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1,759,489 | male | 25 | Technology | Cancer | 03,July,2004 | I've been the gym two more times since the last post. I am a rippling muscle-bound hunk now. OK, maybe not but it's a good start. The serious stuff starts next week. I saw urlLink Fahrenheit 9/11 a few days ago. It was a little more gruesome than I expected it to be -- death, bodies, blood, and arms without skin resembling something off of the Terminator. Moore chose to black out the World Trade Tower's collapse only to follow it with numerous gut-wrenchingly bloody scenes; I think I missed the point of this. The documentary did, however, lower my perception of Bush from a dirt-bag to an oil-whore faster than the Patriot act could be passed through congress. I suppose Moore wins then. Speaking of the Patriot act, some poor artist in the States was urlLink accused of bio-terrorism after his wife died of a cardiac arrest. Seems his art supplies had some bacteria on them. For Canada day I went into the mountains. It was a very Irish day with alternating rain and sun. We watched the yearly Canada day parade in Canmore, which featured the first ever streaker in the parade. We also went for a hike in Banff around the coal mining ghost town of urlLink Bankhead . |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 31,July,2004 | Wow its only 3:20 in the afternoon so far and already I have already had quite a day. So. When I woke up I did my usual morning things and then I checked my email and dA account, which, contained a message from a 'friend' of mine completely bitching about one of my posted photos of another friend. I know that critiquing is good... but I think that when I woke up so early in the morning to read a comment whose main point was that my work was shit. Pure, shit. I would look up the exact quote as it was quite witty- but I dont feel like it. Anywho. So after I read that I felt like dousing myself with water and soap so I got into the shower. This was a mistake as everytime I take a shower, because I am not doing something that requires any extra thought dedication than putting on shoes, I have all the time in the world to think about whatever I choose to. This morning it was that comment and that person. And I realized shortly that it had put me in a very nihlistic mindset and by the time I wrapped the towel around my head I realized that everyone is exactly the same. *well see what you want to see, you should see it all, well take what you want from me, you deserve it all* (spontaneous Modest Mouse lyrics inbetween) So after I realized that everyone is the same I began to wonder who exactly I am. I am always troubled by this thought, because no one truely has the answer to it. Normally I am comforted by the thought of a question that has no true answer but this morning I was most certaintly not. Thats when I began thinking 'shit where is andy.. where is andy...' I know where he's at--- up in the Cascades picking blueberries with his parentals but I needed him. :( So I talked to Michael and Scott instead about it, and I realized that my art is NOT shit and that it is something that I do to make myself happy and not to make other people happy. Thank god for friends. So after that I decided that I really should eat something since for the past two weeks or so I hadnt eaten anything before four in the afternoon and that it had begun to be a nasty habit. So I had eggs and then I went outside to shovel apples that are falling in our orchard and then I washed the cars... My car had become this ugly shade of brown when in fact its a sort of champagne color... So I washed it and my mom's car and then returned inside. Ahhh.. It's really hot outside. My yard is this long, flat, sandy yard and I hate being in it. That must sound horrible. I hate being in my yard. But there really is no shade whatsoever and such. We also keep bees so they're always floating around... thank god they're not the kind to sting, but still. Besides I got my new Rolling Stone. Lindsey Lohan is on the cover which in itself is somewhat of a masterpiece. I'm not gay or bisexual but I find her to be just this extremely hot girl. She's got curves galore which I always found better than the stick model type, and long red/brown hair, and large boobs like mine if I may say so. If I could have any body I wanted I would choose hers. That way I wouldnt have to lose the size of my boobs to match the frame. See, if you're a model (which i find nothing wrong with being) you just have to have smallish boobs... mom's calling.. I'll write more in a few... |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 30,July,2004 | I just recieved an email saying 'Jaime- Is your spouse pressuring you for an enlargement?' And so naturally I thought of Andy who is, not in fact my spouse, but my boyfriend. Anyways--- so thats who this journal entry is dedicated to. :D Andy and I have only been dating for about two weeks but most of those two weeks we've spent either hanging out with each other, hanging out with others, taking drives, talking on the phone, or talking on the internet together. Sending virtual kisses because we never get time to get to the real thing. See, we're not the type to be into PDA's because we're private- ya see? Now if only a few OTHER couples would realize this... the world would be a better place. If you'd like to read a better explanation of why this is, I would recommend reading Emily's livejournal--- frodo_fanatic. She has a lovely explanation that really beats you to crap if you are into PDA's. They just arent necessary. For you and especially not for us. Anyways--- moving on. So Andy and I are quite different, yet much the same... Sorry for those of you who werent reading this in hopes of hearing about mon cherie- for those of you who were hoping to hear, this should satisfy you. *Sorry Im interrupting for just a moment to announce that i officially, occasionally, am angry with my family. That is all* So. Andy is a tall redhead that is a joy to be around. I am beginning to realize that our relationship is built upon our ability to be comfortably awkward around each other. You know--- that kind of awkward where you trip over things on a daily basis, and where you mix up your words occasionally... that kind of awkwardness. Its really a great thing though you see, because nothing seems too embarassing to talk about. So we talk about everything. Andy's friend Matt is a great guy too--- it seems that Andy tells him everything and then Matt pipes up with it later while chatting with me. It's cool though. They're both really great guys. Back to Andy. So when we hang out I always get this feeling like I've known him forever when in fact when I first started dating him I hadnt seen him or talked to him in person for about 5 months. But I feel like we have a great bond in this way I've never experienced before. Uh oh I'm having a hippie moment!!! Anyways---- So I really need to go over to Jamie's house to see him--- I've been going through a withdrawal--- he's been gone for about a week, and I need to make my mom come inside to help me with dinner so I should go.... Tata!! |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 30,July,2004 | Hello fellow internet-users. I got a complaint from one of my readers concerning my lack of upkeep on this journal, so i am updating currently. Today I went out with Scott and Andy and our original plan was to go to the Thrift Store in Freeland and then whatever afterwards. We ended up going to Cassidy's and Charlie's afterwards and watching a few videos and such and then we left there and went to the firehouse on Saratoga to wash Scott's car and from there drove to Scott's house where we raided the kitchen and played in his room with his various toys. For those of you with dirty minds, I'm speaking of Slinkys, harmonicas and dancing rodents. Then from there we decided to go to the store for icecream, pizza, pop and candy and then watch a movie at the Freeland Firestation. It was a wonderful day. I ended it with an Elton John record, a milk glass vase, and a full stomach. Anywho-- I'm talking to Andy so I will write more later. I WILL. :D |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 23,July,2004 | Hey Everyone--- Actually I'm not even sure if anyone reads this... but anyways. So here goes... So I've been reading Emily's journal and it sounds like she's up to all these huge great and wonderful things. Yay for Em! hehe. Speaking of our foreign friends. Traveling and whatnot... I'm talking to Marie's friend Jon who is now back in Norway. He's trying to explain the differences between 'jess' and 'ja.' to me. Apparently, it is only cool if you say 'jess' instead of 'ja.' Ja is too formal or something. Its cool though...trying to explain the quirks of the English language to him is difficult at times. I.e. 'what is the difference between 'true' and 'thrue'?' aka through and threw and true. haha. I wish that the cost of traveling wasnt so high. I'd really like to see Norway and Finland and Europe in general... but Jon says it costs him $900 to fly here. Too much for me cause I'm poor. :P So tomorrow I'm going to the world series soccer tournament game at the Seahawk Stadium. My dad, brother, sister and her friend are over there right now watching the practice. Which brings me to what I spent my day doing. I woke up pretty late and was informed of the fact that I needed to make the 1 o'clock ferry, and then ride across with brother sister and company, and drop them off with my dad, and then ride home. But when we caught the ferry we didnt know that my sister had taken the message wrong from my dad as to what boat to catch and so when we got over there we had to wait in the heat for another hour until he got there. It is HOT OUTSIDE!!!!!!!! If I had known too, I would never have worn jeans. :( But now I am home and sitting as close as I can get to my fan. :D Tomorrow should be lots of fun though. I guess that the tribe purchased a luxury box that seats 43 for two seasons at the Seahawk Stadium, and because of his place on the committee he requested that he get 5 tickets to every event. So we got 6 for the game tomorrow... so my whole family is going to go tomorrow, and I got to invite Andy along too. So I suppose that in my mom's eyes it will be our first 'official' date. When she asked last night what was up with Andy and I, I just responded with 'well, we're dating' and she says 'well how can you be dating? I mean-- you havent gone on a date to anywhere yet' haha. I understand what she means though. Its just old school. Lol. So this next story is for Emily. She'll understand. Ok so I woke up this morning and I figured that my bangs were getting a bit on the long side. So I washed my hair and got out the scissors and just cut them. But it was one of those things that went 'well that doesnt look quite short enough.. so I'll take some more off...' and now I think that they're slightly crooked but that's alright. But anyways- Emily will appreciate that. Cutting of the hair story. I havent gotten to take many 'sophisticated' pictures lately. Also known as 'artsy' photos. I think I'm going to talk to Somer and see if we can hang out again sometime soon so that I may take care of my craving of good photography. No more with my Nikon though. Film is giving me hives lately. I cant do anything with it that doesnt seem to require massive amounts of money. So I'm stuck with almost 4 rolls of 36 exposure that I need to process. :s I'm going to need to beg Wodjenski to be able to use the dark room. Anyways- I dont even want to think about film anymore it's giving me a headache. So I watched Scary Movie 2 last night. I'm not sure if it was a waste of time or not yet. It's almost embarrassing just to admit that I laughed at it. haha. The sex jokes in those movies are beginning to get to me though. I mean, ok. How many scenes can be filmed and put into a movie, where a guy gets a girl to give him a massage (ok in this movie it was more like a hand job because it was 'in danger of being frozen off') because he's in danger of 'hypothermia'? I mean geesh. Be original. I do love the Wayan brothers though, and that's half the fun of those movies for me. ^ I dont think I've ever lost this many times in a row at Spider Solitare :S Must be the heat^ I will write more later--- I'm going to go to the movie store now and rent something... I dunno what yet. Jon is telling me to tell Andy to watch them with me so I wont have to be alone. haha. I wish Andy. ;) So anyways-- I'll be back later. Goodday to ya all. |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 20,July,2004 | Today was not at all the day I was planning on it being, but nonetheless that made it very interesting. So, this morning Jamie calls me and tells me he's coming to pick me up to take me stud shopping. So, we get in his car, and I bring the gun, and we go to Linds to shop for studs. Because the studs have to fit the gun you see. ;) haha, so we found some, and we go back to my house to leave again to go to the beach. On our way we pick up Andy (aka xcandyx DA member) , and then I almost get lost getting to the beach. *bangs head on keyboard* that's alright though. Ok, so then we get there, and we walk along and find various smelly objects as most people do when they visit the beach.... and then we discuss everything from hitting a seagull with coins to me in a coconut bra, dressed up to beg my tribal council for college money. {Its ok if this doesnt make sense to you} And so we continue home, and we get to my place where my mom promptly pierces holes into Jamie's ears. They really look quite good on him. So then Jamie leaves, and I go with Andy to the bank and to put gas in my car. And, when I get to the pump, realize that I didnt bring my cash card, and so, I make an ass out of myself for perhaps the 16th time that day. So... I take Andy home{yet another opportunity for me to make an ass out of myself--- and yet I managed to. You think that the chances of me doing things like that would SOMETIMES weigh in my favor} , and worry about draining my car of gas and being stuck on the side of the road, and yah. But I make it home. So I head out again, and this time I take my cash card, and I fill my tank... and head out to rent movies. One was Super Troopers, another Scary Movie 2, and the last was one I'm not EVEN willing to mention on here. All I can say in my defense, is that I had to find a movie that my brother and sister could watch with me. And so, I return home. Where, I am about to bake a cake. Literally. But first, I must add some people to my Cast List which I have disgracfully left out of my previous entry. Please forgive me *half bows* Scott: Scott is one of my very best friends. We talk quite often- but almost always on the phone. He comes over quite reguarly but I have only been to his house once, and so, I am a bitch. Currently, he has also left me, and is on the east coast. But that's ok because I know how much he loves it out there. He really does. He's a east coaster sadly and painfully stuck on the west coast. But we love him here, and I, never want to see him leave. But, the time will come {aka college} that he will. Matt: Matt is Andy's friends. The best way to describe discussions is this. In his own words: 'you know how when you're talking to someone there is a line? That shouldnt be crossed?' Me: 'yes... you dont see that- I know' Matt: 'yah... I dont...' But thats ok. He's a good guy. Phillip: My ex. Well, my LAST ex. I have quite a few- but dont think that I'm proud. However- it is kind of nice because I think that I have a better idea in my mind of what kind of guy I really want to date now. Not that there is anything wrong with Phillip. But there is something wrong with Phillip and I. I dont know if he will come into this story very often, but if he does, you now know who he is. Daniel/Landon/Brian: They are almost always together as a threesome, and so, in my listing, they are a threesome. They are all intensely brilliant, and will be the future's Bill Gates. Plural. Anywho- currently, Landon has long hair-- even longer after returning home early from his year abroad in Austria- which was more like 5 months, and Brian.. um... has a pink mohawk. Hm... Unlike him if you know him. Daniel is fairly normal, but with this streak going through the threesome, I doubt he will be for much longer. Aaron: Good guy. I think I may get on his nerves sometimes, but that's alright. He's going to be going to college this year at Skagit Valley which means he'll remain on the island, which is a good thing. Somer: Somer is a great girl, but never tell her she looks cute. She is very pretty though. She has a twin, Aliza, whom I havent gotten to know too well yet, but perhaps in the future I will. After all, I already met her boyfriend. :P Somer took my senior pictures for me, which are absolutely wonderful, and she is my photo friend. :D She's an awesome photographer- and I'll never be able to even touch her talent I'm sure. Jamie, John, Ely, Jerry: All guys from Ohio that I talk to pretty darn reguarly- about once a day- however, I have never seen any of them in person. But I've known Jamie (who's last name is ALSO Barker- and his older brother, John, has the same birthday as myself --- talk about weird!!) for about four years. So--- I love all of them and hopefully we'll all meet up in person some day. :D Setting for Story: Whidbey Island. The longest island in the continental US. Stupid fact to memorize, really. About 70,000 people live here, and we have a naval base up north.. blah blah blah. Its VERY Hippified here, and I love that about it. More about the island as I continue. Well, more later but I'm posting this now. |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 19,July,2004 | Hey everyone... Ok so this is my official first entry on this site alright? So I dont really know how many people are going to be tracking this AT ALL, but I dont even really know if I care yet... So. What to talk about. I'm afraid that I am at a loss. Ok, so I'm going to do what all the great, wonderful, knowledgeable writers did before me, and make a list of cast characters. Just so that when I write, I dont have to keep explaining each time who each person is. Ok? Ok lets go. Jamie: my best guy friend. We hang out on average about twice a week. We just hash around his place and talk about music, sex, literature, college, etc. I dont know if there is anything that is too personal for us to talk about. Its strange though- we're not hugging sort of friends. Ours is a relationship that is hard to explain. Emily: My great girl friend that is currently in Finland. Her and I are much alike- we enjoy talking on the phone loads about boys and such. I was listed in her cast as the person friend that makes plans, but we hardly ever carry them out, and I suppose that up until now, that has been rather true. However- that will change. :P She leaves for college next year though... and so I will be sad. Josh: Josh is my friend that will forever be my friend. He's a wonderful super duper guy, and I often call him 'Haimes' or 'Haimesy' or 'James Haimes' so not to be confused. He is a great friend who tap dances and who has saved people's lives... and if you want to embarrass him, bring up the subject of sex. He learned to take it though- while hanging out with Jamie and I in the library last year. Ashley: Is part of the foursome that is 'Ash,Jess,Jaime,Jodi' we are all in band together, and all hang out at lunch together, etc. More about that later. Oh- and Ashley's bf is Chris- who I rather find to be a fine gentleman. Morgan: She lives down the street from me half the year, and yet we have never hung out. Ever. Im not exaggerating. Cassidy: A really good, rather new, friend of mine. He's like a teddy bear- always there for a hug and to talk to. He's sometimes there and sometimes away... on vacation, but he always manages to be there right when I need him. He's a super duper cool guy and I'm going to miss him also when he leaves for college. He's going to Evergreen though- where Jamie and I have been plotting to attend. So maybe we'll be seeing him there. Either way- he's a great guy. Oh also as a side note- in this drama, Emily and Marie cannot stand Cassidy. Which brings me to.... Marie: A good friend of mine, who has really been there for me for years. Her and I are not really the type of friends that hang out every week, but we talk quite often, and she's a great person. :) Kaeli: my sister. She's 14, and she drives me nuts. Dresses crazy, but we're closing the gap gradually between styles. Lucas: my brother. He's 9. Knows an insane amount about just about everything. Ask him about a car part and wish you hadnt. He's a great kid tho and really cares a lot about everything. Gotta love him. Andy: My new boyfriend. He's a great guy, and I'm sure that I will have loads to say about him in here. He's got red hair too which is hot. And this wonderful, loving, intellectual manner. He's got this awesome personality that really inspires awe in me. :P Im sure that I'm going to have an awesome time being his gf... and this sounds like a freaking business arrangement. Its not. Im sorry Andy- I just cant come up with a description that would do you justice. ;) Help me out? And so that brings me to the end of my list. Besides mentioning my parents. Both awesome, and unlike most kids, I love them. My mom is the type of mom who notices things like when I'm not wearing a bra and makes fun of me. We're a very 'open' family I suppose. But I love it. Anyways-- I'm tired... Email me or leave a comment if you want me to add something. I'll be glad to comply. :) |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 21,August,2004 | Yesterday I went to the Island County Fair of Whidbey Island. :P It is one of the only county fairs left (I think) without commercial shit playing the role of the backbone of the whole event. I left at around 11:30 and I met my boyfriend Andy there along with my sister, brother, mom and grandpa. We went through everything---- all the art, photography, quilting, flowers, food, music, ducks, chickens, dogs and farm equipment. Which used to be owned by one Ray Gabeline. Hm. Carrying on--- so we did lots and it was fun....Andy and I left around 3 to catch the transit to the stop closest to my house. When we got to Clinton we walked for about a half a mile to get to my house and then watched Family Guy till everyone else got home. Then Andy, my mom, and I made dinner and Andy made a blackberry pie for us. Then we headed outside with my brother and well... we beat each other up and chased each other around trying to grab our shoes. I suppose there's no intelligent way of stating exactly what we were doing. When my dad got home we had dinner, and then left for the fair again--- we met up with some friends of ours and listened to some more music, and stole some flashlight keychains. :D Andy and I spent the remainder of the night finding out how to clip the lights onto every 'clipable' surface on his outfit. When they were in his pants pocket we passed a guy that was obviously high staring slack-jawed at his pants. Mucho hilarioso. When we left Andy had them hooked onto every belt loop of his bleached jeans. Hahaha... ahhh good memories. So then we went back to my house and we had blackberry pie, and I drove Andy home. At 11:30 I got back home. I got to spend a straight 12 hours with Andy--- therefore it was a very good day. :) Today however, I am going to a preseason Seahawks game. We're sitting in our luxury box but still. It's FOOTBALL. On the other hand---- there is a computer with internet service. And two plasma tv's. And free food. But I'd still rather spend the day at home watching movies on a rainy day with a few elite people. It's raining in Washington and that's always good. Better yet- it is raining on Whidbey Island. Specifically at my house too. So I need to go change for the weather---- good deal. I'll write later about how it went. :) |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 18,August,2004 | I feel the need to write... although what about I have no idea. I am sitting here in the dark- listening to the sounds of the Olympic reporting from the living room. I used to get depressed when I was like this- but now I'm really not--- I find myself to be almost relaxed. For the remainder of the night I am planning on watching some more episodes of Family Guy, painting my fingernails, and surfing through the channels. At three in the morning yesterday I managed to catch the music video for Rollover DJ by Jet. I was happy. Tomorrow it appears that I am going to be driving my sister and boyfriend Andy up to the drive in to see however many movies we can before having to return home. I have found myself to be addicted to music lately. All types, all the time, any place. Today alone I have burned.. 12 cds I believe. I discovered yesterday that I had a hidden stash of CDr's so I got to burning them. I have plenty of mixes now.... I'm beginning to think in musical lyrics. I'm going over and over songs in my head all day too. Oh just thought of a new song to download---- 'Closer' by NIN. Well I believe that is all for now. |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 16,August,2004 | Hi everyone. I have updated my journal in a sort of strange way... I used to have a site at livejournal.com but now I have 'closed' that one down so that I'll only have this one left. So from about... July 31st on back the entries are from my old livejournal site. I just thought that I would let everyone know. If you are a friend from my livejournal site- welcome. :) {Emily, Trish} So not a lot has happened since I last posted... Yesterday was my brother's birthday and in the morning I drove to Jamie's {which reminds me--- Emily I WILL give you credit for the cast list-- as it was of genius material :) } anywho- so I drove to Jamie's and then I got into his car and we went into Langley. We bought my brother his studs and some balloons, and then we went over to Joe's Island Music to pick up Jamie's new guitar and a gigbag. VERY nice guitar if I might say so. I especially liked the strings- they were this awesome color. *stares at strings* So I went overtown with my family later where we... went to Walgreens so I could buy chapstick, and then we went to Traxx, this indoor racing company that kicks ass. It was really awesome. My brother and parents raced the 'go-carts' (they're not really gocarts- but that's what I will call them) and I um... well I talked on the phone with my lover. For um...33 minutes it appears to be. We listened to music... and talked about shoes... and plans for the summer. So then I had to go so I drove my brother up to the Old Spaghetti Factory and I stood outside and took pictures for a while until my Grandpa and mom arrived, and then we had dinner. yay. So today is my MOM'S birthday- and we havent done anything yet---- they're cooking eggs and working on the network it appears. Im trying to figure out the best way to give her her present. Hm. If I get the time Im going to make her a mix cd too. Tomorrow I think I am spending the day with either my family or Jamie- and then later on in the day my sister and Andy and I are going to drive up to the drive in and watch a few movies. I dont think we'll be able to stay for the last one but I hope so--- It's White Chicks and I thought it looked really funny. :P But its at the top end of the island so it would make for a VERY late (or early in the morning) drive home. It probably wouldnt be over until 2 or so. I dunno. Anywho--- Ok well I'm off to jump into the shower... ahhhh. I'll update later. |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 16,August,2004 | Everytime I sit down to write a blog I have a moment where I wonder deeply about what the heck I should write about. 'If you're sleeping are you dreamin, if you're dreamin, are you dreaming of me??' Hmmm I have been so very busy lately. I dont even know if this is worth posting since I have to go in a few minutes... lets see... Tomorrow is my brother's birthday- and then the day after tomorrow is my mom's. Hm. To add to it, my grandpa is coming tomorrow. Im giving up my bedroom for a week and a half so tonight will be my last night of privacy. :( well ... I'll still get 'privacy' it will just be in the living room on the air mattress. yay. Zippity do dah. Toodles for now. I'll write later |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 11,August,2004 | Babysitting once again. :) It seems to be going pretty well though. They're tired from last night's Mariner's game. So I got home last night from work, and got ready to leave for shopping with mi madre. I had a pair of pants that I had to return to Victoria's Secret but they wont take them back at the stores that are in the mall so the 'kind lady at the counter' told me that I will have to pay (more spendage!! yay!!) to ship them back. I thought about telling her where SHE could ship have them shipped to, but only because I've already paid close to $60.00 for these damn pants. .So then we left. I went into American Eagle and saw all of the amazingly cute sweatshirts... but I was reminded of Marie's words about how sweatshirts dont look flattering on anyone so I didnt buy one... but not because I didnt think that I wouldnt look flattering in it. I buy sweatshirts cause they're more comfortable than anything else. :D But I already have a few... and... they were $50.00. So then we go through the Bon in search of a bathroom for my mom when I found a clearance rack. YAY for clearance racks!!! I didnt find anything that I really wanted but it was still worth a look. So then we left. We end up at Old Navy and I went crazy. I got... three shirts, a jean skirt, and a pair of pants. Hey I know girls out there are going 'thats not even CLOSE to how I go crazy in a store' but see... I hate shopping to begin with. AND I NEVER buy skirts. Ever. And I hate shopping for pants... well I just hate shopping in general. So in all I got all those plus a courderoy coat at Costco and I spent under $100. :D Not quite as good as thrift shopping, but still I got a LOT of stuff for under a hundred. :D Now I get to do the fun shopping. hehe.. shoe shopping!! I dont know how well a jean skirt and tshirt would go with bright pink conversish shoes... but I'll check it out. haha. Today I get off from work an hour early... they have a dentist appointment, and then I'm going to the thrift store, the gas station, the bank, and the photo shop-- Knox. Spending more money!! yay!! BLEH. At least I get paid at the beginning of next week. Im going to do something with Cassidy tomorrow-- we still dont know what, and then on Friday my six months are up!! yay!!! Sorry I probably wrote about that yesterday and perhaps the day before, but it's exciting. To me. And to Andy probably- since it means we can take longer drives. :D So- music. I know that some of you out there are really into music. DUH. If you're not then you're an insane (possibly republican) person. Ok so here's some good music to download. If you do not have the means to download then contact me through msn and I'll send it your way. Ok here's a list: -- The Killers -- On Top, Smile Like You Mean It, Mr. Brightside, Andy You're a Star (maybe I just like this one because of the title--- I dont know if I'd like it so much if it was 'Fred You're A Star' or something like that. Anyways-- moving on) a few others of which I cannot currently remember. -- Elefant -- Good band- no idea where they are from or any info at all but I like them. They played at the Neubus too but I missed it. Ok: Makeup, Tonight We'll Dance, and Misfit. Misfit is my favorite but Makeup is rather good also. -- Polyphonic Spree -- I havent listened to these guys to know too many of their songs, but I like 'Light and Day' and someone told me that its on the soundtrack for 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind' but I cannot verify that as I have yet to see the movie. -- Modest Mouse, Postal Service & Death Cab For Cutie -- They are all in the same genre according to Rollingstone.com, but Postal Service and Death Cab for Cutie actually both have the same singer. Interesting eh? Anywho-- They're all really really good bands and so any song of theirs you download is going to be good. For Modest Mouse I would recommend: Float On, Ocean Breathes Salty, and well.. I would just recommend every single song on 'Good News For People Who Love Bad News' and 'Baron von Bullshit Rides Again'. The latter is one that you can only BUY off of modestmousebootlegs.com but it is a VERY good cd. I love it. .Ok thats it for now about music. George W. Bush is gracing us with his presence in Medina. For those of you who do not know what Medina is, or WHERE it is, all I should have to say is this: Bill Gates Lives There. You may think 'Medina is hell then?' but what you SHOULD gather from that piece of info is that it is in Seattle. The portion of Seattle that all the rich foggies live. This is a community that refused to pay taxes for the local libraries or police force- because they have their own. HMMM. I think this is funny though because see... Melinda Gates wanted to sign up her two children for library cards at the Bellevue Library (I have spoken to the librarian she spoke with also which I think is hilarious) but they REFUSED to give her library cards, because Medina residents do not pay taxes towards King County Library System. So she was refused. There is a sign on the wall listing the 'Gates Foundation- Bill and Melinda Gates' as a major donator to the Bellevue Library. But they still didnt get their cards. Because their community doesnt pay taxes. These people are damn rich and they wouldnt let their taxes go towards the libraries. Payback's a bitch aint it Melinda?? Anywho-- sorry for this being so long to all of you out there. Ok so George W. Bush is gracing us with this presence in Medina. Im taking my eggs. Jamie and Andy have heard of this story--- ahem 'plan'-- of mine. I'm going to take raw eggs to a George W. Bush speech, and just chuck it at him in the middle of it. I figure, I've only got a few more months in which to do it because I'm not 18 yet so... the law may treat me nicer if I get caught.... my parents support this also by the way. I think my mom thinks that I'm joking but now that he's in Medina--- how could I pass up the opportunity!?!? There's a new name up there--- -Jaime-- my friend who shares my name, who I chat with about sex, books movies and music. We kind of just hang out whenever. He's in Whistler right now too. I know that Jamie deserves a much better paragraph than this about his character- but I have confidence that his character will come through in my stories about our adventures. Jamie-- when you get back we're doing the vodka/seagull thing ok? No but's. So I guess that has brought me to the end of my rant for this morning. So far only have of my charge has awoken. He wants to go work on 'his road' by the 'woods' aka play boat. Talk to you all later!! Favorite quote from yesterday: [Andy] Thats what I love about you. [Jaime] That I'm a smartass? [Andy] It's 109173841098237% better than being a dumbass. Yay for Andy and Jaime conversations. LoL. Bleh I need to seeeeee Andy. :( I didnt even get to talk to him last night... damn. Anyways--- kid got out skateboard. Must be off. |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 10,August,2004 | Ahh... babysitting. There's nothing like it hm? For anyone who has ever babysat for two young boys for an extensive amount of time you know how tiring it is. However, this has become my summer employment and I really do like it... I do... but sometimes you kind of just want to sit the kids in their own separate rooms to keep as much possible space between them as possible, and then crank your headphones to the tune of the Killers or something. Lucky enough for me, tonight they're going to the Mariner's game with their parental units and so their mom left me with instructions to just basically let them veg out. I dont know if there is a harder task than entertaining a 6 and 9 year old together. Nothing holds their attention span beyond 15 minutes or so. If I'm lucky. Gossshh.. Ok last night I saw King Arthur. (I know that technically I'm supposed to put that title in italics since its a movie but I dont feel like it so just deal.) Personally I thought that it was a movie that I could only watch once and that would be the end of it. I wanted to go home halfway through! Well actually I just wanted to go somewhere else with Andy my bf because we hadnt gotten to see each other hardly and there we were sitting in a movie theater. It really was kind of a boring movie though. My mom kept telling me on the car ride home how hot the guy that plays Arthur is, but I think that he looked a lot like Mel Gibson. Cool eyes, but I dont really see myself going for the warrior 'I'm willing to sacrifice my life' kind of guy. Thats probably why I will never date anyone in the US armed forces. Call me a horrible person but that's just what I think. So we get to the movie and we go with my family (which I can tell Andy isnt too hot with to begin with) and then Marie and Emily find some spots to sit right in front of us. Which actually I didnt mind in the least. Andy kept throwing popcorn at them though. Ooops~!~ Time for a character list~!!! Cast List-- (in order of their appearance thus far) - Andy-- my boyfriend. Red head, tall, funny smart guy who shares my love for thrift store shopping. Well, and other loves of mine also, but that's one of the many. We've been dating just short of a month so far but it sure doesnt feel like its been that long. Time flies when you're having fun ;) I'll have plenty to blog about Andy I'm sure. - Emily-- another red headed friend of mine. Im outnumbered right now!! AHHH. Her 18th birthday is today- I wish her a good one. She's leaving for her freshman year at Willamette College in Salem Oregon really soon and that makes many of us on the island sad. :( But I will make sure to visit her at least a few times. :) She is very politically minded and pissed about Bush like we all should be, and she just returned from Finland which really seems to me like her true home. She's already planning her return during her winter break from Willamette. - Marie-- yay now I'm not outnumbered-- Marie is not a fiery redhead but a very very very blonde, blonde. But not in any permanent mental ways that I am yet aware of. She's a great friend and is much fun to talk to about shopping, shoes, movies, politics and other things. Ok so that's who has appeared in my 'saga' so far. In the background the music of Fantasia cycles... Sometimes you wonder about little kids and how music really affects their 'growth.' In band they've always told us that it promotes more complex brain growth and development but perhaps that was so they could keep us (well more like have our parents keep us) in the class. There are a lot of other kids that I know that are amazingly smart that do not know how to play any instrument at all. Which has reminded me that Andy plays the guitar. *sighs* hehe. :) It's amazing how fast my weeks fill up with an 'agenda.' Today and tomorrow I babysit until 4 and then on Thursday I think I am going to hang out with my friend Cassidy (oops another one to add to the list... hold on) and then on Friday I am 'escorting' my mom up to Oak Harbor so that when she turns in her car to be worked on at the dealer's, she has a car to be 'transported' around in. Which is kind of good for me anyways since last time I was transporting them all around we went to Wallmart and I bought the wrong make up. Bleh!~ So that's probably what I'm going to have to do this time also. Hm... maybe Andy could go with us.. I dont know if he'd like to be subjected to that kind of torture though. -- He'd have to deal with my family all day-- and part of that day may be spent at an Outlet Mall. Which are my favorite type, but my mom seems to be convinced that I wont EVER pick out shirts or pants with my boyfriend within a 10 mile radius or something. The logic behind that... I'm not sure of. Saturday is my day so far that I am trying with all my might to keep open so that I may hang out with Andy... and Sunday I am going to be the friend Scott's 'date' to his Fireman Picnic or something. He's another one for the list... Updated Cast List: - Cassidy-- a friend of mine who is also leaving for college this year--- only he's attending Evergreen State College. He's rather a new friend of mine-- and I havent seen him in about a month because we've both been so busy... he's got a cool Volvo that I love, and he's a cool guy that has tons of interests. I think that's one of the things that amazes me about him-- the amount of interests he HAS. Everything from swords to the prices of 'vagina dolls' on the internet (if anyone is wondering they go for about $300-$400 each) It's astounding. - Scott-- He will be a fellow senior whom I have known since 8th grade. He grew up on the east coast and I truly believe that he probably does belong there permanently. He gets 'east coast cravings.' Which I cannot understand as I have never been there in my life. He plays the trumpet and loves Jazz... he's got tons of interests too like languages, religions, and Guinness. Well I think thats about all I should write for now--- see what happens when I'm bored? Damn typing skills keep me from thinking about things too much before I type them. :P Anyways-- hope you all are having a wonderful day. :) |
4,184,380 | female | 17 | Student | Cancer | 09,August,2004 | Hello everyone--- Soooo how is everyone eh? Im Bored. Yes with a capital 'B' too... I'm waiting for Andy to wake up and either call or sign online because I want to go visit Emily. She leaves for Willamette really soon too which makes me very sad. Bleh. On to other news...so for those of you who would like a new overview of my life and friends and such... *I know that I have already posted this on my livejournal site for those of you who have seen that, but I am starting over* Ok so my family--- My Mom (Karri-- Never call her Mrs. Barker)--- Irish, trains doctors for practice software, is into pottery and scrapbooking. My Dad (Pat-- Never call him Mr. Barker) --- Native American-- I look the most like him - {Im the only one that got his dark hair} HVAC technician, loves restoring cars and other productive things. My Sister (Kaeli)--- Blonde haired, glasses, eighth grade, um... is very 'girly' unlike me... In some ways we are polar opposites. But when I go through my short spaz attacks of 'lets do each other's hair or paint our nails' she's there. My Brother (Lucas)--- Short, 9, almost 10 years old... knows more about cars, engines, and gears than I ever wish to know myself... good little kid. So thats my family basically. Save for my schizophrenic grandmother. I dont think she's actually been diagnosed with it but I'm convinced that's it. And my dad has a huge family--- he's the youngest of 8- it took me until last year to finally get all of my aunts' names straight. Ok moving on. I dont feel like making a list of my friends right now particularly but maybe at some other point in the not-too-distant future. Ok Im searching through my mind for something to blog on about, because if I cannot think of anything to write about then I'm sure that this was a waste of an entry you see? Phones. I hate how sometimes when you call a person's house their answering machine picks up immediately. And I dont know about you but I need time to prepare in my mind what exactly I'm going to leave as proof that I called their house. So if the answering machine picks up on the first ring I end up leaving a message that's usually somewhat like this: 'hi.... um... this is jaime and I was calling for Bob... NO! I mean Fred... and I was just calling to see um... what you're up to?? so could you uh... give me a call?? thanks' And then once I hang up I realize that that person doesnt have my number and since I didnt even leave him one to call me back at, and so I left proof on their machine that I am a blabbering idiot. Lovely. So if any of you get a message on your answering machine that is from me that seems to be quite a bit like the one above, know that it is not MY fault but your answering machine's fault. Fucking electronics. No, I like the people's answering machines that take like TEN rings to get to the message. Like Andy's. I just call... and wait... and wait... and wait... and ten rings later or so I get to leave a well thought-out message on his machine. Well, sometimes. Not always. But at least I can be sure that he has my number. Thats all I want to say about answering machines for now. Hm... something to type about that I enjoy. Nah Im not in the mood. Later--- with my extended friends list I will write about something I like. For now, this is all. :D |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 29,maart,2004 | Haloscan's at it again. I wonder what neurosis they're experimenting with now. I'm back at my old waterhole and I slept the whole afternoon away. Now I got a headache and a thirst which I quenched with Pepsi blue. I also have a fruit-flavored 7-up which tastes more like tepid cough syrup. And speaking of cough, I have this hard to cough-out-kind-of cough. All the 2-hour-sleep-per-day debts I've been thoughtlessly incurring is finally sending me charge slips with the usurious rates. Okay, enough on the cough. Tomorrow, Eric my lovely nephew, is graduating from pre-school. I think I'm going to show my support by taking his pictures. Okay, enough on nephews too . I'm bored. I'm not sleepy. I don't want to go and install MIRC and chat mindlessly because it is boring too. Speaking of MIRC, I'm thinking of writing a definitive tract on the perilous road of MIRC and how it will end with boredom. But I'm still collecting materials on it. Or too lazy to begin the introspective mode of thinking needed to actually start it off. Sigh. This is boring. I know. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 22,maart,2004 | My date entry is in Dutch (Belgium). I didn't know that the difference between the Dutch and the Belgians extends up to their language. All I know is that the Dutch don't like the Belgians, and that the Belgians couldnt' care less. Me, I like them both. Haha. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 21,maart,2004 | Of why we suddenly find ourselves here, in this site. It's because there's a glitch in the haloscan.com (thats the commenting server I was using). Everytime I open my or urlLink reckless writer 's site, I get this dismissive ho-hum-you-can-wait-til-the-sun-explodes-for-all-i-care message in my status watchacallit: 'waiting for haloscan.com'. So one waits. And waits. And waits. An aside. (Oh that is so cute, 'An aside'. I sound like Gertrude Stein.) Are we supposed to fucking wait til doomsday? I can't possibly face the Lord J.Christ in my ratty shorts and baggy eyes! If I were to go down to hell, I want to go down in style. Goddamit. I didn't watch Cold Mountain btw. I watched Runaway Jury on VCD instead. I definitely feel for John Cusack. Seen him in High Fidelity. He definitely shone in there. Yeah. Definitely. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 21,maart,2004 | No commenting button here. If you want to comment, you can write me an email. If that's too much trouble, go to ICQ and find me. I'm under: beautiful, golden-skinned, highly intelligent, sexy Filipina women. Should the ICQ direct you to someone that looks like some movie starlet, that's not me. Get over that too. Ogad. I can't get over the temporary--that is, I hope it's just a temporary glitch--loss of kfv's notes. I miss my little Eras Bold ITC fonts. I miss the sweet cornflowerblue background of my entry title. I miss the ad button of Firefox. I miss the links which i painfully and diligently pasted. I miss my blogsite. Waah. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 21,maart,2004 | This posting site looks and feels different. Of course this looks and feels different, you little shithead. This is a new blogsite, altogether! Goddamit. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 23,juni,2004 | I am feeling morose today. I feel hot. My hair is a fucking impossible primadonna. No respect at all. I would have cut it off with really sharp scissors or shave it off if I know it will give me a drop of respect. But it won't, it will just grow back, curly and frizzy and difficult. So it's a totally waste of time cutting it, cussing it, pulling at it, hot oiling it, brushing it, shampooing it with shampoos that promise straight silky hair, hair conditioning it with conditioners that specifically say 'frizz-free hair' which is a total lie. Total, absolute, Clinton-saying-I-didnt-fuck-Monica-type of lie. Bile. I am bile today. |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 01,juni,2004 | This is Swiffy. Twiffy's partner. Twiffy is holding court in the other blog. urlLink urlLink |
3,032,299 | female | 33 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 01,juni,2004 | I am happy today. I've been happy since two weeks ago. It's a strange feeling, to feel happy for two weeks straight now. Happiness is relative and I can see how this happiness is related to me. I met someone. |
3,864,184 | female | 37 | Law | Virgo | 07,July,2004 | On a bright and sunny morning in the back woods of Michigan I woke to the sound of singing birds in the trees. As I laid there contemplating the day I wondered what made me choose to return to this hole in the wall town. I knew the answer, if I wanted to be honest. It was a combination of boredom and love of my mother. I had bolted from Idlewild as soon as I was able, off to California, as far away as possible, to escape what I believed to be hell on earth. What else would you call a small town with nothing to do, nothing to offer and no hope of change ever. I called it hell. California, on the other hand, seemed like heaven. Fun, exciting and very far away from Michigan. After two years in heaven, however, I figured out what got to me was staying in any place for too long. Two years had been too long for California. In an effort to change my surroundings I took a few quick classes in French and signed up with an agency that placed American nannies with families in France. I signed up for an 18 month stint, trying to curb the possible boredom I might find in France if I were to commit myself to staying any longer than that. After going through the telephone interview process with many families, I was hired by a family in Sceaux and scheduled to arrive at their home in October. Those arrangements in place I quickly packed my things and headed back to Michigan to spend the 3 months prior to October with my mother. Now here I was, waking up in what I use to view as hell, Idlewild, Michigan. Idlewild was once a bustling summer vacation spot for black families. It was established in the 1920s and grew through the '30s and '40s as Jim Crow laws prevented blacks from renting or owning homes in then-popular lakeside vacation spots. It was a place where families from Detroit, Chicago, Cleveland, New York and elsewhere would meet each summer to fish, hunt, swim and enjoy the pastoral woods. That was the early days. It still served as a vacation spot for many since fishing, hunting and swimming could still be enjoyed, but the 'bustling' days were over and had been over for quite some time. Money had left Idlewild many years prior and from the vacant and boarded up properties throughout, it didn’t look like it would be coming back anytime soon. When I was a small child living in Dayton, Ohio we came to Idlewild frequently to vacation. We stayed in a cottage that my father had helped build as a child with his granfather. A small two bedroom house with no running water, a big wood stove in the middle of the living room and a fenced in porch that my brother and I shared as a bedroom. I don’t remember hating the experience, and actually believe my brother and I enjoyed it. Hot summers in Idlewild included playing outside, driving into “town” to buy ice ceam at Jones and having our parent’s undivided attention. It was a place that we visited . When our parents informed us, the summer before I started high school, we would be moving there to live full time, I knew they couldn’t be serious. No one lived in Idlewild. They didn’t even have a big grocery store, let alone a mall! I was also pretty sure they didn’t have a high school, but that thought didn’t seem to cause me as much greif as no mall. Two months later I found out that while I was right about there being no mall, I was wrong about everything else. People actually did live in Idlewild, they did have a big grocery store (“big” being a relative term) and to my even greater dismay I learned that they did have an elementary, middle and high school! All things considered, the three years I spent as a teenager living in Idlewild were not that bad. Yes, I viewed it as hell on earth, but that was the general consensus of all the teenagers in the Lake County area because there was NOTHING to do. This small fact lead to bigger problems like teen pregnancy and high drug use, but I managed to avoid those pitfalls and left for California as soon as my parents said I could. Now here I was, back at square one, if only temporarily, to hang out with my mother. My mother lives on one of the many lakes in the county. Of the 5 houses that surround the lake my mother’s is the only one that is occupied year round. The other neighbors only visit for a portion of the summer. Right now, towards the end of September, we are all alone. Me, my mom, Honey, our golden lab, and the mosquitos. It’s very quiet, with the exception of the birds singing in the trees, and quite serene. At moments like this I wonder why I had been so quick to bolt two years prior. Then I recall my epiphany about boredom. Were it not for the fact that I was scheduled to leave for France in two days today might have been identical to the almost 3 months of other days I’d spent in Idlewild which consisted mostly of sleeping in and doing nothing. This was, however, the last day I would spend with my mom before heading to Detroit to begin my journey to France. My mom took the day off from work so that we could spend some quality time together. Quality time with my mom can be as simple as being in the same room, same house, or general vicinity. My mom has an aura about her that can be felt miles from her physical being. Its an amazing thing but one that I am quite dependent on – her aura seemed to reach out to me while I was in California keeping me from feeling so far away. While I couldn’t be sure that she was happy about my decision to go to Europe, I was sure that she loved me and supported pretty much whatever I threw at her in the form of a personal decision. I often found myself wondering where that ability came from, if its one of those gifts you receive once you become a parent or something some people simply possess. |
3,864,184 | female | 37 | Law | Virgo | 07,July,2004 | I’m so pissed off. In March of 2003 I was admitted to the emergency room of Meridian Park Hospital because I was very ill. I couldn’t catch my breath, I didn’t respond to my husband, I didn’t respond to anyone. I was out of it. After checking me in the doctors were so sure that I was not going to live through the night that they asked my husband if I wanted to donate my organs. THAT’s how sick I was. By the following morning I had been up all night being worked on by doctors. I had a stint put into my heart so that they could draw blood directly from the point since my veins were nonexistent in such a dehydrated state. I was better, breathing and talking, in a knowing state of where I was and what was going on, even though still very weak. Around 11:15 that morning a phlebotomist came into my room to draw blood. He was sent from the lab because they needed blood from my veins and the nurse’s were unable to do it in such a dehydrated state. The phlebotomist entered the room, advised me why he was there and then tied rubber tubing around my arm. At this point I shut my eyes in an effort to rest while this was being done. I had been up all night, was exhausted and sick of all the commotion that had been constantly around me. Once the needle was inserted the phlebotomist put his hand on my left breast and fondled me. Being completely honest my first thought was that this must be a way in which to get the blood flowing so that they could withdraw the blood required. I knew they had been having a problem, and it was all that seemed to make sense. He removed his hand and then placed it again on my left breast again fondling. Again I thought it must be a medical routine. He removed his hand when my day nurse came into the room to check and see if everything was alright, that he was able to draw the blood successfully. He answered her and she left the room again and again, he placed his hand on my left breast. At this point I began to believe that something was not right with this situation so I opened my eyes and looked up at him. He was not looking at me, but was looking into the hallway as if to watch and be sure that no one could see what he was doing. He then removed his hand from my breast , took the needle out and left my room telling me that he hoped I felt better. Immediately after this encounter I was taken to have an MRI, then my husband and children came to visit and then I was allowed to try and get some rest. It was not until later that evening when I was finally alone, trying (unsuccessfully) to sleep that I replayed the day and the encounter with the phlebotomist. I buzzed the nurse to come in and when she did I told her that the phlebotomist had felt me up. That I had thought it must be some way to get blood circulating, but on reflection I was sure he had felt me up. She reported my complaint to the powers that be and the positioning began. When my husband visited me the next morning I informed him of the event and he immediately went to talk to whoever was in charge. The hospital immediately took the position that I was a nut and this did not happen. They were extremely defensive about the whole thing and without blatantly saying the words called me a liar. I was in ICU for 6 days. When I got out of the hospital I was required to be off work for a month. A week after I was released from the hospital I felt better and left my house for the first time. I went to the Police Department and filed charges for sexual assault. Of course the police spoke to the phlebotomist who denied that he had done anything and under the circumstances, because it was my word against his, and no witnesses were present, there was nothing the Police could do. Two months after my incident in March, the same phlebotomist did the same thing to another patient at the same hospital and this time there was a witness to his act. The police called to inform me that they were reopening the case because now there were two unrelated women accusing the same person of doing the same thing. In September me and the other victim testified before a grand jury which indicted the phlebotomist on four counts of sexual assault. In May of 2004 the trial was to begin against him. The first thing to happen was that the two cases were severed. Apparently it’s the courts prerogative to bend over backwards and help the defendant in any way it can. By separating the two cases it meant that a jury would only hear about one incident and form their opinions on his guilt or innocence on that limited bit of information. As it played out the other victim’s case went first – the one with a witness – and ultimately the jury found the bastard NOT GUILTY. I’m so pissed off. I’ve decided many things, mainly that I must vent my frustration in writing and then let it all go, but I’ve also decided that simply because he was found not guilty in her case does not mean I will give up my efforts and not go forward with my case. I feel duty bound to at least try and get him convicted. Chances are even slimmer in my situation that he will be convicted but I feel like I have to try. There are many things in my favor that were not in hers. She was 19, and I am 37. I have been married to the same man for 18 years and come across as a very stable and forthright individual. Not only was she 19, but she also spoke to the press about the incident A LOT. She created a circus atmosphere by talking to the paper and the TV stations frequently. I understand what she was doing, trying to get the information out there to alert people to the problem, but I had no desire to talk to the press and become part of the circus. The defense attorney in her case flat out said she was lying and simply in this for the money – although I don’t expect them to say that about me, cause my actions have proven different, I do expect them to say that I was very ill and although I believe this is what happened, in my state, how could anyone trust what I believed to be happening as truth. WHATEVER. I know what he did, HE knows what he did, and now, fortunately, his wife knows what he did two because even though the jury didn’t know two separate people with no connection whatsoever accused him of doing the same exact thing, SHE knows that and must live with that. Am I prepared to go to trial. I don’t know if you can be prepared. I was advised the defense attorney cried during closing arguments, CRIED at the injustice that was being served on his client, a fine upstanding model employee at the hospital – injustice because he is Pakistani, which in America’s vision equates to Arab – and this was all befalling him because of 911 – again WHATEVER. The man is a sicko preying on innocent, very ill women in a state where they cannot help themselves and he needs to STOP. I don’t believe I was his first victim, only the first to make the complaint, and if he isn’t found guilty I have no doubt that I’ll be the last. . . . I’m just so pissed off at the injustice and the unfairness of the court system. I don’t know why this surprises me though. O.J. was found not guilty, Michael Jackson will surely be found not guilty and Scott Peterson is destined for the same fate. I’d love to be wrong about the last two, but I am so bitter and pissed off right now I just can’t find the strength to think anything more. |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 22,June,2004 | Meet urlLink Hottie McHotson . |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 15,June,2004 | I think that this blog has gone to Avram's head. Since have started this fansite, he has burst into flames. It seems that Sara and Avram have been disagreeing on the events of the weekend. For the record, Avram was drunk. end of story on all accounts. |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | So, Avram has resurfaced. I do not know if this is due to the inspiration that this fansite has brought him or because he was just ready to blog again. But I do know one thing and that is that we love his blogs. Now, don't worry I am not going to just retire this blog the same day that I started it. That is not going to happen. We are going to continue to bring the life of Avram to all the little people. Now that we have established all that I would like to put out a big reminder that June 14 (Flag Day) is Avram's Birthday. That is on Monday, so we better start partying this weekend. Do we get off for Flag Day? |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | So, av likes to paint this picture that he is no good with ladies... but I beg to differ. Even back in the highschool days he was a souper-pimp and didn't even realize it. Here an IM conversation I recently had with a mutual friend of ours from highschool which illustrates my point (some IM names have been changed to protect the innocent and this is NOT Rachel Cohen): trev555555: me and avram are still good friends trev555555: I see him once or twice a week rachel: really? trev555555: yep rachel: what is he up to? trev555555: hes temping at this one place and being a substitute teacher rachel: remember when i was in love him? rachel: those were the days trev555555: no.. man... thats crazy trev555555: you were in love with av? rachel: shayna liked him too trev555555: shayna did!!!??? See... right under our noses, women the world around have a passion for avram. And for that, I must tip my hat. |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | avram works in very mysterious ways. when we first met avram it was through the cryptic messages he left on our dorm dry-erase message boards. they said something like 'avram says 'hi' 3:40am'. or something. this weird approach to communicating with the opposite sex is still a big part of being avram. recently he's been canvasing for people who want to add a little 'av diggity to the rotation'. and by that i believe he's referring to the rotation that pot makes when you smoke it and pass it. but av - what about the rotation that i make every work day when i check out people's blogs on the internet? that is where i've been missing the av diggity. however maybe this is something more celestial. i've noticed i've also not been blogging regularly. and this morning i woke up with a sore throat for some reason. am i getting sick? ya - sick of avram not blogging anymore!! |
3,597,131 | male | 24 | indUnk | Gemini | 10,June,2004 | It seems that Avram has fallen off the face of the internet. I know that he has stuff to blog about. He only calls me at least 3 times a day while I am at my desk. For example, I know that Avram recently visited Atlantic City and attended a wedding. These are things worth mentioning, however, Avram has not blogged since urlLink May 19 and that did not tell us anything about his life. So, I have started this blog to fill in for what Avram is not telling us. I will not spill Avram's deep dark secrets, but only maintain his internet existance that we have all grown to love. If you have stories to tell about Avram please feel free to email me at [email protected] and I will send you the login info so that you can add your own Avram posts. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 20,April,2004 | Hey guess what now i have an online journal thing so all you nosy people can read about my life! Hehahe. Well not much went down today except i wore my awesome A7X beater and lots of people asked me what that means. I just glared at them. I have piano lessons tonight and i suck....so i better go practice,OUT! **Cause i feel so mad, I feel so angry....** |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 21,April,2004 | Notice me Take my hand Why are we Strangers when Our love is strong Why carry on without me? Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need you baby I make believe That you are here It's the only way I see clear What have I done? You seem to move on easy And everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you baby I may have made it rain Please forgive me My weakness caused you pain And this song is my sorry At night I pray That soon your face Will fade away And everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you baby After all... After all... |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 22,April,2004 | it's all about strategy. i stole this from JUSTIN because he's cool. [my name is]: megan catherin mcgrath [sex]: female [bday]: august 03 1987 [sign]: leo [siblings]: one sister [hair color]: blonde [eye color]: blue [height]: 5'5' [love is]: UGGHHHHAHHHHPSHHH....fine. -W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X- [what do you notice first?]: eyes [what makes you smile]: their smile [what gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: when they see me too -W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N- [you talked to on the phone]: ashley-hole [you instant messaged]: justin [you laughed with]: juuustin -D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U- [what's your favorite food?]: ruby tuesday's shrimp pasta alfredo [whats ur favorite fruit?]: nanners [what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emo pain! [trust others way too easily?]: NOOO WAAAY -N U M B E R- [of hearts i have broken?]: ehh 1 or 2 i suppose [of broken hearts?]: ONE.....like 4 times and counting [of tight friends?]: probably....11 [of cd's that i own?]: probably around 100 [of things in my past that i regret?]: nothing f a s h i o n | s t u f f [where is your favorite place to shop]: Hollister [any tattoos or piercings]: ears [what kind of shampoo do you use?]: herbal essences [Where do you want to get married?]: Colorado or Canada [how many buddies are online right now?]: 9...wow f a v o r i t e s [color]: red, black [boys names]: Avery, Tiernan, Cael [girls names]: Aiden, Terran, Berret [subjects in school]: english [animals]: tigers grrrr [sports]: swimming and snowboarding h a v e | y o u | e v e r [bungee jumped?]: nope [made yourself throw up?]: nope, i cant stand throwing up [skinny dipped?]: yeaAaAah [ever been in love?]: yes only once [made yourself cry to get out of trouble?]: haha yes [pictured your crush naked?]: yeah! [actually seen your crush naked?]: no unfortunately [cried when someone died?]: yes [lied]: yes [been rejected?]: yes [rejected someone]: yes [done something you regret?]: i guess. but i learned from those things c u r r e n t [clothes]: striped hollister shirt and jeans...woo [music]: billy talent [annoyance]: bitches..cough cough...courtney [smell]: victoria's secret 'secret crush' [favorite artist]: Dave Matthews Band [favorite group]: same yo [desktop picture]: fishies! [cd in player]: goo goo dolls [color of toenails]: clear... l a s t | p e r s o n [you touched]: probably kelsi...i touch her alot. ahahaha [hugged]: zack [you imed]: justin..this ? was already asked, bitch [you yelled at]: my sister [you kissed]: Zack F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s [do you like filling these out?]: kinda [gold or silver]: silver [what was the last film you saw at the movies?]: hmm...cheaper by the dozen [favorite cartoon/anime]: South Park [what did you have for breakfast this morning]: honey nut cheeeerios [who would you love being locked in a room with]: brandon koerner! my love [how many people are on your buddy list]: only 64 [like watching sunrises or sunsets]: either, it depends on where i am and who i'm with. beach-sunset. mountains-sunrise. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 22,April,2004 | Hi kids....i'm in school and ben is sitting next to me making annoying noises. But he has ADD so that's ok. Pizza lunch was alright today...i miss the old pizza and no one wants to come anymore so we are practically friendless. Blah. I have nothing to do tonight except write a college essay. Wooooooo. Ben keeps looking at me its' making me uncomfortable. Jon Saylor is in here....he's so hot. In a very hot way!! YeaAaAaAah....i think i'm done. OH we played golf today and i almost hit the ball to the 100 flag...but i didn't. Aww hell. I'm worse than jessica simpson so i basically need to die. BYE |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 24,April,2004 | Hey pimps and ho's. I'm bored so i'm writing in this thing already. Ehh, what can ya do? I got a prom dress today! It's super-hott to the maxx! Guess what. My Brandon is having a 'Bring Megz Home' benefit concert so i can go home for the summer! Yay! What a bud! If that doesn't pull through, me and justin will be taking a road trip and that would be mo fun too! Its a nice today after it rained like biotch last night. I can't wait for summer bayybe!! Mo' trips to the beach with the gang. YESSS. Ok I'm going 2 watch a movie now with my cool sister who i hate. Buh-bye. **Sometimes I wish i was smart I wish i made cures for How people are I wish i had power I wish i could lead I wish i could change the world For you and me 'Cause i feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over, Let's start over** |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 24,April,2004 | Hey my darlings. Today was such a bad friday! I am sick as a mo fo and everyone else is partying while me and justin sat at home and watched Pimp my ride. Haha it was a banger tho...and we ate dunkaroos so that pretty much was a party anyway. www.williamhung.net is the place to be. I want to marry him. He's my little chinese chipmunk. Rachel wants him too. I was so bored today that I watched MTV Hits and noticed that they were showing the same lineup of videos just now that they were when i got home from school....i could actaully predict what the next one was going to be. Honestly.....that is sad. 1 week, 2 days till i'm un-grounded. Amazing! Oh and my family will be in VA for prom weekend so i'm thinkin prom after-party at my hizzouse! Wat up my Andreas..i miss u have fun with Ter-bear! Ahh it's time for some eyes shut. Peace out my negros! ::At night i pray...that soon yor face will fade away:: Megzzzz |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 25,April,2004 | Hey yooooo. Amanda's in florida. Not cool. I did nothing today except get some more stuff for prom and watch a couple movies. That's about the only things i can do for about a week. And Ben, I wasn't sleeping...that's not all i do! Haha, okay..so maybe i was. I think a bunch of cool people are at wendy's right now and that makes me furious because i'm missing out on that deliciousness! Dave is soo irate right now!Oh yeah, i took a bath today. I think i was in there for like an hour and it was really hot and when i got out i was steaming. But that might just be cause i'm hott. Pshhh (X to the Z Xzibit). Peeaaace. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 27,April,2004 | I stole this from Hadassah because i really like it and its true. Hehe sorry Dass but eh u know ur one of them: to my TRUE friends: i got ur back, i'll be there. call me when u need me, don't hesitate to tell me. i'll listen, i'll lie, i'll cry, i'll laugh, i'll chill, i'll drive, i'll walk, i'll run, i'll hide, i'll pay, i'll stay, i'll leave, and i'll believe. wherever, for whatever, however, till whenever...well actually forever. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 27,April,2004 | Hey kiddos. Guess what. William Hung and Hanson should go on tour together because they are the best singers ever. HAHA no actually that new song by hanson isn't half bad ehh ehh ehh? Hmm nothing happened today cause i'm still grounded but trent and stefan stopped by for a while. We sat outside and froze our asses off in late april. How sad. That's ok....in 2 weeks it's the beach and that will be SOO amazing i can't wait! 2 words can easily sum up today: Pop rocks (consider that one word) and Foam candy (that's one word too). Both amazing things....AMAZING! It's raining in florida and that's also amazing. I heard so many stories today. Like 'worm-hunting' and people walking in on their parents and poeple's moms sucking their friends dicks when their drunk....hmm. I never knew that and now i am going to look at her different. Thats wrong. But o well i'm peacin. Later yooooos |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 28,April,2004 | So today i was def reallllly tired and slept the whole day. Tonight was half bad, half good. Some talk from school got back to my parents...that's not cool. I hate people who talk and gossip which is basically all of WY but o well i'll live. Hmm i'm also dreading alot of things and looking forward to alot of things. It's just a messed up time for me right now. OMG justin got in a crash today! mrs. knaub was 'daydreaming' and ran a stop sign and totaled his car. But o well she has to pay for it, nigga whaaat! Haha yay! Now he can get his ride pimped fo rill. But i was really worried about him when i found out. He's my nigg. But he didn't get hurt so YAY! The O.C. tonight was amazing as usual and so were the dunkaroos i ate. My friendz Shanny and trent came by so that was cool cause none of my other friends ever visit me. Aww hell i'm just not cool enough i dont really have any friends. I'm sad. Good night |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 02,May,2004 | Hello! I'm finally un-grounded, wooo! On friday night i went mini golfing with chad, kate, ben and karin. It was ok but we all sucked. Ben was suffering from major ADD so he kept vandalizing things and being mean to poor little kids. Haha. Then through the middle of the course, Kate decided she didn't want to golf anymore so we left. Yesterday i was bored off my ass until i went to Stefan's and me, him and trent watched Gladiator and got some smoky joe's. It was delicious. Russel Crowe is hott...he glad....iates. Haha! I dunno what i'm doing today but i had a bad dream that made me sad so hopefully that won't come true. Later baby |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 03,May,2004 | Hey....what more can i say, i'm sick of school and the days are getting worse. Fun, eh? But it's ok cause i know everyone else is goin through the same thing. It's almost over. One more fuckin year we can do it. West york is so cool though....i dont even wana move schools. HAHAHA. wow maybe Central will take me? Ahh oh well things are gettin better. At least i have my true friends to stick around and i know they always will. My friends are the best and everyone else can eat a tree. LOL, Hillary! Oh i can't wait till Hillary comes!! And i cant wait till school is out, i go camping, i go to flying camp and i have wonderful days 'alone' at my house when my parents are at work in the summer. Hehahe YESSS. time for some sleepies as justin would say. We got our prom tickets today, they're shiny! and i had 2 keep em cause justin is unorganized. Musta forgot.....haha byebye |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 05,May,2004 | Hello! Today was wonderful. Well, not the school part but pretty much everything else. The OC tonight was sad though!!! I was cryin....Ryan can't leave!Stupid kids and thier pre-marital sex. Havin babies and whatnot. Ahhhh! Hmm tomorrow is friday for me and many others, because friday is 'fitness day' at our school and u have to pay $20 to be part of it. So we're just gonna sleep in and partyyyyy instead. Sounds good 2 me. Have fun if you're one of the people playing ultimate frisbee or DDR. Good luck UWL!! Well i'm tired so it's sleepy time good night girls and boys. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 10,May,2004 | Hmm hey you! Need a little update, eh? Friday was fun sleeping in! And me, Karin, Kate and Amanda layed out at Kate's house for a while. Kate had the radio on 80's flashback music. It was hottttt! Then Amanda made her change it so she changed it to oldies! Haha but we got back to the flashbacks which were amazing. Clouds started comin in and we decided we should go in. Good idea cuz it was a monster storm! We went to this cute lil store and got REAL cokes! Hmm...saturday was a banger..!!! Let's just say i didn't go to bed until 5 am and had to wake up at 8 to drive to phili! Hotel Stefan was a success and i am forever in love with the song Roses by outkast. Hehahe. Yeah phili was gay yesterday for my sister's stupid soccer tournament. I felt like shit and i just slept the whole time. I'm all beat up....bumps on my head and bruises on my arm. Oh yah kristi thinks she's gonna fight me. If brandon was a man he would take care of his own problems, not have his bitch fight em for him. some people deserve to burn slowly while being tortured by rats. They are 2 of those people. LATER! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 13,May,2004 | Hiya kids. Today was very fun and hot like whoa! I went to hershey park for the physics trip instead of poopy school. It was me, dass, dana, mal, katie and dao. Mo fun girls!! Haha the new ride is real cool it goes from 0-72 in 2 seconds. worth the hour wait. Oh hell i got these nuts...they were $4 but they were sooo worth it because they were roasted cashews with cinnamon and frosted omg they were the most banger things i have ever tasted!!! Anyways, great day now i'm real tired. Me n Dass slept the whole way home n i guess we looked cute according to matt n justin...oh well at least it looks good when i'm dead and drooling. Haha! Hmm...sleepy time i think i'll skip dinner. Oh yah, i got a little tan today so be happy. love ya darlings!! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 15,May,2004 | Hey gangsta babies. I got a cool title thing liek justin now! Weee! Hmm i'm very bored. Ben is here but he's asleep in my bed so shhhhh! We're waiting for trent to get here and take us to a party. Justin got in another wreck. This time it was minor but a nigg bumped into him. Nigga what! How rude. Nothing exciting is happening at all. It's raining but it used to be all hot and sunny. I got a tan! Yay it gets darker every day but i'm still caucasian like whoa. My mom and sister are gone so let's rejoice and be glad. Daddy is the fun shit. Well i guess i'm bouncin, gonna get ready. Later hos i looove you. -You wanted the best...it wasn't me Will you give it back? Now i'll take the lead When there's no more room to make it grow. I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive. Is this what you want? Is this what you need? How you end up, let me know.- |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 16,May,2004 | Whats up darlings? Last night was a parttyyy at chad's. I had fun, but his mom, aunt and grandma woke me and trent up at 6:45. I was pisssed to the core. I came home and slept till 2:30 then me and my fasha saw Van Helsing. It was a good flick. Very gothic-like and dark but i really liked it. I wanna look like kate beckinsale. And hugh jackman is hott. 'If you're going to kill someone, just do it. Don't stand there talking about it!' hahahaha. Truu same goes for if you wanna fight someone. Ahem. hmmm i realy like the all american rejects in case u haven't noticed lately. They're cooool. Tonight was sad. I can't' say why...i'm just sad. byebye kids. As i go, remember all the simple things you know. My mind is just a crutch and i still hope, that you will miss me when i'm' gone. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 17,May,2004 | Haha today was so funny cuz kristi walked up to me and said 'I heard u were talkin shit about me?' I said, and ur point is....? I think she was scared cuz i could tell she didn't know what to say. Then she walked away and i just laughed. It's official. I'm gettin a tattoo in 2 weeks. Of a butterfly and its gonna be somewhere my parents can't see ;) YAY! I'm excited it will be cute. Ok well...i gotta go to bed i still haven't caught up on the sleepies. Later buds i love you! -As i leave will you be someone to say goodbye? As i leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?- |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 18,May,2004 | Wow tonight is the first time i have ever watched American Idol. It is SO stupid! I think the judges pick the person they're going to like before the show even starts and then they gang up on the others no matter how well they sang. Biatches. Hmm i'm really sick of english with mr. cook he is so frustrating. Nothing is ever good enough. Dammit. Another night spent doing work for that class. Nigga please! School really needs to end cuz summer is the hot shit! Ooo but prom is next friday and that shall be fun to the super mega max with justin! Uh oh i better still have the shiny tickets...! Omg my sister just lost a tooth. She is 14! Whaaat! Ahh guess the tooth fairy will come give her a whole dollar, wooo! She's cool. That's really weird. I found all my teeth under my parents sink when i was like 7. Haha, ok well i'm sick of typing think i'll go listen to some country my new fav thing! byebye love |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 20,May,2004 | Today was one of the shittiest days of my life in west york. And trust me, every day is hideous. Burger king for lunch. Very delicious. 500 ketchup packets gathered by me and justin as usual. Scattered them accross white street, like usual BK business. Every time it never ceases to make me laugh, those packets popping is the most wonderful sound to my ears. Well anyway, that was fun but i suppose some lady saw this happen and followed us back to the school. Told mr. horton that I did it. Me and only me. Well i was rudely interrupted from the disco video in my guitar class, simply to be informed that i could no longer eat open lunch for the rest of the year. THATS FIIIINE! And also, if the lady takes it to the cops i could get a $300 fine for littering. Also FINE. So here i am all pissed of and getting in trouble never ceases for the day. Then i realize i have so much shit to do for english, and i have choir practice from 6-9. Incredible evening. And of course all throughout the day, because i'm weak i just break into tears cuz i cant handle shit happening all at once and maybe i miss someone? yeah. Well it's sleepy time i guess. Later bro's and ho's. I love you all.... |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 22,May,2004 | Hey ladies and gentlemen. Wow last night was the hershey trip and i think everyone is still sleeping right now. I finally got to sleep at 7! yay! haha and it felt sooo good after walking around all night. We waited in the line for Storm Runner for 2 hours, and i did not get to enjoy the ride because the whole time i thought ben was going to puke all over me so i was scared as shit. Hmm...some other fun things were the pirate ship Arrr, bumper cars at 3 AM, 'rock music' ahahaha, and playing 4 square cuz we were sooo bored. Rachel took me home in the morning and told me some very funny stories about all the thugs that were there. Seriously, there were so many black gangstas there...and they would cut in line for every ride. But anyway, Rachel was sleeping on a bench and this big black girl came up to her and screamed in her face n woke her up! Why do they have to be so annoying. And it doesn't help that alot of our school is racist haha sooo it was funny. Anyway, i think i'll go back to sleep then i have my choir concert. Dont even think about going because its going to be hideous. Byebye! -And if you never stop when you wave goodbye, you just might find if you give it time, You just might wave hello again, you just might wave hello again. And that's the way this wheel keeps working now- |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 25,May,2004 | it's true. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 27,May,2004 | Hey you! Well things are much better lately. I've learned that here in york i can trust about 4 people to really believe in me and stick up for me. Thanks guys. All others can die. So anyway, i've been sneaking out for lunch every day and today mrs. malone saw me walk in the side door n she told the office. Well, mr. bentzel said i have a saturday detention but i can't go cuz i'm busy both saturdays we have left, so it's summer detetion for 3 hours! HAHA, hmm wonder if i'll go? I'm not going to west york next year so there is no point. Yay! I will miss 2% of the people there. U know who you are babies. Tomorrow night is prom! It's a half day of school and i have tests to take n shit. Get my hurr did and whatnot. Tonight i got my nails done. THey look pretty. Guess what? My parents said even if we all dont move back to WA, i will be living there next year.That makes me very happy. I'm so excited! But i will miss some of u kids. I cant wait 2 see Brandon. i love you forever and ever and ever and ever good night! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 28,May,2004 | Hey guys! Well tonight was prom and it was sooo much fun! First of all, the place was beautiful, second of all, the food was really good, and 3rd i danced! Haha me and justin are just punk rock white kids but we made up our own gangsta dances and had mo fun! I foudn a random pack of cameras at our table so i just took one and i'm glad cuz there's gonna be some funny pictures! The place was decorated really pretty. The dj's played lots of lil jon and west york loves that YeAaAaAaaaaah! Chicken oscar was delicious. But yes, children....prom night is definately a night to remember and anyone who didn't go or hasn't gone yet, you need to go! It was mo fun with justin. We have so many amazing dances and well yeah we're just amazing...so...fuck you. His tux was the hottness. And my hair smells really good haha. Omg on the way back, we saw this big car crash and it was people from prom cuz they were all wearing dresses. 2 cars were a little smashed up and 1 was completely upside down and smashed. I really hope everyone is alright!!!! ;( But other than that, the night was GrEaT!! sleepy time! nite! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 01,June,2004 | What can i say it was just in my head....whats up youngun's? Camping over the weekend was very long and not fun. It started to rain on monday and the campground turned into an absolute quagmire! Haha that's my dad's word and i love it. But it is a real word. Sounds like a Hillary word to me! This week is better. I put people in their places and have attempted to make things okay with others. Whether they are okay, i dont know. It's hard to tell. The most unlikely people can turn the other way suddenly, and the most unlikely can turn right back around. It's a fun game. Not really, ho's!!! I love dustin kern. He signed my yearbook so ultra-cooly. Justin is going to sleep now to dream about my cute little face.....aww how dreamy! I wish i could pack him up and take him back to washington with me. Justin, you are my bestest friend here, i love ya! Omg! the new Harry Potter movie comes out on friiiiidaaay! YAY! And hillary might not be coming cuz her mom is sick but her mom can suck it up! hehe, u better come hill, or i will flip shit! Ok i suppose its sleepy time for little girls. Good night! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 03,June,2004 | I'm so mad and frustrated and confused and just everything right now! Hillary can't come anymore cuz her mom is sick and of course something always has to ruin it. I have fucking finals tomorrow that i didn't study for because i had to write too many damn papers and do projects. I still have to do a vocal portfolio thing but hell if that will get done. And i've just been thinking about ALOT of things and i dont think it matters where i live, i'm not going to be happy anywhere. Because that's just how that goes. The only thing that can make me happy, i have fucked up so many times and it will just never happen and it makes me really mad and sad and so torn between places. And i should express my true feelings but that will just make everything so much worse. Everything is gay. If u can make me happy in any way please do it cuz i really need it right now! PEACE |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 06,June,2004 | Hey you. Well i haven't written in here for a while but i'm in a much better mood now! And things are just looking up. We'll see how the summer goes, darlings. Hmm...friday i had my Alg 3 final and i know i failed it but what can ya do? It was a half day and me n Rachy went straight to the store and bought 3 packages of velveeta mac and cheese because it was my dream for the day. Went to her hizzouse and cooked it and ate it...amazing! I ate more than i should have but it's so fun to eat and nothing tastes better than mac and cheese. We also watched Goldmember and between that movie and Rachel's comments, i didn't stop laughing the whole time! She has these little Goldmember figurines and wow i can't say i hated them at all. Yesterday i just chilled all day and it was a GREAT day for little girls named Meg! :) Today i chilled too. Mostly slept because my back feels like it's broken and i felt like i was gonna puke nd pass out. Yay! Must be gettin old.... Well its dinner time for kids who sleep all day! Aloha!(aloha means hello aaand goodbye, you silly ass!) |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 13,June,2004 | Hey babes. Yes i failed my Alg 3 final as i had predicted. 61% yooo. Wow, how bout an update? Tuesday was the last day of school and there was this party thing at amanda's grandma's pool. Lots of people showed up and it was fun. THere were gladiator wars, and i got pretty burnt. Wednesday i babysat allll day for 3 little children who were a handful but i'll be seeing alot of them this summer. Whitney is cute :) Ever since then i have done practically nothing. Except sit around and watch tv and movies such as Kill Bill(which sucked) and Pretty Woman. How exciting. I wish someone would give me something interesting to do! I can't enjoy the great outdoors here because....there is none. York, PA sucks....let's drive to Baltimore! *Hehe* Oh i did get my belly button pierced and it is hotttt to the double maxx and today i got a new shirt at hollister. But i think its too small! Some things dont fit inside the shirt that should, and that has never happened to me before! Muhahahaha. Well i'll be going now, buh bye. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 21,June,2004 | Heeey. The summer's been more intersting lately, so hooray. I babysit for those kids alot which means i can actually have a new wardrobe this fall for once! Let's see, Friday night me and Justin rented You Got Served. On the way back from the video store, we got served. There was this medical vehicle so he swerved out of the way and hit the right side mirror on something on the side of the road. So...the mirror part shattered and i had to hold it the whole way back to my house, where we duck taped it back on. Anway, the movie was ghettolicious. 'Chatta chatta chit chit!' Haha i |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 26,June,2004 | Learn how to break dance. Haha, i've always thought it would be fun and i'm pissed that guys can go and be more flexible than me. So i'll try it. Nothing exciting has been happening at all. I agree with Amanda-i have never hated anything more than this summer. (except a few certain people.) But it's true. The days are nice and sunny, but what to do and who to share them with? Nothing and no one. It's a waste! Summer detention sucked too. 3 hours of reading a book and freezing my ass off in that over-air-conditioned school of theirs. Sometimes i lay outside for 2 hours, but i dont get tan or even burnt. Whaaat! I had a cook out the other day. Usually when u have a cookout it means everyone brings stuff. But everyone just came and ate my food and then left. Except for Rachel and Justin! We watched you got served again and had a happy time. Oh well, i give up with some people. Well i better be getting on with my evening events...later. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 29,June,2004 | OK...here's what next school year will be like: 1. i'll be living with another family and yes i'm scared to death of that! 2. I'll have a car but i have to get a job and all the money i make will go to pay for my car's insurance and for gas. :( 3. I have to get a checking account?!?! 4. New legal guardians....ehhh! 5. I have to mantain a B average or else i'm back in hell. 6. Possibly have to take Civics next summer because lovely WY doesn't have that class and it's required at CV. ahhh! 7. LOTS of fun times, me n my bestest friends all together again, possibly making a film (hehehe) senior year, baby!! chaospunk and rancidpunk and our love triangle, ooh interesting! Hellz, waht else? Snowboarding on real mountains again!!! YES! camping trips, ski trips, the cabin, cliff jumping, krispy kreme, pop rocks....etc. Sooo i am really scared about some things and really excited about the rest. Today when my parents told me that they found a family for me to stay w/ (our friends the Foulkes) and all taht stuff about paying for shit i was a little shocked. Then i thought about how its gonna be the day i leave. Whoa, no more parents, no more sister. I dunno...its scary. Sometimes i hate them but i will miss them so much especially my dad. I mean who's gonna be around to try and be ghetto and 'hip'?? Well i guess Gary. But something scares me the most. Leaving one person. My bestest boy friend and the person i loved more than anything i ever have. Ahhh hopefully i'll be fiiine. It's been an interesting time here and i've met some interesting people....but some really cool ones too. Well, good night. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 10,July,2004 | Heya kids! I just got back from a long camping trip in Cape Cod, Mass. We went w/ our friends from Ohio the Churches. It was a fun trip except for the camping part. Hmm...we went to the beach the first day...we thought we'd walk a couple miles out to this lighthouse. Yeah...we got there and we were soo tired and we had no water and it was hot and we didn't have shoes on either so the sand was tearing up our feet. We took a different way back which was this sand road and it was taking forever. Then these nice people came by and they picked us up and we came to figure out that we would have been walking for a looooong time in desert-like conditions. Thanks people! Next day, went to martha's vineyard, whatever that is. It was kinda gay. Yesterday we went to Boston and that was super amazing. I loved that city!! Oh yeah there was this cool City Toilet and you put a quarter in and u go in and do your stuff then once you come out it closes and cleans itself! Its sooo awesome! And Hillary went in and she said it plays relaxing music. Hahahaha! Ok so taht is my story. The ride home took all day and i'm gonna go sleepy in my own comfortable bed now! By the way, i only have like 20 days total left in york. So u better love me whilst you can! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 12,July,2004 | Hey my darlings! My friends are so cool, Rachel is dancing in the Weird Al concert on friday night which is the most amazing thing ever, and Justin can sing kidz bop songs really good. Haha, he came over last night and we watched The Butterfly Effect (what a great movie!) BUT before all of that, we were discussing Kidz Bop and how we are so pissed that they try to sing yellowcard and blink 182 songs. They sing 'i miss you' and justin was demostrating how they sing and it was the funniest moment of ever. The way he sang 'Catching things and eating their insides' was astronomical. wow, what a vocabulary word. usually my vocabually consists mostly of the words 'i'm sorry...' -what an upgrade. I looked at a few colleges online today. They were pretty cool. Then i looked at their standards and most of them said that they take only applicants that were in the top 15% of their high school class. I'm definately down in the loser section! POO! Embry Riddle Aeronautics university in daytona beach looks like the best bet so far. Disneyworld, manatees, the beach, hot guys, dont have to travel for spring break. Sounds good! I love Gavin DeGraw. I've been listening to his music all day and probably will continue until forever. Well i'm gonna go try to find somethin to do. byebye. ::Oh, this is the start of something good, don't you agree?:: |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 13,July,2004 | boo bop ba doop. OMG!! the butterfly effect has 2 different endings! (in case any of you are as clueless as i was!) I was watching it again last night with my dad, and i noticed a scene that i had never seen before. But i jsut thought i had missed it when i first watched it. THEN at the end, he like fuckin kills himself and i was like 'What?! that's not the ending i saw!' I was so freaked out but then my dad told me we watched the director's cut and i felt stupid. But i like the other ending better, the one me n J watched. Not as depressing, yo! All i've been doin today is eating my house. And i looked at a few colleges in Boston, since that is the most 'wicked-pissa-cool' city in the world. I dunno, its somethin they say in boston.... !Anyway! Boston University looks good to me, and a major in photojournalism or film. I kinda really wanna make a movie to one of my favorite books. Actually it would be a trilogy but no one has done it yet and hopefully they won't so i can do it! Anywhoo, i was just lookin at boston in case my flight career doesn't end up working out. It needs to be sunny again. I.WANT.MY.SUMMER.BACK. these days are just grey and blaaaaah! Last night was a bad ngiht for my family. Everyone was unhappy, except for me really. But its just, no one wants the same things and its shitty for my parents. I'm going back, they want to go back, but my sister wants to stay here like a cock-ass. I dunno i feel bad sometimes. Shouldn't families stick together? But i'm leaving them...i just dont know if its right. But i really want to. Well i hope you had a fun day anyway. Later yooos. |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 16,July,2004 | Hey pimps and ho's. I'm so proud of meself. I learned a song on the guitar today, a real song not some gay shit that they teach in guitar class. It's Let That Be Enough by Switchfoot. I dunno if any of u have heard it but its a pretty song n i wish i had an acoustic guitar to play it on. But for those of you who have ever heard me attempt to play guitar, you would be so surprised. But i seriousyl spent like all day working on it so i know i'm a loser. I gotta start packing soon. ;( i dont want to, too much work. And i get a car for my birthday which is August 3rd in case any of you bitches were thinking about forgetting. Now you cant. I want money! Just kidding, what i really want is a 24 karat gold necklace with rims still spinnin with diamonds on them. straight thuggin! Buti think i already got enough *bling* to satisfy me. U know..... well, justin beats me i guess. By the way, where is justin? Did the tornado get him?? He's hiding somewhere today but i'll find him. Maybe later. I really wanna go to that Weird Al concert tomorrow night and see Rachel perform her magic gangsta-styyle. Haha, gotta get to that show!! fuckin weird ass al, yeeeaaah! Ok its late and i'm just rambling so i'm going to retire. No one reads this crap anyway cuz they already know its gonna be gay! Nighty night ilovepoprocks |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 19,July,2004 | Dancingchk03: i have a shit ass fry for justin lol Dancingchk03: i saved him and meg was like: nigga whaaat! and meg was like: better be from wendizzle Dancingchk03: no actually ARby's Dancingchk03: its the most hideous one ever and meg was like: i dont think it counts if its not from wendys....i dunno Dancingchk03: shut up and meg was like: oh really? describe it Dancingchk03: brown speckled.. no lie Dancingchk03: like big ass leopard spots and meg was like: haha how many speckles? like speckled all over and lightly toasted, or burnt to a crisp with hideous speckles all over? Dancingchk03: just hideous brown schmegma shit and meg was like: ooh....thats fine. Dancingchk03: yes Dancingchk03: yes it is |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 19,July,2004 | Yoha broha. Not much goin on, just makin money, learning more songs and sleepin. I know ocean avenue now but its boring and a gay song. I take my driving test tomorrow to get my license so everybody say good luck meg. I need it. I practiced my parallel parking again today and it was actually good! I just hope it will be tomorrow.....AHHH! I'm really nervous. The kids i had to babysit today are the devil. Everything they say, they yell. And they run around and scream and no matter what i said they didn't calm down. The one girl wanted to microwave her peanut butter & jelly sandwich. OOKaAaAaAaY!!! Tomorrow morning at 9:00 = death. Ludacris is a crazy guy who i love. Cuz you about to get ran the FUCK over! Hooray!!! Wow, i'm 17 in like a week and i still dont have my license. Holla back younguns! Oh well at least i'm not almost 18!!!......muhahahaha. Well i'm bouncin, and i'm out son. Later! |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 20,July,2004 | HEY! i cant believe it but i actually passed the driving test! YESSS! i finally have my license so no one can laugh at me anymore! (at least for that reason). Today was a really really good day. Got up at 7, took the test, passed, Kate came over, i got the car for the afternoon, me Kate and Karin went swimming at Kate's grandma's pool, came home, visited Chad and his kittens!, stopped by zack's n played mario kart hahaha, came home! What a fantastic day. I'm tired now. Gotta get up at 3:30 am to leave for New Orleans, then Texas. I'll be back monday so all you kids give me call. I got my Dawson's Creek cd in the mail today and i loves it. Hmmm well i have absolutely nothing else to say except good night and looooove you! xoxo Meg |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 23,July,2004 | hahha not really. Hey y'all! I'm in Texas right now and having alot of fun!! We flew into New Orleans the other day and walked around there, it was pretty cool but SOOO hot! I got to see 7 of my 9 cousins in that family and they're awesome, i loved them. Adrienne has 3 little boys that are so cute and a girl on the way. Wow that family is huge. Then we drove here to Tyler, Texas. Today we went to this rose garden, then swimming, then to my cousin's rehearsal dinner. She's marrying a mexican named Sergio he's really nice. But anyway the mexicans did the dinner and the drink was tequila! YAYY! I had like 3 glasses but it didn't do much. My younger cousin took one down and said she couldn't feel her arms! lol. Tomorrow is the wedding and its gonna be real pretty. It's about 100 degrees here every day and really steamy but i like it. I'm not even burnt yet.... Well, i just got done working out, haha, so i'm gonna go up to the room now. Wish u were here ;) luv ya |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 27,July,2004 | 1. A SONG THAT DESCRIBES YOU: the Goo Goo Dolls- Iris 2. A SONG THAT REFLECTS YOUR MOOD RIGHT NOW: The Starting Line- Best of Me 3. A SONG THAT DESCRIBES YOUR LOVE LIFE: Yellowcard- Only One 4. A SONG FOR YOUR FRIENDS: Outkast- Hey Ya 5. A SONG FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND: anything Lifehouse 6. A SONG FOR THE ONE YOU LOVE: 311- Love Song 7. A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR CHILDHOOD: the Macarena 8. THE SONG THAT IS CONSTANTLY STUCK IN YORU HEAD: Ashlee Simpson- Pieces of Me (GET IT OUT!!!!) 9. A SONG THAT DESCRIBES YOUR LIFE: Yellowcard- Miles Apart or The Starting Line- Left Coast Envy 10. YOUR FAVORITE SAD SONG: Switchfoot- Let That Be Enough 11. YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG: Metallica- Nothing Else Matters (its a love song to me anyway) 12. YOUR FAVORITE UPBEAT SONG: Blink 182- Obvious 13. A SONG THAT MAKES YOU LAUGH: Kelis- Milkshake 14. A SONG THAT IS AN 'INSIDE JOKE': R. Kelly- Ignition or the theme song for Pirates Of The Caribbean, lol! 15. YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME: not fair!! ummm...Blink 182- I Miss You 16. A SONG THAT DESCRIBES TODAY: Marvin Gaye- Sexual Healing. i need some. 17. YOUR FAVORITE SONG TO SING ALONG TO: Avenged Sevenfold- Reminissions |
3,173,282 | female | 17 | Student | Leo | 31,July,2004 | Heeey ya. These past few days have been fuuuun. Wednesday night i went to the olive garden with kate caffrey and her friend amanda. That was fun, they're silly silly fun girls. Then we went to sunset park and saw the whole world. There were fireworks there and all, then we all went to amanda sweet's house to sit in lawn chairs. Haha, theeeen i went over to shannon's and had some good times. 2 people trying to talk online to different people doesn't work so well. The other one always ends up saying something you would never say yourself, therefore confusing the person on the other end and making them wonder why they are friends with you! SOOO not necessary! Hmm, yesterday me, Rachel, Amanda, Kate, and Zack went to jim and nena's but i didnt eat there. Then the 3 cool ones left and me and rachel went to wendy's cuz its better. Then we got together with Karin, Kelsi, Sweet, and Kat and just drove around. Hmm hmm....today we went to breakfast at Denny's for sweet's birthday. By 'we' i mean the whole world again. We got the back room yesss! Well now i really can't spend any more money! I leave for new hampshire for flying camp on Sunday, instead of Monday. Noo good. My time left in york is getting less and less and soon it will be over. There's so much time i haven't been able to spend with certain people and it makes me really sad and depressed. I'm not a huge fan of the pot fanatics these days. Let's not forget what's really important in life, goodnight. |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 22,July,2004 | Absolutism There are no absolutes for something so relative as a human life. -Hugh Prather, Notes to Myself Funny how it seems true when you read it in a book. When I say, at the age of 40, I want to write a book. When I say I want to be a hair dresser for 2 years. When I say tomorrow I want to meet this person, go this place, finish this much work, wake up at this time, and wear this. So how often have things gone the way I wanted them to? And how often have the results been exactly the way I wanted them to be? And how often, when the result has been the way I wanted it to be, have I been as happy as I thought I would be? Has it happened to you that you wore this outfit that you never imagined yourself wearing 6 months ago, just because you had nothing better to wear, and got more compliments for it than on a day you meticulously planned your dress code? What are the chances of you making more close friends in 6 months of working than you did in 4 years of graduation? Has someone else's question ever given you answers and shown you realities that were always in your face? How often have things been perfect? When you do come across things that ARE perfect, how often is it that you planned them? Have you ever been bitterly disappointed that perfection was too perfect and lacked spontaneity, and hence, wasn't perfect after all? So is symmetry perfect? Is asymmetry not beautiful? Isn't the now more important? Aren't mistakes more important than failures? So would you really like a spate of winnings and no losses at all? Is what I dream to be tomorrow, stopping me from being me right now? Is the life I am leading what I want? Am I living or existing? Is it wrong to want to live? For that matter, is it wrong when at times, you want to give up and don't want to live? Is it wrong that you don't want to be strong? But if you are, does that mean you are superior? Does that make you a better person? So who is a good person? If a social worker, who helps unknown people improve their lives, beats up his wife, is he a good person or a bad person? Are you a good person? Are you bad? Are you never bad? Does bad mean wrong? If you are being bad in self defense, is that wrong or correct? Did God put you/us on this Earth to make a point? Does he have to? Is there a point to everything? Should there be a reason for living? If you don't achieve all that you dream of achieving and are still content, are you a loser because you didn't get what you wanted or are you a winner because you don't want no more?So are dreams really important? Am I really important? 200 years later there will be no trace of this magazine or the person who wrote it. But the ideas will persist. That makes the thought important, more like significant, than I, the creator or thinker of these thoughts. I may get two minutes of fame in the future, when I am 40 and dying of lung cancer. Is that worth wasting my youth doing what I don't want to do then? Is doing what I don't want to do really a waste? If not, am I gaining something here?Should you gain something from everything you do? If you gain nothing, is that an experiment that went wrong? So how can an experiment, where you cannot really predict an outcome, ever go wrong? If you gain a lot, and you think you gained from a mistake, will you repeat the mistake, even if you know making it the second time would be harmful/hurtful/stupid? But if you do gain, isn't the mistake much better than all the corrects you have done in your life?So can you really control your life? Can you say with certainty that at 9 am tomorrow you will wear a red T-shirt and eat eggs for breakfast? So what is definite? Is anything? Does definite give you a sense of security? Is security tantamount to safe? Do all these questions merit answers? Does anyone have the answers to them? Are these questions really questions or statements with a question mark at the end?Does that matter at all? ************************************************************************************* I am a question mark reincarnate. This is my mind being me. As for the time, I wrote this after I read the book Notes to Myself by Hugh Prather, at a particularly complex and crossroad-ical juncture of my life. ] d e e p a [ |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 22,July,2004 | Silence of the Crowd It's not enough. Or is it?Flowing water. Curbed thoughts. Expression suspended. Spiraling smoke.An amulet encircling my thumb. Uncomfortably numb.I want more. Or not. Will I stop looking?This is the beginning.Or the end?No I am not stoned.Blinking cell. Blue and white.Disgusting noise. Eclectic psycho-babble.Long hair. Unfinished looks. Bald man; doesn't smoke.Spiraling smoke.Crystal ashtray. Pen moving. Thoughts astray. Crumpled tissue..Non blank cheque, enclosed inside. Uncashed yet.Trying to hide or reveal.Noisy water. Crowded train. Beaded nose ring.Not too bored. No motion, of thoughts or feet, or things, living or unmanifest, just water.Silence in words. Words of silence. So who defines natural? Conservative courts? Closed minds?Filthy, rotten books, wormed into by aging decay.I don't want to be Jesus. I don't want to be an angel.I don't want to be anything. Being John Malkovich. I don't want to be him. ********************************************************************************** I wrote it partly on a crumpled tissue paper and partly on the backside of an ICICI credit card bill envelope. I put down the first thing that came to mind when i saw OR felt anything. ] d e e p a [ |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 22,July,2004 | The Birthday Speech I don’t know why Shona has asked me to speak at her birthday. I’m not good at these things. Don’t like giving birthday speeches. I’m afraid that I’ll come out to be too critical or my jokes will fall flat. I’ve known Shona for such a long time, and there are times I feel that I don’t know her at all. Shona likes her space. I’ve never known anyone who likes quiet time so much. She likes her quiet in the morning just when she gets up. She reads a lot. She likes interesting people. She has her mood swings. Does one talk about such things at a birthday party? Remember, I will be competing with the wine for attention. Shona’s friends are a mixed bag. There are those that have 9-5 jobs in financial corporations. I met another group some time ago. They were second generation Asians discussing the body as a space for cultural identity. I know that Shona’s interested in culture. She did a degree in it. She grew up in three different countries. I don’t know what she calls home. She says that she’s a cultural anomaly. She smiles when she says this. Must be hard not fitting in. Making friends knowing you will have to let them go in a few years. Having to explain your life over and over again to people who nod their heads but don’t quite understand. I don’t understand these discussions on space and identity. For me space is full of stars and planets. I know that Shona wanted to be an astronaut when she was small. She was one of those chubby Indian kids in England. Her mum used to dress her up in frilly dresses with white knee high socks. If you ask her now, she will tell you that the 1980s was the era of bad fashion. A well-meaning family friend told Shona that she was too fat to be an astronaut when she was 7. Shona lost interest in space after that. Exercise is something Shona caught on to since she started university. Now, she’s in India and her relatives tell her that she’s too thin (and too dark) to bag a husband. Life is full of contradictions. I never thought that Shona would end up in India. I know that she was scared when her parents decided to move to Kolkata into the arms of a conservative family. She moved with them. A concrete jungle for a girl who grew up in a small English town, a tiny rain forested equatorial country, and ended up in the leafy suburbs of Sydney. She misses her green space. She misses her independence. Her snot has turned black because of the pollution. She has also grown up. There are a lot of things about Shona I could say. I don’t know how appropriate they would be for a birthday. I know that she wishes her clever/quirky younger sister or that her best friend/boyfriend were here. Neither of them will be. One remains in London and the other in Sydney. Maybe that’s why Shona asked me to give a speech. I sit here racking my brains. I’ve never written a birthday speech before. What does one say? ~shona~ |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 24,June,2004 | ...i will i will i will convince myself to write that mail today. |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 14,June,2004 | i started writing again...not in a big way, but yes in bits and pieces...when you go back to something you used to value and lost somewhere down the line its too too awesome. i have a feeling this time it's staying with me for good :) |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 14,June,2004 | tonight i read her blog. i didn't expect it to make me so terribly terribly sad. a little dull cold clot will stay somewhere inside me forever now. or so it seems. strange that my own (apparent) tragedies having left me unfazed a stranger's bittersweet reproaches should hurt so bad. should sink me into a deep dark place inside my head. a black black mood creeps slowly over me. what do you do when life hits you below the belt? pulls the mat from under your feet? what do you do when you realize how vulnerable you are. how fragile. one word, one gesture could shatter you into a million tiny shards impossible to put back together again. ever. one day he will tire of my voice, find no joy in my laugh, no passion in my words. what then? for the sake of self preservation be bad. be a bad bad girl. be disparaging, cruel, ruthless, indifferent. if life's a bitch then so am i. |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 31,July,2004 | 'the god of small things' on a crowded bookshelf at home between 'our films, their films' by satyajit ray and a collection of 1990 o'henry awards prize stories. but why did she make me fall in love with velutha only to kill him so brutally? i'd love to be ammu when she's happy with rahel and estha and velutha, and i definitely want to look like her :) how come i wasn't struck this bad the last time i read it in '97? the impending doom of the inexpressible sadness of things approaches. the last chapter can now ever only remind me of the one and only |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 30,July,2004 | i just realised how much i've been doing Last Cigarette: wills Last Alcoholic Drink: beer Last Car Ride: last nite 8 of us crammed in a zen Last Kiss: the red t-shirt boy on the train Last Good Cry: last nite/this morning Last Library Book: anthropology Last book bought: an archie comic Last Book Read: god of small things Last Movie Seen in Theatres: spiderman 2 Last Movie Rented: trainspotting Last Cuss Word Uttered: bloody Last Beverage Drank: water Last Food Consumed: a banana Last Crush: velutha Last Phone Call: to reshmy this morning Last TV Show Watched: top gear Last Time Showered: an hr ago Last Shoes Worn: blue slippers Last CD Played: something by linkin park Last Item Bought: bright blue loofah Last Download: sis' pics Last Annoyance: mom dad naggin bout goin to doc Last Disappointment: NID still fulla robbers Last Soda Drank: coke Last Thing Written: comment on a blog Last Key Used: g Last Words Spoken: jachchi Last Sleep: yesterday afternoon Last Ice Cream Eaten: choc fudge Last Chair Sat In: swivel Last Webpage Visited: http://boxhopper.blogspot.com/ urlLink CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - urlLink GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 30,July,2004 | sis left today. all of us (including grandmama) went to the airport to see her off. i wanted her to vanish into the check-in as soon as we got there but mom and dad kept her hanging around for much longer. i didn't even hug her and that was mighty obvious since everyone else did 5 times over. later we waited at the observation tower till the plane took off. then i came home and slept and woke up at 12 and cried in the shower for like 20 minutes. i'm turning into wierd al yankovich. |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 22,July,2004 | i wrote this in a particularly dark moment yesterday: 'there are a million reasons we will never see eye to eye and you can't just wake up one fine day and decide to be best friends with your daughter who hardly gives a fuck in the first place about being your daughter. no, i don't want to tell you what i write about. and i don't want you to do my hair. and i don't want you to see when i smile. and i don't want you to know who i am. why are we condemned to bear our parents' hell?' |
1,084,944 | female | 26 | Arts | Leo | 04,August,2004 | by declaring i do not wish to be with any members of my family on my birthday, that i would rather die, that i want to forget my birthday is on the day it is on, that i wish she had aborted me so i wouldn't have to suffer any birthdays ever, that i will try and get a ticket to mumbai before the 10th and if i don't i'll still make sure i don't see them that day, and no amount of cajoling and coaxing and requesting can make me change my mind now since i've gone overboard anywayz and it's too much of an ego hassle to say that it's ok let's just celebrate my miserable birthday together. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 31,May,2004 | Today was the last day and the shortest. We had only one session that lasted between 10:00 AM and lunch. We started by working on the tor-yus again. After working on the tor-yus, we did two sets back to back. We then had a tea break. After the break we had Joan and Lee show us how their tor-yus had improved. Both were up front for several minutes demonstrating what they had learnt. We took a group photo and Lee presented Joe with a red envelope on behalf of the students. Joe said that he will give the contents of the envelope to the Feed The Homeless charity on D'Arcy Street in Toronto. We ended with another great meal prepared by Virginia Amos. She sure can cook. The food alone was a reason to be here. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 30,May,2004 | We started by doing some dan-yus, a set, more dan-yus and another set. Just in case we did another set. We then took a very deserved tea break. After chilling and talking for a while it was time for more work. Like yesterday we worked on the tor-yu. It was smoother than yesterday but my tor-yu will be awkward for weeks after this. When we finished, it was time to set up for lunch. Lunch Break Dee lead us in another chair set. Never thought sitting could be so much work. Then Karen lead us in some chanting. We did a new chant we hadn't done yesterday sitting on the chairs we used for the set. Then we repeated one of the chants from yesterday. Forgive me but I forget the names, they don't roll right off your tongue. Now we are on an extended tea break. After the break we practiced push hands for some time trying to incorporate the new tor-yu into the push hands. Joe talked about letting the bones do the work and not muscling through. We finished by doing a set. Dinner Break We started with a set, of course. We then worked on two moves, Slanting Flying and Pat Horse. Slanting Flying was pretty much what I am used to. The Pat Horse incorporated the tor-yu we have been working on. We ended with a sitting meditation led by Mary Lou. Afterwards some of us went to a coffee shop to relax and socialize. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 29,May,2004 | I am in Tallahassee for the Memorial Day Tai Chi Workshop, I flew in on Friday. Randy who had been planning to visit his daughter in North Carolina, changed his plans (his daughter had to work over the weekend), and came here instead. It has been a busy day. We started a little after 10:00 AM. We did a couple of sets and then Joe started us working on tor-yus. We worked on through till lunch at 1:00 PM. The lunch fare was great, prepared by Virginia Amos, and after a nice workout it hit the spot just right. Lunch Break We did another set and then chanted for twenty minutes or so. We looked at various ways of doing snakes (and you though there was only one way, hah!). Joe, the instructor showed us a way of sitting that helps you stretch your legs and make them more flexible. By then it was time to practice more tor-yus. By 6:00 PM it was dinner time and we set up the tables for dinner. Dinner was just as good as lunch if not better. Dinner Break One of the members who is a musician, brought out a lute, a 24 string instrument. He played several pieces for us until it was time to work again. A little after 8:00 or 9:00 PM we did a set. Mary Lou then taught us some sitting Taoist meditation. To end the night the students who attended the sword workshop demoed the sword set. As hard as I have worked, we have been given plenty of breaks and you can stop anytime you feel tired. Just when you start thinking that you cannot take anymore, its time for a break, or even better a great meal. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 25,May,2004 | You are all such a shy bunch! I promise I will not bite anyone (not hard, at least) if you make a post or a comment. If you have questions about posting or if you have any difficulties, I'll gladly help you out. This is the group's blog and it isn't supposed to be a monologue by your's truly. I want your input. Don't think that your post has to be profound. You could ask a question or for an explanation or anything you may think of. You can pass on news about a friend we have not seen in a while or tell us about an upcoming event. You can even post a joke or something funny. Please don't be shy, you are all welcome to participate! If you all don't start posting soon, I am going to make you do dan-yus! :) |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 24,May,2004 | Please note that there will be no Tai Chi classes on Monday, May 31st due to the observation of the Memorial Day holiday. Classes will resume on Wednesday, June 2nd. In the meantime, don't forget to practice at home. Have a great holiday and drive carefully! |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 24,May,2004 | Beginners Class Randy reviewed Carry Tiger to Mountain, Diagonal Single Whip, Fist Under Elbow and Go Back to Ward Off Monkey. He taught Go Back to Ward Off Monkey, Slanting Flying and Step Up and Raise Hands. Continuing Class We warmed up with the jongs and we started to work on Wave Hands Like Clouds right away. After a few rows of that, Randy had us do a set. We practiced more Wave Hands after the set. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 21,May,2004 | The Year of The Monkey T-Shirts from Victoria, Canada (the blue ones) arrived Friday afternoon. I'll bring them to Class on Monday. Since I will not be there on Wednesday; if there are any shirts that are not picked up, I'll leave them with Randy. See you in class! |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 19,May,2004 | I will not be able to attend Wednesday's class. I have tickets for The Producers in West Palm Beach that night. Do some dan-yus for me. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 18,May,2004 | Beginners Class Randy reviewed Strum the Pei Pa, Brush Knee and Twist Step, Chop With Fist, Step up, Deflect, Parry, Punch, Appear to Close Entrance, Cross Hands. He taught the following moves, Carry Tiger to Mountain, Diagonal Single Whip, Fist Under Elbow and Go Back to Ward Off Monkey. Continuing Class We skipped warmup and we started with a set followed by a second, and hopefully slower set. We then did some dan-yus before taking a short break. After the break we practiced Wave Hands Like Clouds. Today is Randy's birtday. We wish him a very happy birthday! |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 18,May,2004 | Wednesday night is your last chance to place an order for the Texas branch's t-shirt (the red one). If you are interested, bring a $15 check (no cash please) and fill in your info on the order form (write clearly). |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 17,May,2004 | Beginners Class Randy reviewed the brush knee sequence. Today he covered the moves up to the first Cross Hands. The class ended by reviewing the following sequence several times: Brush Knee, Strum the Pei Pa, Brush Knee and Twist Step, Brush Knee and Twist Step, Brush Knee, Strum the Pei Pa, Brush Knee and Twist Step, Chop With Fist, Step up, Deflect, Parry, Punch, Appear to Close Entrance, Cross Hands Continuing Class We warmed up and we did a set. After the set we did twenty dan-yus and then we worked on Wave Hands Like Clouds for the remainder of the class. Aside from stressing the gradual stand and sit, Randy talked about the weight transfer. He talked about the right leg pushing until it was time to stand and pull the leg over. I found that aside from pushing and sitting, I had to make sure I was balanced on the left leg, otherwise I end up a bit off balance when I pick up the right leg. I also found that the left arm helps me balance while transferring my weight. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 13,May,2004 | Some of you may remember our monthly dinners. Our tradition is to get together the first Wednesday of the month at a local restaurant after class. Recently we had been meeting on Mondays. We had been going to the Thai restaurant on the circle, but we would like to find a good Chinese restaurant in the vicinity instead. Looking for Chinese restaurants nearby, I came up with the following list: Canton Jade Chinese Restaurant 3824 W 12th Ave Hialeah, FL 33012 (305) 557-2673 China-Town Chinese Food & Catering 5223 NW 79th Ave Doral, FL 33166 (305) 599-0488 Hoe Kow Chinese Restaurant 9717 NW 41st St Doral, FL 33178 (305) 591-0222 Kam Kee Chinese Restaurant 3640 Palm Ave Hialeah, FL 33012 (305) 825-1300 Nine Dragons Chinese Restaurant 930 E 9th St Hialeah, FL 33010 (305) 885-6376 This is where you come in, I have no idea if any of these restaurants are any good. If you have dined at any of these places or if you know of another place not on this list, add a comment to this post and let us know what you think. I am also looking for your thoughts on what night to have dinner. The first Monday of the month is particularly bad for Randy because he teaches a Tuesday morning (6:30 a.m.) tai chi class in South Miami and we have branch council meetings that night at 8:30 p.m.. Wednesdays are better for Randy but he has a class on Thursday mornings too (yes, at 6:30 a.m. again). The first Monday and Tuesday of the month are bad, Wednesdays are not that good either. That leaves the other Mondays and Tuesdays of the month (2nd, 3rd & 4th) and Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. I'd like to figure out what is the best night for the whole group. Again, make with the comments. Making comments to a post is not hard at all. Below each post you will see the author of the post and the time. After those you should see the number of comments for that post (for example: posted by Alex at 09:55 | 0 comments ). Click on that comment link to add a comment. If you don't have a free account with Blogger, it will ask you to create one. Create you account and comment away, voila! If you have trouble adding a comment or creating an account with Blogger, send me an email and I'll see if I can help you. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 12,May,2004 | Beginners Class Randy reviewed the moves from Monday, White Stork Spreads Wings, Brush Knee and Strum the Pei Pa. He taught the Brush Knee sequence. Continuing Class The beginner class segued right into the continuing class. We kept working on Brush Knees for the entire hour. Ongoing Beginners Class No one showed up. This class has been discontinued. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 10,May,2004 | Tonight is your last chance to place an order for the Victoria branch's t-shirt (the blue one). If you are interested, bring a $20 check (no cash please) and fill in your info on the order form (write clearly). |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 10,May,2004 | Beginners Class Randy reviewed the moves from Wednesday, Grasp Bird's Tail, Single Whip and Step Up and Raise Hands. He taught three new moves, White Stork Spreads Wings, Brush Knee and Strum the Pei Pa. Continuing Class We warmed up as usual. Randy made us work on our timing during the tor-yus. After a set we worked on Wave Hands Like Clouds. Ongoing Beginners Class We only had two people show up for class. We practiced the new moves Randy taught in the 6:00 p.m. class. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 09,May,2004 | Not to be left out, the Texas branch has their own Year of the Monkey t-shirt. The shirt is red (a lucky color in China) has a Chinese papercut of a monkey sitting on a branch in metallic gold. The shirt costs $15.00 and all orders have to be sent in by the 20th of May. I will post the picture of the shirt at the center and we will have the order form by tonight. Please pay with a check, it makes it much easier to track who has paid. We must have the payment before we can place the order. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 09,May,2004 | The new beginners class has begun and continuing students are needed to set lead. Set leading is the first step in continued training in the Taoist arts. If you feel you would like to participate, please take the opportunity to speak with me before class. |
554,868 | male | 42 | indUnk | Aquarius | 08,May,2004 | So far, I have been the only one posting. This is understandable, since the blog is under a week old. I have sent out invitations to those who have expressed interest in posting. If you are at all interested, send me a note or talk to me in class, I'll be happy to help you out. Posting a comment is extremely easy. If you can send an email without hurting yourself or others in the process, you can post a message on our blog. I want this blog to be a place where we can find out what is happening but I want it to be an online meeting place too. Somewhere where you can come and interact with your friends. If you have a question or a comment or news you would like to share with the group, post it here for all to see. If you have a question about a previous post or you wonder what happened to someone from class, by all means, post! This is not a formal place with a lot of rules, on the contrary, we are making this up as we go along. And if you should decide that a post you made needs some work or should vanish into thin air, you can edit it to your heart's content or even discard the entire post as if it had never existed. All I am saying is that this is your blog as well as it is mine. I want you and need you to contribute. Reading the posts and keeping up on what is happening is great, nothing wrong with that. I just want to make sure that you know that your participation is encouraged and welcome. Don't be shy, this is not hard and you do not need special computer skills to make a post, anyone with access to the internet can make a post. I hope to read posts from all of you very soon, even if it is to only say that you like it (if you don't like it you can tell me offline). |
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