually proud of myself for being able to look past his looks and his dead end job. Turns out...I was right. So what have I learned? Nothing. I'm sure I'll do it again w/ another guy next week. My 27th birthday is in 2 weeks and I think it has me pretty freaked out. I'm behaving irrationally about a lot of things these days. I made my first sale at my new job today. My boss basically handed it to me, so I don't have that sense of accomplishment, however, I do have the commission which I'm sure will make me happy. I sold a print ad to a crazy evangelist that thinks Democrats are Nazis. Seriously, he said Nazis. Oh well. At least I'm not a democrat. |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 16,August,2004 | New guy did it. He let me down. On Friday afternoon, I called him as planned. He mentioned he was sick and was going to stay home (as you recall, we had plans). No apologies, nothing. I said okay and tried to figure out how I was going to spend my Friday night with no plans and no money. Ended up going out with a friend (the train wreck) and her boyfriend and his friend. They said they would meet me at 9. They showed up at 10:15. We got drunk. They got into a fight--again. The cab dropped me off. I called new guy and yelled at him for 1) not being sorry he was sick and 2) not coming over now. I imagine it wasn't my most charming moment. About an hour later...the phone rings. I immediately think I have won and he is coming over. I answer the phone and its Train Wreck. She wants to stay with me and is in a cab on the way over. I say fine. I sit on the front porch for 45 minutes waiting for her (where this girls concept of time is, I'll never know). On the phone, she mentions she has lost her credit card. By lost she means she left it at the bar. I have no sympathy b/c I have already returned to one bar tonight to get her credit card. And I have a feeling she is going to try to get me to pay the cab driver. The cab pulls up and the driver gets out. She explains to me that he is also coming in. Can you believe it!?! So Train Wreck and Cab Driver stay in my living room. I go to bed with the radio up loud and try to imagine a world with normal friends. Good news is: I didn't have to pay the cab fare. New guy did call on Saturday to see if I needed a ride to go get my car. That was sweet. He also called later that night when he got off work but I was already asleep. I guess he's not that bad. |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 13,August,2004 | Came in today, extremely motivated, ready to get some work done. Apparently, my office mates felt the need to suck that out of me. I have had a very unproductive week but made up for it today. I have accomplished a reasonable amount--probably more than the other 4 put together. I have decided our accountant thinks she is just the greatest thing to ever walk throught the doors. While I feel that she is totally competent and trust her with work stuff--her attitude kills me. Every office has one. New guy has done everything right. One Wednesday, I blew him off and went out with my friends. He didn't get mad. He actually came and picked me up when I was too drunk to drive home. Still hasn't tried anything. Spent the night. Walked my dog in the morning. Drove me to my car. Called last night. Made plans for tonight. What's wrong with this guy? |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 11,August,2004 | So I survived work yesterday and was able to work for one hour and make it look like 8. I consider that one of the biggest success of my career to date. I imagine that I could be so effective at my job if I were able to maintian that sort of focus consistently. Instead, I blog, call all of my friends, and evesdrop on office gossip. Office gossip is one of those things that I truely do not participate in but keep my ear to the ground should I need any information. I'm finding the stories I hear about myself to be truely amusing here at my new job. One of girls apparentlly is not a fan of mine. But at this point, I can say the feeling is mutual, she doesn't know a thing about me (except that I'm not interested in small talk with her), and she'll never rank above me on the corporate ladder. Actually, I can understand why she doesn't like me then. The new guy called me at 5:30 yesterday--exactly when he said he would. He came over to my apartment and we watched tv and took the dog for a walk. The 'let's hang out and not drink and not have sex' thing is strange. It's just part of his grand plan to make me think he's a really good guy and really likes me. It's working. Shit. The poor guy has no family except a grandma. His parents have both passed away and he was an only child. I cannot even imagine what that's like. Most people's parents don't pass away until they have already gotten married and have their own families. Even if it doesn't happen like that--there are usually siblings to go through it with you. It makes me want to call every relative I have and hug them. |
4,194,536 | female | 26 | Advertising | Virgo | 10,August,2004 | There is a man in my office and no one knows what his job is. Our office is comprised of 8 employees so this man's role should be evident if not at least announced to us. Apparently, he is a friend of the owner's who has been fired from his last two broadcasting jobs and will now be helping to destroy our business. He was introduced to me as a 'consultant.' I'm not sure what he is consulting since he hasn't talked to any of us. Regardless, I find him annoying. He seems horribly pompus for a man who keeps getting fired. I've begun blogging in an attempt to avoid actual work. I'm struggling with a hangover and about 2 hours of sleep. I have pumped myself full of soda completely blowing my diet in order to avoid falling asleep at my desk--again. I believe I was actually still drunk when I arrived this morning (15 minutes late). I went out drinking last night when I shouldn't have. I blew through my spending money for the week. I stayed out to late and I believe made an ass of myself. I'm not sure, I can't really remember. I feel like it was a pretty fun night though. Seems like I was surrounded by lots of friends all night. I do recall dancing but I'm not sure who with. I took some random guy home with me and we did the whole walk along the river, look at the skyline thing. Then passed out on my couch. He has his tongue pierced which I'm sure is what attracted me to him. I have no idea if he approached me or I approached him. We'll say he approached me--it makes me feel good. So the cycle starts. The one where he likes me and wants to spend lots of time with me. I don't particulary care, but make time for it. Then I get attached and he starts to back away. Eventually, he just stops calling. I'm left wondering why a guy that I didn't like that much in the first place doesn't like me anymore. My self esteem just a little bit more destroyed than before. What a mess. At least I'm distracted from the others for a while (by others I mean John--the one that I can't stop obsessing over). I'm ashamed that so much of my mental and emotional capacity is spent on men. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 27,July,2004 | Aw, shit. I wanna make a comic. Again. Anyone want to help? |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 21,July,2004 | I've started driving on my own recently, and I've noticed how bad traffic really is. My parents say it looks like what downtown Portland used to look like 25 years ago. It's absolutly crazy. I read an artical in The Columbian the other day saying by 2005 (or 6, can't quite remember), every city (with the exception of Yacolt, heh heh) in Clark County will be expanding and recieving almost double the traffic of what they are seeing now. The article also says that Vancouver and Battle Ground will see the most change. That's insane. I cannot imagine driving in worse traffic than what we have now. Then again, we'll all be in College (except for Felix, that lazy bum.), so I guess it doesn't really affect us. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 20,July,2004 | I think welfare is a system of total CRAP. Here we are, spending our hard earned money for taxes, taxes which go to programs like welfare, promoting the American way of life (sucking the blood outta the guys who've got cash!) Though the concept is novel, people out there are vampires! Though I don't think that we should totally wipe it off of the face of the USA, much like a smudge on the face of a hugely fat baby, there needs to be definite change. I'll be first to admit it, and I don't know much about the program, besides that it hands out money and food stamps (do they still have those?) to lazy-ass 'citizens' who do nothing but drink booze and have babies, so they can get more welfare! Though I'm sure there is a silent minority that actually needs it, like families on hard times, there is the overly disgusting majority (I think it's a majority) that suck our blood and wallets dry , just living off it! What I want to see are stricter time limits, huge background checks, and checks on the recipients that come often, to look at progress. The program probably has these already, not too sure, but if they do, I'm thinking they aren't strict enough! Correct me if I am wrong on any of these facts! Let's see some blood spilt! |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 18,July,2004 | uhhh I like Hair bands. I intensly dislike music like usher and rap rnb and all that stuff. I pretty much like older Rock in General, a lot of new bands too. Yeah thats prety much it, oh and I like Christina Aguilera too, cause4 she can actually sing, unlike some other slut who is out ther. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | This topic is bound to come up eventually, so we might as well get it out of the way now. What is your favourite kinds of music at this moment? How about this, Favourite Type of Music, Favourite Band(s), Favourite Song. Note: They don't have to be the same. For me, it would be: Classic Rock, Aerosmith, Dust in the Wind(Kansas) |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | Okay, time to lay down The Law. 1. Keep profanity at a minimum. Please refrain from using it if you can while arguing. I guess you could use it to make a point, but it does kind of take you away from the opinion. 2. Racial/Sexual/Homosexual slurs will not be tolerated. 3. No name calling unless you're intending it to be friendly. 4. Do not post an opinion without reasoning if you hope to discuss it. If you follow those simple guidelines, I have no beef with you. -Praise or Haze- I've developed a good way to make a fun arguement when you want to. If you chose to make a topic in which you can post something that you want people to argue with you or say how much it sucks or something, put 'Praise/Haze' in the title. Simple. Deliciously simple. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | I don't really see why we need people to critique movies and things. I don't see what significance they have. Different people look for different things in movies and music, so how can we have one person saying what's good and what's bad about movies and junk? I missed the boat on that one. This topic sucks. Blah blah cookies. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | Let's ask a better question. How long does everybody think Felix will live after questioning the power of an opinion board? Any predictions on what might happen? |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | How long does everybody think this will last? Any predictions on what might happen? I don't want to be negative, but I think this won't go on for long, as it needs to be a highly collaborative project, and with one or two people slacking off, it'll be more reliant on the few people who do actively post. The crevice will get further larger, until we all forget about this. But the future is bright and all etc. etc. I was going to end my first post with my highly offensive and politically incorrect assessment of all races of the world, but I was forbidden. Impedement of my free speech. Since when was this thing a FASCIST STATE? HM? |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | I asked it once before on my other blog, and I'll ask again. Nintendo DS or the Sony PSP? I'm partial to the Nintendo DS, soley for the first party games. The PSP is pretty sexy, though. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 17,July,2004 | Anyone see Micheal Moore new film Farienheit 9/11? whaat u think about it? (bias, truth, slander, whatever) I think it rocks and I love Michael Moore. |
3,958,737 | male | 16 | Transportation | Leo | 04,August,2004 | I really likes socks. To me, they are the most efficient, comfortable, portable and affordable way of keeping your feet dry, clean and blister-free. Not only that, but theyare multi-functional! For one, you can make sock-puppets. And another thing! You can make sock-monkeys. Also, you could use them as a wind-sock. I tremble in fear to think of what the world would be without socks. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 31,July,2004 | ok well this is it. the story of KIT. well here we go. ok. Well KIT is my dear friend smantha's cat. you see, he is slightly retarded. He is cross eyed in one eye, and he is the biggest coward you'll EVER meet. But he is also the sweetest, most adorable, loving creature you'll ever meet. He is more like a dog that way. Cuz cat's are usually bitches. Sam's other cat SMOKEY is suuuuuuch a bitch. And my cat shadow is also such a bitch. It's there nature to have such an attitude. But not KIT. When I used to come over here he would run away from me, and was scared, but not anymore. He will even lie on my face. But it sux cuz im allergic to cat's and so my eye's got all itchy and red and swollen, and my nose stuffy... but yah, cough. that's another story. But back to KIT. I think that he is not only beutiful because of his cuteness and the fact that he's extremely stunned, but he holds no judgments. He just loves you for who you are. people could learn a lot from KIT. which is kind of ironic, cuz he can't see straight. In order to focus, he has to sort of wiggle his head back and forth.. wow. i love him. He is black and white. white paws, mostly black back. stomack that has white on it. and green crossed eyes. Weellll that is it. Im gonna leave you now with that image. And when you die and have to decide what animal you wanna be reencarnated as.. choose to be a cat. meow. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 29,July,2004 | hmmmm... I was talking to my boyfriend yesterday about life-ish stuff. And you know what I decided... life should be about living in the moment. I know it's such an unoriginal thought... but for it to really make an impact on you, you have to discover it for yourself. There's not enought time to worry about every little thing you do. well there was this one time... we all got really drunk (I puked 6 or 7 times... not cool, I know) and when we got to the park, I really embarrassed myself and (cough, cough I farted). yah... but there's really no time to worry about it. When a friend of mine passed away last year, my friend amanda wrote a song with the lyrics 'what if I died tomorrow, what if i died today. what if I lived in sorrow, what if i lived in pain.' makes you think eh? So you really just have to keep doing things for yourself. Take some 'me-time'. My friends and i all are really priviliged. We live in a good area, with good people. I mean what's the worst that's happened to us.... I lost a friend last year, my sister had a lot of troubles and it really effected my family, I've lost grandparents. but really it's nothing. Nothing that you can't move on from. nothing that will cause permanent damage. When I was younger, my grandma lived with me. It was soooo hard. she fucking drove me INSANE. but my mom would always say, this is a test. your gonna learn from it, youll become a better, more understanding person. And the funny thing is, its true. Mick said to me, you have to discover loss to learn how to appreciate things... or something around those lines. It's sooo true. so i guess in a way, everythings sort of meant to happen and everything is kinda a test. You can learn from everything, from your own hardships or others hardships. so yah..... carpe diem. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 29,July,2004 | so.. have you ever had something happen, and it feels like everythings totally messed up, or backwards... but really it was all about nothing. I really think that's the story of my life. ha.. ha. i am the queen of over analizing things. I sit here with sam, and we just go over shit.. over and over.... till we're so frazzled that we've really gone nowhere. but I guess that's waht makes us girls. You know what. boys are really confusing. I mean ppl always say it's the girls, but we're really straight forward. I mean we know how to do things, and once you figure that out, it doesn't change. .... but boys. jeebus. it's always different. but i guess you gotta love them for it. well again im really just blabbing about NOTHING.. so u know. buhbye. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 29,July,2004 | Here i am. Its almost the end of july, and i feel like ive done nothing. Do you ever get that feeling like time is going, and your just standing still. Watching the world pass you. Really you should be going somewhere, but you dont know where to start. Thats how I feel. Everyday I'm amazed by something in the world. Theres always something to surprise you, to help you grow. But it seems like, its a temporary change. Like it can't really last. Everything people do doesn't last.... I always thought the people who said things like 'whats the point in living and life?' were morbid, depressed people who don't know how to appreciate things, and how to love. But then I started thinking them. I am deffinitly not depressed. I appreciate my friends, boyfriend and family. I do know how to love. Im really lucky to live where i do, to have the peope i have in my life. It's just that, sometimes its hard to see what the point is. Its hard not to wonder where the hell we're going. When I hear about the people who go out and drink every weekend, I think, why? I do those things too. They're fun. but they're a waste of time. Most things are, if you think about it. oh no... ive gotten into one of my phylosophical rants. I better go. me and sam are going to read each others blogs... so, untill next time. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 17,August,2004 | Wanna know what's funny? How easily a persons mood can change, and how many things can effect it. I am so extraverted that people rub off on me a lot. This is not usually a good thing. Cuz if I finally am in a good mood, and then I see someone down, ill automatically be taken down too. grrrr. It's also funny that 99% of the time that the person is down, it is completely un-related to me, but it brings me down anyways... hmm. I think that people who are in shitty moods, shouldn't be allowed to talk to other people. Well as you can see im not in the best mood right now, and I have no reason for it. Randomly ill get my feelings hurt, or wtv for no reason. Maybe I should just go to bed. yah I think ill do that... maybe just slleeeeppp. I want to cry. I had the best day, I have awsome friends, I have an awsome life, yesterday was my 17th bday and it was fun. So really I have no reason for this. so goodbye..... maybe ill listen to happy music. Music effects my mmooood toooo. :( ps... emily U. hahaha |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 14,August,2004 | This blog is about nothing really important, or special. My 17th bday is in 2 days. :D:D:D So far, what iv gotten out of my recent life is, 13 wasn't so great, 14 was cool, 15 sucked asss, and 16 was pretty awsome. So from the way it looks, the odd numbers are not so hot...? I dunno. Somehow I think this year will be good. 'You should write what you know.' Sometimes I think I know nothing, then later, I think I know everything. Its funny how you can't break down your own thoughts, and understand them consistently. One minute, you can make something into the biggest deal of your life, but then later, you see it's nothing........? Anywho.. back to birthday. i think that ill start off this age by getting good and smashed. Wow. Did I just use the word 'smashed'... arg but anywho.. I am very excited to be 17. YAY... so far, bday recognitions have been fun! GOODBYE! |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 12,August,2004 | I just had a very good day. But then my older brother came home. He's such a jackass. He tries to be so witty, but just pisses me off. fuck. He is 21 years old, but you'd think he's younger than me. I think that if you have a younger sibling, you shouldn't fuck with them too much. You should be there for them, and help them out if they need it, but let them live their own life. Don't tell them what to do, or how to do things, and don't give them too hard a time if they mess up. Life is about learning things for yourself, right? so you know.... Generally my bro is awsome, he is super cool and helpful. So don't get me wrong, he's a good guy... he just sometimes doesn't know when to lay off. Buh bye now. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 12,August,2004 | My perfect day isn't so much what I do, cuz im pretty much happy doing wtv, its more how ppl are feeling. I would like to wake up HAPPY! & refreshed, and shower and such things like that. Then I would perhaps listen to music while I got ready. Some happy music. The one thing that alters my mood like nothing else, is music. Then I guess if I had to choose what we did, it would be the river. I LOVE THE RIVER. Its the best place you can go. The only thing that would make it better, is if we brought music there... Then after the river, we would perhaps go to someone house and chill for a bit, umm I dunno know what we'd do, but maybe make A FORT!!!!!! But the rules would be: if youre in a bad mood, you have to leave till ur happy (or talk to someone if ur upset.. wtv), and as soon as someone gets bored, we have to change what we're doing. Then we would pack up a huge, yummy dinner picnick and take it to Ambleside or sumwhere like that (with music) and eat, swim, and hangout. Then when it got darker.... SKINNYDIPPING! yup. and then maybe walk around. Cuz I love walking around at night. So... anywho.. that is my perfect day. :D |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 08,August,2004 | This blog is part 2. These are the guys I hang out most often with. Theyre awsome. Fist of all there is my boyfriend Mick. He is amazing and so cute, and really smart. :) I can talk to him about anything and we have so much fun together. I think the PDA can annoy some ppl somtimes.. but wtv. We don't get to be alone together as much as I would like cuz we're always in a big group, but we're working on it. Then there is my Micks twin brother Liam. He's super smart too, and sarcastic, but really fun to hang out with. It's hard to get him to say what's on his mind sometimes cuz, as sam would say, 'he's intraverted'. hahah. But yah. he's awsome. Now Braxton. Hes such a cool guy. Hes brutally honest, and is the only person who can make you feel better with an insult. You can also talk to him about anything. Its good to get advice from him. He's going out with my friend Bobbi. awwwww And.. Derek. As sam said, he's just a big kid, a really really big kid. 6' wtv.. i dunno. He's fun to be with, but WALKS TOO FAST....: hahah and sometimes he really sticks his foot in his mouth. Good times. Well theyre great guys and they've helped make this summer one of the best I've ever had. That is it....buh bye. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 08,August,2004 | k Well, my rents just left for Kellowna. I managed not to go and ... (gasp!!) convince them to let me stay in the house. OMG. My parents are so fucking paranoid, so this is a big deal. But one of their big rules is... NO FRIENDS. A re you joking me. That is dumb... but I think that I will have friends over. I mean really. Who lets their 17 year old daughter stay at home during the weekend and expect her not to have friends over. I think that when im a parent, im gonna be so much more chill about stuff like this. I guess ill just have to be carelful everything stays ok, and that they don't find out. Peace. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 08,August,2004 | I've decided that if people think or feel something they should just say it. No more of this trying to please people. You can make a suggestion, or a decision and if people don't agree then it's not the end of the world right? So we should all be a little less goddamn polite. Believe me, I'm the worst. But if society doesn't give a shit about anything anymore, then why care about making the wrong suggestions? I wish that people could never hurt each other's feelings. We were all at the fireworks tonight, and my friend decided to call my boyfriend. That is totally cool, I mean, why wouldn't I want to talk to him. But I think he felt like we were trying to make him feel bad for not being there. And that was DEFF not my intentions. hmm so much trouble! but things usually get happier in the morning i hope. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 05,August,2004 | So. It really sux when you want to make everyone happy, and you have to make a choice, but at the end of it, it was sorta not the best one. Today (technically yesterday) was an important day for me, and the one person I really wanted to see was my boyfriend. He had work in the morning, so we all went to jenns and swam in her pool, it was fun. But then later I didn't know what to do. I had it planned to go to my boyfriends house, and have a chill night with him, but when I finally talked to him, it seemed like he wanted to have some time to himself. I really would have rather spent the night with him. But I went to the fireworks. They were amazing, but I really wish I was with him, especially today. Sometimes people are hard to read, or maybe I'm just super bad at it....? I dunno. It was just one night out of the whole summer, but its such a crappy feeling. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 05,August,2004 | I have awsome friends. There are the 'regulars'... the people I would consider my best friends.. the one's I would do ANYTHING for. And then there are the other people who I also love soo much, but it seems like they kinda drift in and out of my life. It's hard to describe the people I care about because they are all so complicated, and the way I feel about them changes from day to day, but this is it sorta... The lovely ladies I hang out with, are really not usually ladies at all. One of them is Zoe. She doesn't give a flying fuck about what anyone thinks, and is anything but your classic girl. She could out burb anyone without trying, but she's also one of the most fun and beautiful person I've ever met. I've known her for a long time. Another one of my girls is Sam. She is sooo wonderful, that I would DIE without her. We have so much in common. She can make anyone feel better, and is SUCH a girl. She's the Racheal Green of our group. Sometimes she brings herself down.. but there's no reason for it... she's gorgeous. I met her in gr 6. I met another one of the girls (Jennifluffer) through her. Jenn is sooooo funny. Shes kinda more of a combination of the first 2. She's similar to me: she sometimes likes to annoy people, she LOVES to sing :D:D and can go from loud to quiet in a second. This girl is an amazing lister, and is sooo much fun. She has awsome eyes and is also so beautiful. I met her 2 years ago. Another one I just met this year. Kelcey is sooo shy and quiet, and deffinitly knows how to be a girl. She's soo sensitive and would put anyone before herself. She couldn't make a disision if her life depended on it, but we love her for it. She could NEVER piss you off, and it always seems like everything happens to her. Theses are the 4 girls I hang out with the most. But I gtg.. I will write about the guys later.... till next time. |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 04,August,2004 | K. you know what I do, I get frazzled pretty easily, adn then I make up all this weird stuff in my head, overanalizing things and what not, and then I make up problems where there was nothing. fun eh?.. hahaha oh well. Today was SUCH a blah day, probably the worst yet this summer. But I guess that only leaves room for improvment. :) We did NOTHING. it was such blahness. But then I went to a musical with my parents. yes that is right. a musical. Im suuuch a sucker for musicals. I LOVE them. you can totally escape, such good music, acting, DANCING! It totally made me feel better. The one I was was 'Crazy for You'. It's the best one I've ever seen, and I've seen a lot. This year my school put on the musical 'Hello Dolly!'. That was sooo fun. Not only cuz I love stuff like that, but because soo many of my friends were in it. Also the part I had, was paired with another one. The girl who had that part is a good friend of mine. We hadn't had a lot of time to see each other, so it was really fun to hang out so much doing things we both love. It always seems so sad how you can drift apart from people. I have an awsome group of friends that I hang out with almost everyday. I also just had my best school year so far, adn this is the best summer EVER! But to gain stuff, you have to lose stuff. There's a lot of people I have been losing touch with, and I also rarely have 'me time'.... last summer was really fun, but it was more chill. hmmm. But I guess I like it better busy... |
4,077,682 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 04,August,2004 | Well today I just found out something sad. We have these family friends that I've known my whole life and their kids are like my cousins (two girls : Amy-24 and Briany-22). The younger one was gonna get married this September but the wedding was just called off. She's had a really tough life. When she was a teen, she was buliamic and suicidal.. but she's past that now. But it still makes me worry about how she's feeling right now. My mom said she's really embarrased and really upset... understandable. My mom also said, love is hard, (that's not what I wanna hear) that a lot of people have trouble with it.... arg. well I just hope none of my family or friends have to deal with stuff like that. gtg |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 24,April,2004 | I understand that you don't want to commit, but you don't have to lead me on and make me think otherwise. You obviously lied to me because you have found other people since you regurgitated me. You raped my heart like the sinister threat of a naked room, a think cloud of abnegation coldly forms above your head, a smile spreads across your face, I am free from the sepulture you have placed me in. Hurting people is a second nature to you. Screams of terror exonerate your ears as you shit on me my very emotions for everyone to see after you swallowed them whole. You want to forever damnate me to the depths of my own jealousy, stupidity, and sorrow because yo disrelish me so. You abandoned me because you ravaged me until there was nothing left, you used me for your own presonal gain. You took everything you wanted and then left me there obliterated because you wanted to ease your pain. I was so naive to your ways and then I realized that you never loved me it was all a part of your act that was beneficial to your self-confidencebut you were so inconspicuous that nobody knew what your real intentions were. I guess you wanted to conspire against me, you hate me and want me to suffer consistant to how self concious you are feeling. I don't understand why you think you are so elite. You pretend to have a distorted vision when in truth you are just searching for a little reassurance to make you feel better than everyone else. I trusted you but the truth came out. You want me to drown in your own self-gratified exceptionalism, all you want to do is execute your plan to make me feel inferior to make me feel how you feel, but you were just a distraction to keep my mind off the pain but now that's over with you but the pain stays and there is nothing I can do to sustain it. It is lie the sadistic thoughts of a catholic priest dying to be alone with the child within....... |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 19,June,2004 | She cuts her arms when things get too hard she's a horrible person damnated forever to relive the things that she has done wrong she tried to change but there is lost time to make up for she tried to save her soul but she took too long she cuts herself with a swiss army knife because she thinks all the pain will better her life all the times she was left in the dark, time has penetrated skin and left a mark the guilt is eating her alive she has ran too long from the things keeping her down there's no more time to run and hide no one gets out alive, no one survives I've taken my own life there is still blood dripping from the knife |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 15,June,2004 | I swallow my pride as I'm raped on the inside I hear you coming so I run and hide my thoughts of killing you subside as I wish I had died but it doesn't matter, what can I do, I'm nothing of use, nothing to you all the pain you brought, all the lessons you taught, all the times you lied and got caught I think my life is over don't say you can't see it, or maybe you can and you just don't believe it I can't see myself living without all the times that I was in doubt I dried off my eyes and denied everything but a knife in which I cut myself because it felt good and I wanted to see blood but I very seldom could because there was always an interuption or something to stop me but that great once and a while when I was alone that was when I felt at ease because I know myself that I will kill as I slit my wrists and watch the blood spill |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 15,June,2004 | The reason I didn't cry was because I saw you laughing, making fun of my feelings of which you raped criticizing laughter at the least just let me go in peace I want to be free of your grip why can't you just release you haven't let go I can see it in your eyes and you'll never ever know that I've deciphered all your lies, I remember you told me that I'd never see you cry but I saw those tears come from your eyes you're so pathetic, why did you lie you could have told the truth and I would've excepted you but I believed all the lies that you told me I believed all of your lies I bought all the bullshit you sold me but you did it just to get a rise you won it's over but next time you won't be so lucky someone will do to you what you do to others and I hope they do it soon because you deserve all the pain that comes to you I hope they make you bleed I hope they make you cry I hope they cure your greed I hope you never lie you haven't let go I can see it in your eyes, you'll never ever know that I've ever seen you cry |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 15,June,2004 | My faith is gone anything I've ever believed in has been crushed with my last breath drawn I utter your name in utter disgust you've gained my blame and lost my trust the only thing keeping me alive is my hatred for you, my despise this isn't a disguise I patiently anticipate my demise yet no one knows that they won't survive no one cries no one cares the sirens blare as everyone stares life is unfair that's to be expected but no one's aware that my life is so fucked up and I swear I found a tear in the web of my dreams and this wall has been shattered as if that mattered because no one even hears when I let out a scream it's not what it seems life doesn't seem real and you have no idea exactly how it feels to be ripped apart at the seams to have a broken heart or broken dreams or an artificial existence what do you do when life stops making sense do I put up a fence around my cold black heart if I wanted to talk about it where should I start where does it end? If only I had a friend I wouldn’t be complete but I wouldn’t be breakable I’d only bend can you comprehend the thoughts in my head can you mend the holes in my bed can you sew closed the cuts on my arms can you do anything to fix my broken heart? I was completely ok before you tore my world apart |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 14,June,2004 | I've never woken up without something that I've had the day before I've never felt so lost or alone my story is still untold do you know how it feels to be alone I know that feeling all too well the empty feeling of redemption I've placed myself in my own personal hell the more I think about it the more empty I feel and the lonliness comes rushing back in one big attack I've lost the key and can't find my way back so close the door and lock it take a gun and cock it shoot me in the face blood on my white lace take me from this place time goes by so slowly but the memories come too fast you'd think it could all be forgotten you'd think the past has passed after all that I've been through you'd think that I'd be free at last |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 11,June,2004 | I've been screwed, my whole world has come unglued the light stings my eyes I'm empty inside I feel stomach bile rise Scarred from the lies hatred engulfs me my body is cold someone has ripped apart my soul truth be told I've never been boughten or sold It's not allowed not just another face in the crowd aren't you proud my heart has been disembowled I'll never throw in the towel or take the easy way out if only I could drowned send in the clowns what is life about? |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 10,June,2004 | You lost the opportunity for me to ever love you, you lost the opportunity for me to ever care I have to grow before my weaknesses I have to rise above you still standing on the stairs barely there who would care dare me to die I dare you to cry time passes by I don't know why. Why did you lie? No more tears I've shed my last vapid whore the past is past what was I thinking when I thought you'd tell the truth whats the use I'm sick of your abuse, I have feelings too. ------------------------------------------------------------------ |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 08,June,2004 | you make me sick the way you are such a fucking hypocrit I don't really understand you portray one thing yet you feel another you won't tell the truth you're making me bitter just be yourself and tell me what is going on you thought sounded really convincing but what you said wasn't cogent and it didn't all fit to me I can't put all the pieces together I just don't get what you are saying can you just tell me the fucking truth I need to know what is going on why can't you just tell me what you are feeling I didn't mean to lay a guilt trip on you and I have learned from this experience because now I know not to trust a friend but an enemy who I didn't think I could trust but apparently that means nothing to you because since I could tell the truth from the lies you were never being honest |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 07,June,2004 | Letting go of everything was easy to do, easy because you hurt me, easy because of you but now that I am drowning it is getting hard to breathe suffocation seems like a good way to go why can't you save me? I think I have lost control if I am not crazy you could've fooled me if I died would you miss me or would you forget about me Does it even matter if you found me dead on the floor would you let me be I really don't care so just stay away from me |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 07,June,2004 | I hear a faint scream, an echo of aberation in your eyes I know that you could never let go, but you should go live your life of patriotism and I'll go live my life of self inflicted pain I would break away but I am scared that I will hurt myself again You go live your life of dissembled legitmacy and I'll live my life of incestuous virtue and while I'm at it I'll bury you alive I know you're immortal and I know you won't die and I know I can't kill you but why not try |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 07,June,2004 | you can know her pain by the look in her eyes you can see disdain in the tears that she cries but silence says it all she wants to be left alone she is always surrounded and has yet to be overthrown but sometimes surrounded is the lonliest place to be, but you cant tell, you cant see you dont understand no you never fucking will your grip is too loose this is fucking unreal your silent screams are deafening me and you're telling me now what i dont want to hear she is right here now with that cold glaring stare so dont pretend you dont see her, she is everywhere that mocking smile haunting my dreams a distortion of reality like you think you are close to figuring her out but its not what it seems she knows me better than i know myself but i still cant seem to see what shes about she slit her wrists to bleed her wrath i scream her pain to fall to death |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 07,June,2004 | I'm not exactly sure what has left me to be so skeptical of the people around me. I guess it's the lack of trust and my hatred for humanity. And I have no way of ever knowing what in the world has caused me to be so misanthropic. I have a hatred for humanity as pure as the driven snow and I live my life with a trust no one attitude. The best advice I could ever give someone is, don't ever let anyone in. People have their own fucked up agenda and your best friend will fuck you over to help themselves. The only person you can truly come close to trusting is yourself and there are times when you can't even do that much. Everyone is set out to get you so they can feel better about themselves. That is fucked up. I guess I could be considered reclusive to a certain extent, but that is because I prefer to be alone than in the presence of idiocy. The human race is oddly happy but it makes a perfect example for the quote that I appointed to humanity. 'Ignorance is bliss' I guess I am bitter..... |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 09,July,2004 | I could wait forever for something to appear I don't see my own reflection when i look in the mirror I can't see a thing my vision is unclear I don't remember why I woke up here I see you standing before me bleeding my one and only fear the look in my eyes so lost and abandoned my judgement is clouded everything I've doubted my worst nightmares are coming true my whole world came crashing down in one big spiral my smile has turned in to a cold dark frown and all I can do is live in denial.......... |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 04,July,2004 | Every scar has a story and every story goes untold hidden secrets filled with worry empty and hollow take a deep breath and swallow no one knows which way does the wind blow? How many times have I been bleeding in vain? How many times have I cut myself to try to avoid the pain? I can't take these long days and somber nights I can't take how I don't even try to put up a fight my walls have been raised at the end of the day all I can be is me and I think that's ok. I don't like myself and neither do you but it sucks to live in a world full of so much and all you can think about is how you have been screwed it seems as if my whole world constantly comes unglued. I'm unfixable doomed to be broken forever after all the tricks are pulled you're left there naked raped and savagely beaten everyday reliving the past pretending to be happy as if you wear a mask to cover your feelings I'm jumping so high but I'm still so far away from the ceiling I have tried to be dealing with my monster but all I've ever wanted to do is die and the thought of death is constant........ |
3,195,553 | female | 17 | Religion | Taurus | 04,July,2004 | How can you forget the one thing your mind won't let you? Why do I have to relive all the pain in my life? Why can't I forget? It's like fucking ground hog day. Every single fucking day is the fucking same. Reliving the same fucking things that I don't want to remember. I can't forget about it and it consumes my every thought. It takes over my mind, am I in hell? Have I died and been put where I belong? A place that doesn't exist,there are people here that I can see right through this has to be unreal if this isn't hell then why do I have to be constantly reminded of everything that has ever gone wrong? This constant depression fucking up my life, can't you leave me alone? I'm drowning in a pool of my own fucking blood. I've cut my arm again only this time it's no longer for fun. I can't run from myself and I certainly can't hide. I feel like the only choice that I have left is suicide. I can't abide by your rules, I've already played the fool. I'm not just a tool you can use whenever something needs fixing you have already beat me like a cheap rug and if i was on life support I have no doubt in my mind that you would pull the plug and then you'd throw my lifeless body in the hole I already dug.....mend my shattered soul I've completely lost control fix my bleeding heart your acid tongue has torn my world apart. Where did I start? I'm full of pure and undiluted hatred my whole life has been forsaken shaken stirred my eyes are blurred from my tears of blood you aren't the first to lose my trust, I'll hold my breath until I bust....... |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 30,July,2004 | In true passion, one does not need a head or brain: The whole body is turned into a montage. This loss of the body, This dissolution of the body into a composite of organs, is called happiness. |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 25,July,2004 | The first lesson of LoVe to be learned: Do not look into each others's eyes! Only by ignoring each other can a couple learn to endure each other and, eventually , to become aware of the other's proximity |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 22,July,2004 | Mood: (freaked out, insecure, neurotic, and emotional) Music: None Movie on TV: Legally Blond ==================== Today, I had the scariest experience of my life, I got in a wreck sorta. I was backing out of my driveway parking spot and I shifted into reverse and I started to move and I must have bumped the shifter into neutral and I rolled forward so I gave it more gas, which should have made it go back but instead it went forward, and I hit the retaining wall, hit the fence, and hit the tree. I bent my frame of my car and dented the bumper. And it was all an accident That's a Rap!! |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 20,July,2004 | Mood: Awsome (Just got off the phone with my baby) Music: None Game: Shadow Ops: Red Mercury ================ Here is the deal, I was staying at my sisters house because my parents were out of town. I pretty much had free rane on everthing, so i went to one of my friends house's, and we hung out. At her house she lives with 3 other teenagers, so there are no adults, my parents dont like this. They said they grounded me because i went to her house, without permission but i think the real reason is that, they beleived i had done something morally wrong with her. But the fact of the matter is that her and i act like brother and sister, we fight like brother and sister. So i came back with my hair all messed up my shirt sorta unbuttoned, the only reason i was like that was because we wrestled. And the only other thing besides that was watching Texas Chainsaw Mas. While watching this movie, i picked up a pillow and hit her in the face randomly and then we wrestled for like an hour. My parents found out through my sister and now after nothing happened i get GROUNDED and i cant do anything. So what do u think?? Is life fair?? Thats a Rap!! |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 19,July,2004 | The Texas Chainsaw Massacre This is a very good movie. The story is true, and the acting in the movie is extremely good. The only thinks that are bad it the gruesomeness of the story and the ending. In watching this movie u realize how fragile human life is and how sick teh f**k**g world is becomming. I suggest everyone go see this movie. For all those scared by movies like this make sure u watch it during the day. Thats a rap!! |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 19,July,2004 | 'i can call you my babygirl, you can call me your babyboy, we can spend some time...i can be your sunshine...(we dont have to be in love)' this should be interesting...lol MY Baby's Blog Below h urlLink ttp://cackalackieluva.blogspot.com |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 19,July,2004 | OH YAH BABY A tribute to my friends: Sheena (sweet baby girl, 'I don O') Wylie Brian Jay Brooke Robin Colin Lindsey Brandon Rachel Keegan Hunter Dominic Ashley Nam Gin Katie Eric Alex Dwight Amber James Sarah Meridith Ryan Jeremy Kacey Wes Wesley Ben Taylor Nate Jodie Tina Derick Ryan Heather Warren Ben Jessie (very outgoing) Tony Mitchell Kaitlin Tim Angela Matt Arial Elodie Chris Nick Kelli Kelley (sweet as sugar) Rachel Rachel Megan Nicole Alisha Megan Mark Rebecca Amanda (short babe gurl) Aaron Daniel Kelley Stephen Brain Erica Samantha Angela Julieann Lori (aka big boobs) Rachel Chrissy Holley Brittany Joseph Alex Ashley Christina Maegan George James Ryan Aneel Katie (my sexy friend) Stewart Tito Caroline Cody Bryan Josh Rupal TP Travis Lauren Ryan Shelton Stephen Russel Anna Phillip Michale Brandi Michael Will Tommy Jef Lex Roby Spenser Zach Stephen Bryan Janelle Andy Laura Amanda Ricky Samm Courtney James Ashley (gurl from FL) Nikki (sweet lil gurl) kim Bobbie Brandon Leah Darl Russel Brad Ebony Erica Toni Michael Melissa Wendy Jeremy Karyn Becca Randi and to all those i forgot I love u all |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 19,July,2004 | I am not a very good writer so what i say is going to be short and sweet like me. I like gurls that are petite about 5 feet and the blondest brunette ill ever meet. Thats a rap!! |
3,976,226 | male | 16 | indUnk | Aries | 09,August,2004 | If you ever fall off the Sears Tower, just go real limp, because maybe you'll look like a dummy and people will try to catch you because, hey, free dummy. When I heard that trees grow a new 'ring' for each year they live, I thought, we humans are kind of like that: we grow a new layer of skin each year, and after many years we are thick and unwieldy from all our skin layers. In weightlifting, I don't think sudden, uncontrolled urination should automatically disqualify you. If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is 'God is crying.' And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is 'Probably because of something you did. If you're a horse, and someone gets on you, and falls off, and then gets right back on you, I think you should buck him off right away. Once, when I was in Hawaii, on the island of Kauai, I met a mysterious old stranger. He said he was about to die and wanted to tell someone about the treasure. I said, 'Okay, as long as it's not a long story. Some of us have a plane to catch, you know.' He started telling his story, about the treasure and his life and all, and I thought: 'This story isn't too long.' But then, he kept going, and I started thinking, 'Uh-oh, this story is getting long.' But then, the story was over, and I said to myself: 'You know, that story wasn't too long after all.' I forget what the story was about, but there was a good movie on the plane. It was a little long, though. That's a Rap!!! |
3,825,027 | male | 14 | Student | Leo | 03,July,2004 | Wow, the trip was long....like a 9 hour drive but it was well worth it, one the way down I didn't sleep at all I just listened to music and stuff it was ausome it acually wasnt that boring. We stopped at a shore thing and I got lost so I was waiting for my dad and brother to get back and stuff. So we are here now my mom said I could get my dog on Sunday when we get back which is ausome , i cannot wait. The house is pink though lol i like it, its cool by thwe way if you avn't been readin we are in OBX. Well i just finished swimming and they have high speed internet here so thats cool. Okay well cya later. |
3,825,027 | male | 14 | Student | Leo | 02,July,2004 | Well I was really starving after my long run and well I really wanted chinease food so guess what I did? I ordered chinease food I was home alone and had about 30 bucks from yesterdays trip left over so I used 9 dollas exactly. I called and the lady asked me where I lived (of course a chinease lady) and then she said near CMW high school and I said yes and then she was like 'okai' in her little chinease voice then she paused and said okay so you live in the high school? I was like laughing at that point and said no and she said do you want it delivered to the high school? I said no lol. So she finally said so you live in a hous....right? And I told her yes after about 5 minutes of debating weather I lived in a house or a school she finally said have a nice day and hung up then after 45 minutes of sitting there starving the guy came, he smelt like old feet....I didnt give him a tip. I forgot sorry. Then I ate and enjoyed my food, tomorrow is OBX it is going to be ausome. I cannot wait. Cya. |
3,825,027 | male | 14 | Student | Leo | 02,July,2004 | Hey, I started this blog because everyone has xanaga's and its stupid. Well it's not stupid I just wanted to start my own thing The run this morning was really hard i think it was because of the heat I ran like the whole way except a few times I had to 'catch my breath' I came home and drank two cups of water then took a cold shower to calm myself then I was reading my magizine for a while while I rested and stuff, well i woke up at like 11 so I coulnt run when it was cool outside thats why I always run int he morning at like 6 yeah thats damn early but it gets you up and stuff it feels good. My dad was supposed to wake me but didn't and he said I didn't tell him but I really did trust me. Well that's all of my first entry of the 'Blogger' life. |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | :sigh: Ever try to get utilities turned on at your new house? If not, it sucks. Plus, for the record, people who work at power and light companies are on weird little power trips. Most of them, anyway. For those who requested it, here's where you can find a picture of my new puppy: http://www.geocities.com/photography/luna.jpg (copy and paste into your location bar) Later! |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | Well, I did it. As if I weren't a tool of the internet enough, I had to go and start a blog. Good for me. Now you can read this and pretend to be halfway interested in the life of someone you've probably never met. Whee! |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | You represent... hope. You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't mind being alone at times. You have goals, and know what you want in life... even if they are a little far fetched. urlLink What feeling do you represent? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla Amazing how one can become so suddenly inspired. For whatever reason. I pulled out the photo albums of my trips to Central America in 1993 and 1994 and started organizing them into scrapbooks. I'm feeling creative and accomplished right now, I must say! This is it for the year. See you in 2004! |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | Andy's uncle Doug Mullens lost his battle with cancer today. We were expecting this, but nowhere near this soon. He was a fun, awesome human being-- very educated and talented. He lived the best part of hippie culture and always strove to embrace and understand his fellow man. He loved music-- The Grateful Dead, The Beatles, and such. He was well read and enjoyed The Far Side and Calvin & Hobbes. Doug had a family that loved him and he loved back. He was twice a grandfather, and had a best friend and soulmate in his wife Jeanean. We'll really miss him. |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | urlLink Another Christmas come and gone. I'll miss it. I love having an excuse to buy presents for people. I love surprising people. And Andy seemed plenty surprised by the Martin Backpacker guitar I got him (since his mom said he's been talking about getting one since he was 16). My parents surprised me with an AWESOME digital camera! Yay! I don't have to borrow their old, outdated one anymore! :) All in all, things are great! I was all smiles when I went to bed on December 25th. But, for every up, there's a down. Andy decided a couple of months ago we couldn't make it to Walt Disney World for our annual New Years' trip, since he'd used up almost all of his vacation time. So, I decided not to go without him, because a) it wouldn't be as fun without him, and b) who would take care of him, the house, the dog, etc? Besides, it'll mean a little more time together before I go back to school full-time. And then he and his band got booked to play New Years' Eve. And they're practicing during all of Andy's free time. So, I'll most likely be sitting at home by myself when midnight strikes. I get the feeling that the band doesn't really like me to be around-- sort of a Yoko Ono kind of thing. Looks like it's just me and the dogs (my Luna and mom & dad's Diva) that night. Then, THEN, the night before my family leaves for WCW, he mentions that I should have gone with them, that he'd be fine on his own. Well, too late now, now that I've gone ahead and scheduled doctors' appointments, let prescriptions run out, put off paperwork, and didn't get any money out of the bank. Oh well. So, I'm bummed. I'm happy in the grand scheme of things, but I'm super-bummed. But the puppies like me. :) |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | Here's a little quiz especially for this week. Let me know what you were too! You are the Christmas Lights. urlLink What Christmas Ornament are you? brought to you by urlLink Quizilla |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | Ok, a cute little Christmas story for you all... At my sister's school, they have a Korean exchange student named Yoo Young. She's in band with my sister and her gang, and she hangs out with them, as they are all charmed by her incredible cuteness. Anyway...she asked my sister if Santa would be at the band's Christmas concert. Well, we've had the same guy play Santa for the Christmas concert for years now, so Haylee said yes. ' Real Santa?' she asked. Turns out that in Korea, Santa is seen as a symbol of goodwill, but they know that in America, he's the bringer of gifts and so on, so she was really excited about the prospect of meeting the actual Santa Claus. So, Haylee spread the word around not to ruin this for her, since she still believes in Santa (and it would crush anyone to learn the truth when they're thousands of miles away from home). And when Santa came out to greet the crowd at the end of the concert, her face absolutely lit up. And, since she was too nervous to talk to Santa by herself, Dad took the liberty of introducing him to her (she trusts Dad, since he's her director and all). She sat on his lap, he ho-ho-ho'd for her, and she walked away absolutely glowing. It was such a sweet and fun moment. Here's a pic I snapped of the two of them... (Pic coming as soon as I can find where my mother put the bloody disk!) |
2,309,585 | female | 27 | Education | Pisces | 13,May,2004 | A lot of people I know are coming out of the woodwork to let me know they've got blogs too! Wow! I'm adding their links to the right. Enjoy! And now... Heather's Quiz of the Whenever! Thanks to Splent for posting this link on his blog! urlLink My final score was 132.5 . How'd you do? And feel free to send along any other quizzes you feel I should feature! |
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