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1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | the urlLink story ... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | urlLink phish is breaking up... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | 15 shots in the last 6 mins and i don't even think any where close, except one! time to make some adjustments and kick some flame ass tomorrow... Go Boltz |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | stanley needs a tan |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | :: 2004 is the year :: days not smoking: 53 lbs lost: 13 |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | [was it Goldschlager or Yaegermeister that helped you trip over the railroad tracks...] |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | - no more 'case of the mondays' because monday would be part of the weekend... - more time for employees to 'refresh' (refresh being defined in many different ways) - anyone? (comment if you have more ideas) |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | [side note: urlLink ... ] |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | [side note: back again for more? can't get enough? need to feel more of the emotional hell?] it's friday, it's friday... GO BOLTZ GO! |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | interesting fact: ever since i formally requested my turtle back from the snatcher, she has had someone come to my website (since her IP is blocked) for her EVERYDAY... pretty damn pathetic eh (yet i have to admit semi-comical)? anyone... i mean did she really think, that after not talking to me for a year and a half, (ignoring my email and calls) that just because she emails me and FINALLY lets me know why she is 'upset' with me that it would all just go away and be ok... did she forget cathy 101? cause you know what... i don't work that way... if there is one thing i have learned in the last 4 years of my life :: life is way to short :: - i don't need someone in my life that wastes a year and a half over something so petty as not being a brides maid in her wedding (cause i couldn't afford to), however i did pay $300 per plane ticket for me and gwenn to be able to be there.. apparently that means nothing, along with ten years of frienship. yes, apparently she is that superficial... anyone... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | what up mr. klauser -- been a while! hope all is well with you... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | new look to site... enjoy... updated urlLink ??? |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | [side note: you look at my site everyday to see what is going on, but you have no courage to do the right thing. you are weak and ignorant to the true reality.] |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | slug, my snail... urlLink |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | woah |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | did you see me... did you see me... i was winking |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | [side note :: about tyme psyco...] check it: urlLink |
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1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | doobie doobie doo... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | what a weekend... anyway :: 1.5 dayz left for allison, otherwise the theft charge will be processed... laterz... |
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1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | >Dear Catherine Neth, > >On 06/12/2004, your monthly phone bill was successfully processed and your credit card was charged $16.94. |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | conversation topic: sky driving participants: igor,fedor,gaurav,cathy,gwenn cathy to fedor: doesn't the first jump have to be a tandem jump? fedor: [insert russian accent]not in our country[end russian accent] |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | click for full image urlLink |
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1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | vacation rocked, more to come... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | to say life has been hectic would not give the last 2 months enough credit, but i the purpose can be deducted by that word. :i've lost more weight :my hair is longer :work is good, BUSY :was out in san fran for a week with work last week :gwenn graduates in september (wooo hooo) :dogs are great :weather is sticky :our water now has lime deposits floating in it (fucking apt. complex) :my brother got married (congrats) :my neice is now a huge monkey fan :importance is shown in actions more then words that is about it from this enlightening camp of reality... |
1,912,994 | female | 27 | Technology | Libra | 04,August,2004 | i am mack , i will some day become great... until then.......... |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 28,May,2004 | Current obsession: My audition Yes, that's right I actually have an audition tomorrow; for a shoe commercial. They called my place of work, they need someone flexible. I thought it might be fun. But..... there is a reason I stopped the whole acting thing. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 27,May,2004 | Current obsession: What to do with my life; part 2 Just as a decision is made, the powers that be decide that I can't do that, and everything has to be rethought. Right now, I'm leaning toward School Counseling/psychology, or possibly Marriage and Family counseling. Grad programs are very competitive, and the fact that my Bachelor's is in a completely different area doesn't help. I'm too friggin' indecisive. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 23,May,2004 | Current obsession: Makena'lei Gordon Carnahan I think it's a very beautiful name. I'm all for unusual names, as long as they are actually names. Using your child to make a statement, that ain't right. Makena'lei I like, it's unusual w/o saying 'look at me. I came up with a f***ed up name.' Knew she'd be gettin' her father's name in there somewhere. Total daddy's girl. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 20,May,2004 | Current obsession: none (shocking!) So, I've done a little research into the local community college. Good news! They have a partnership with several 4-year schools; you can earn your Bachelor's or Master's w/o leaving the area. How great is that? I don't know if that's common; I hadn't ever planned on going to a community college. Still have more research to do. But, I was happy to hear that; already have a Bachelor's, kinda wanted to go beyond that. Weird factoid: The sports teams at said community college are called the Cougars. My alma mater? Also the Cougars. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 16,May,2004 | Current obsession: CPR I was just certified for the Job. Found out a few things I didn't know. The whole purpose for chest compression is to pump blood to the brain - minimize brain damage - until the paramedics arrive with their wonders of modern medicine; about one in one thousand cases, chest compression actually starts the heart. Didn't know that. When a person drowns, the throat closes to prevent water from coming in. We suffocate ourselves. Didn't know that. The best place to feel a baby's pulse is in the arm. Movies and TV show CPR as five compressions and a breath - the procedure for a child. Adults need fifteen compressions then a breath. Interesting |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 15,May,2004 | Current obsession: what to do with my life. I must educate myself. And I may just have enough of a break in my sixty-hour work week to do just that. What to study and where to study it? Aye, there's the rub. What do I want to be? There's the four P's: Paralegal (certainly would make a decent living; could afford the education; could I afford the stress?), Photographer (love photography; would I love to cost of the education + cost of starting a business? Would I love the work BEHIND the work; I'm not one to sell myself), Psychologist (specifically, child psychologist, a 'kiddy shrink', lots of work; lots of time; lots of years; lots of rewards; not the most affordable option), or Personal Trainer (also with kiddies; basically what I am doing now - but more money; could afford the education; if I wanted to continue what I'm doing now would I be looking at other options?) Right now my brain is locked onto the psychologist (even psychiatrist) thing. Whatever that means. Don't just do something, sit there..... Closing thought: Isn't it funny how they all start with P? |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 15,May,2004 | The first blog... .....there, that's done now.... |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 29,June,2004 | Current Obsession: Work Here's how it works at my place of employ: if you ask for a raise, you have to take on more responsibility. In other words, you could go well above the call of duty, take on multiple projects, grow in a thousand different directions, THEN ask for a raise as compensation. You won't get it. However, if you sit on your butt all day, barely lifting a finger, then say you'll work if you're given more money, you'll get the raise. I think I've just been screwed. Ya really think I've got a raise comin'? Puh-lease! |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 21,June,2004 | A friend of mine just lost her nephew in a motorcycle accident. He was my age.... |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 15,June,2004 | Current obsession: Application (still) I have to provide proof of immunization against Rubella!?!? |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 10,June,2004 | Current obsession: Application So, I've officially started on my little Quest of Education. I've decided to jump start my brain by taking an English class and a Psychology class from the local community college. It's been 3+ years since I've been in school, and about as many years since I last wrote a paper; I want my brain to be prepared for the onslaught. I'll also be preparing for the GRE while taking these classes. I'll have a better idea of what program to apply to after I get my scores. But, I want it all done NOW! Oy. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 06,June,2004 | Current obsession: Computer worms I had two of them. Apparently for quite some time. Lord knows how many people I infected. Very annoying. My mother, the one most at risk, has chosen not to worry about it. She decided her computer hasn't been affected. Mom, that isn't really a decision that you can make. Why do I still worry about her? |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 30,July,2004 | Current obsession: School So, I'm officially registered for the fall semester. I'm just taking an English class and two math classes. I'm kinda anxious to just get on with it, but I'm not really sure which way to go, so it may just be for the best. And I can't seem to sit still. It's not good for me to make decisions when I'm so involved in my feelings. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 25,July,2004 | Current obsession: Crazy people I got a complaint from a client at work that doesn't like me. That's fine with me. Like I really care what other people think. But, she doesn't seem to understand that it's her problem; and proceeded to tell me that everything is wrong, and how I should be doing my job (which she is completely clueless about). My boss defended me. I was told by a co-worker that he doesn't take said crazy woman seriously. And yet, I cannot get rid of it in my head. I think that I am angry at the fact that I didn't stand up for myself. I was expecting a normal adult conversation and I was attacked. I can't switch gears that fast. Now, I don't know what to do with this woman. But, I have to see her again. The other crazy person that I can't get out of my head is my mother. She told me today that she is living with (and will marry) a man that she's been dating for THREE WEEKS!!!!! What the F@*%?!?!?! Well, at least the house is hers. Crazy people. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 22,July,2004 | Current obsession: Work. We are severely understaffed, and one of our most valuable workers got injured today; she fell, hurt her wrist, chest, back, and neck. I got to do one of those really fun last minute substitutions. She was supposed to fill in for another young lady who is going on vacation for three weeks. Now we're out BOTH of them. We don't have enough people as it is. Ah, well... God bless time and a half. I just hope it doesn't mess with my school plans this fall. Oh, and I did get that raise. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 09,July,2004 | Current obsession: New phone I got a new flip phone!! Wooohooo! I have to admit, I live in the dark ages. My computer's six years old. I have Window's 98. I still have a VCR (no tivo). I still use film. So a flip phone that can SEND E-MAIL is pretty nifty to me. It has a color screen, screen savers, wall paper, all that fun computer stuff. Me likey. Fun. |
3,355,030 | female | 26 | Sports-Recreation | Taurus | 02,July,2004 | Current obsession: Responsibilities I've taken on quite a few of them, feeling very overwhelmed. There's this project, at work, that I said I'd do. Unfortunately, I haven't the slightest idea how. There's school, which is kinda moving along. I have to take assessment tests. Assessment tests - at a community college - I already have a bachelor's. Whatever. And, (also at work) things have been going wrong left and right. I'm in a really good mood. |
3,948,727 | male | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 18,July,2004 | Well I decided, after reading a couple of other journal entries, that I would not only a sports journal, but I might as well do a journal about me. I live in a really small town in Michigan. Our high school, unlike normal schools, has grades 7th-12th in one building. And the number of kids in the building?? Only about 750, yeah I know, really small. usually in my spare time I hang out with my friends. Couple my friends are Randy, Ellery, Ronald, John, and Matt. Well anyways today was kind of a boring day. I went to my church from 1-3 p.m. There was this girl visiting there and I had no idea who she was. I had seen her before but I still didn't kno her. She in the row across from, was it on purpose?? Maybe, but i'm not sure. I tried to glance over a couple of time while during to see if maybe she was glancing back. I could of sworn that once or twice I saw her lookin back. But was she lookin at me cuz I was lookin at her?? I don't know, but i'm not too worried. After the service had ended I walked up to Randy and Ellery. I didn't have to say a word because they already knew what I was thinking. I asked them if they knew her, they said never saw her before. I really wasn't in the mood for trying to go and talk to a girl I don't know, mainly because she looked a little young and she was with her mom, and for some reasons me and parents don't get along very well. So the whole sitiuation ended with us waiting outside, she walked by and said hi to us, we said hi back, and we were left wondering where this mystery girl came from came from. Afterwards I went home and turned on the tube(sportscenter of course). That was pretty much the most exciting thing of today. Well until tomorrow or whenever I feel like posting. |
3,948,727 | male | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 18,July,2004 | Well I guess my greatest fears were realized Sunday. Tiger Woods finished the British Open tournament with a final score of -3, putting him in a tie for 9th place. I guess now I might as well admit it. HE'S IN A SLUMP. I hate to say it but it's the explanation. He did have a fighting chance though. Until his abismol performance on the back 9. He only managed to get ONE birdie, just terrible. I don't know what to think anymore. But I have to give big ups to Todd Hamilton for winning. Even though I have to say that I never heard of him before today. At least other tiger's are doing well. The Detroit Tigers, after their 4-2 win Sunday, have beat the Yankees 4-3 in the season series. I know it doesn't seem like much especially since it's only midseason. But come on who would've ever thought that the Tigers could beat the Yankees 1 game much less 4!! Ivan Rodriguez is absolutly MVP so far this season. He has turned the Tigers around. Granted they're still no New York Yankees or Boston Red Sox, but they are still surprising a lot of people including me. If you ask me they look like the Florida Marlins of last year. Can you say World Series?????? Ok maybe i'm jumping ahead to far. Of course i'm a hard-core Red Sox fan, but a little part of me, that little part that goes for the home team, would LOVE to see the Tigers in the World Series. But thats in the future and we have to wait until October. Have you been paying attention to the Tour de France?? I have to say I really have been paying attention. I'm one of those people who love to see records getting broken. And the fact that Lance can get his 6th Tour de France title!!!! I may not understand cycling but I understand that winning a 6thTour de France in a row isn't easily done. Probably because nobody's done it. Lance Armstrong is definitly one of the best athlete's in sports today. All the stuff he had to deal with including cancer, it's just insane to think how this man can keep this up. Well I wish the best of luck to you Lance, hopefully you'll come out on top. The only other news I have is that Vlade said that he is most likely to end up in L.A., let's hope so. Until I get more on that story i'll leave it alone. But thats all for today and until I have more to report on the sports world. |
3,948,727 | male | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 17,July,2004 | Nothing really new to report in the world of Laker land, besides for the fact that Kobe went to L.A. to meet his new teammates. I think that it was a very good gesture, considering all the criticism that Kobe takes for being selfish and only thinking about himself. All the players say that they're happy to play for the Lakers, but then again who wouldn't be with a franchise like the Lakers. They say they want to bring showtime back, we'll see about that. Meanwhile in other sports news, at the British Open Jonathan Byrd has the lead by 1 stroke, but guess who's hot on his trail, Tiger Woods of course. Tiger's only 4 strokes back from leader Jonathan Byrd. Now I am the one of the few people who says that Tiger is NOT in a slump. But....if Tiger doesn't win the Open I might just be proved wrong. It doesn't make sense to me really. I mean how can a man who's won so many titles at such an early age, and look like he's gonna break Jack's title record, all of a sudden just drop off from existence. I hate to say it but it all started when he got married. I'm not really trying to say anything but it's true. They do say that a women can be a big change in a man's life. I don't know though, maybe i'm just thinking to much of it. Maybe Tiger will win the Open and the next 4 tournaments after that. I know it sounds unlikely, but hey it is Tiger Woods we're talkin bout here. Well I guess we'll just have to see tomorrow after the final round. Hopefully Tiger will be holding the trophy high and laughing at all his adversaries who said he was on the 'Slump'. Let's just watch and see. Well thats all I have to report for today. Until I get more stuff to write on. |
3,948,727 | male | 17 | Student | Aquarius | 16,July,2004 | Well it's been a couple of days since Shaq got traded to Miami, i'm still not to sure what to think. Being a DIE-HARD Laker fan I wanna believe that we can survive without the big-man.I mean Kobe Bryant is argueble the best player in the NBA, but he's still not Micheal Jordan. MJ won championships without a center in the middle but I have a bad feeling that Kobe can't pull that feat off. So the question is who got the better end of the deal? The Miami Heat or the L.A. Lakers? Looking at the rosters Miami only really have three good players, Dwayne Wade, Eddie Jones, and now Shaq. And really Eddie Jones isn't a star player, but he's still decent enough to get the job done. Also pressuming that Pat Riley gets more support around Shaq I can see the Heat prolly making the Eastern Conf. Finals. But then you have to consider that Shaq has to be in shape and healthy the WHOLE season, not just part of it like he was with L.A. Now let's look at L.A.'s side. Kobe Bryant at shooting, Payton at point, Odom at power, Butler at small, and BRIAN GRANT at center. Maybe it's just me but having Brian Grant in the center does NOT make you a powerhouse. Even if they go out and get Vlade, he's still not the center that he used to be, and he definitly doesn't compare to a Shaquille O' Neal. Now the conference difference. Shaq has been moved to the Eastern conference, thats bad news for the rest of the east. You can quote me on this, 'Shaq will start as center in the All-Star game this year.' It's just about a guarentee. Look for his numbers to go up TREMENDOUSLY from last year. Not only does he have to worry bout sharing the spotlight with Kobe, but also the points. I see Shaq averaging AT LEAST 28 points per game. Consisdering that then I would predict the Heat to be one of the top three teams in the East. Now taking a look at the Lakers in the Western Conf. and all I can think of is who's gonna be the top draft choices for the lottery, because it doesn't look good at all. With everybody in the west upgrading with more firepower, and some teams stayin the same(Spurs, TImberwolves) Chances of them makin playoffs are slim to none. Unless Kobe can prove all the critics wrong and play like his idol, MJ. But again it's a fat chance of seeing that happen. So when it all boils down to it I guess you could say that the better end of the deal went to the Heat, that is until Shaq gets old enough to where he he's not a dominant force. And believe me that time is coming soon. Well thats the sports news for today, be back when I find more intersting sports news. |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 19,June,2004 | Don't you hate it when you have all this stress and thoughts in your head and feel like there is nothing that you can do? I went to the movies with my mom tonight to see The Notebook it was muy buen... but very sad at the same time... it brought back some memories for me... some good... and some not-so-good, but it was fun. I've been thinking a lot about what I am going to do after I graduate... and I'm really just sort of down about it all. I will go to USC or College of Charleston... most likely USC... and eventually come back to Easley.. or Greenville.. or somewhere in SC and start my quiet lil' life in a quiet lil neighborhood... My friends on the other hand.. my best friends who i dont think i could live without.. will be 1) Jess- may still be around here but may move to a somewhat larger somewhat more exciting state. 2) Chad- I will probably never see(what I've thought about the most) He will move to California or .. somewhere in a HUGE city and dance with the stars. and 3) Nikol- will be floating on a cruize ship..(that her daddy owns) somewhere in the ocean.... I just cant think about all this.. I know we can stay in touch.. I'm just not sure how hard it will be for me to transistion from H.S to college... and I really dont want to invest all my feelings in a relationship that will eventually break my heart... but no one else seems to be worried about this.. I guess its just me... Drained... |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 18,June,2004 | Today was lots of fun :) I woke up with one of my best friends in the world (and future college roomate) Well not with her but u know.. and then we ate a very delicious breakfast, danced to some radio music, discussed community restrooms and drank lots of coffee!!! Thats enough to make me smile :) Anyway, then i went to work my long shift of two hrs (slaved over the subs) Oh, side note... I thought this was cute: A little, old man came in and wanted 'Pro-ve-lony) cheese.. hehe.. ok.. had to be there. I came home and then went out with my favorite people in the world. And yes, I love u all the same . I love Jessica because she is my homegirl, my aundre, my sista, my roommate, my partner-in-crime, and my pretend lezi (when it comes in handy). I love Nikol because she is my stir-fry, my 'honest' friend, my love advisor, my cutex, the girl (ya kno, in X men), my (cheerleader-dance-buddy), and my identical twin. And I love Chad because he makes me smile, laugh, always cracks on the dawnut/dawnation/cookie daw/dwar, because he makes me happy, and he's my beefstew (no undertone intended). Ok, Ok thats enough LOVE for one day... Where is the love????? (BEP) Wise words for the day: 'Errrbody in the club love Cindy, errrbody in the club love Cindddyyyy ' |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 17,June,2004 | Thats what Jessica and I kept saying tonight...while we were eating ice cream of course... Brownie Batter and Reese Cups... ugh I ate too much! LoL. I learned how to do the ' Andre ' thanks Jess... Well this is my first lil' blog thing... I'll write more when I'm in the mood. |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 30,July,2004 | I official like the Ashlee Simpson cd (thanks to Kol and Jess), but she still can't beat my Avril Lavigne ... Today I slaved away at Subway *cough for 2 hrs* ahem, and then I went to my Grandmothers for some lunch and to change. I then got to see Chad, for a little while anyway. We met up and went to Best Buy (where he refused to renew his membership), the mall (where we bought absolutely nothing, but we did spend a little while in the vibrating chairs at Brookstone, lol) and lastly we went to Starbucks for a Frappacino, ummmm. After I left Chads, I ran by my Grandmothers, again, this time to see Morgan. She brightened up my day! Then I headed home to change clothes so I could hang out with my girls, which was a blast. We had a lil' app-ple-beeeess, a lil' starbuckarooonies, and a lil' auuugghhhh, loosaaa luuuucys. lol. We also had an adventure, in the ghetto gas station .. whew... worn me out. Anyway... I had a blast.. but I did miss Sarah! :( I'm such a matchmaker!!! Ryan and Laura are on their way to hookin' up.. yea for me! I'm sooo happy for them, its great. I'm excited about tomorrow because they have planned another date! You make me wanna la la. In the kitchen on the floor I'll be your french maid. When I'll meet you at the door I'm like an alley cat. Drink the milk up I want more. You make me wannaYou make me wanna scream. You can meet me on an airplane. Or in the back of the bus. You can throw me like a boom-a-rang. I'll come back and beat you up. ~Okay thats sooo my line. |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 28,July,2004 | Okay, so I feel soooo much better. Last night Chad and I had a loooong talk about everything and I'm keepin' my fingers crossed. I really hope everything will be okay, but if its not then at least I know that I still have a wonderful friendship. I also passed on my mustang- georgia man to Jessica--which satisfies me greatly--no more redneck grammar, whew. Anyway, I have also given up on the job search. Does ANYONE realize how bad the economy is right now, hello??? I hope its not this hard to get a job when I'm older--I'll just have to run the corner . Today I only had to work from 11:45-1:45.. okay so i made like what, 10 bucks, after taxes.... ohhhhh yea, rollin in the big do' now. After work I went to my grandmothers to help her with some paperwork and then I came home to get ready to see Chad... first time in like 20 something days!!! I really, really missed him. I gave him his New York shirt and he bought the Alice in Wonderland p urse for me--the one that I wanted soooo bad in Florida. We went to Sticky Fingers with his family and his grandmother told us how onions, and tomatos, and blueberries... etc were good for you. Then back to his house to watch tv and look at prom pictures that I still had not gotten (and listen to the true confessions of Papa Smurf.. pew pew pew), and last we came back to my house to play with Morgan (while she played dress up with Chad). I had a really fun time today with Chad, I just haaaate that I have to work tomorrow.. grrr. |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 26,July,2004 | I had lots of fun today despite the fact that I had to work and Chad did not call me.... Okay, okay so i only had to work for 2 hrs, but I feel the need to complain. When I got off work I met Jessica at Wal-Mart so we could go 'job-hunting' together. We went to all the lil' shops in Easley then we went to Powdersville where we saw a miracle: 'Help Wanted'. Well little did we know that we would have to drive across the state to get a piece of scrap paper... i mean, an application . Anyway... it was fun, and I did learn my way around Greenville from the expirence... hmmmm. We also paid a surprise visit to Nikol!!!! Highlight of the day: I got an early application to USC .. yeaaaa! Disappointment of the day: The job was for full-time.. grrr |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 25,July,2004 | I had yet another wonderful time with my girls tonight. This morning I went to church where I saw the 'happily engaged' couple, and you know that made my day, ahem.... I went to Grand China with my sister, mom and lil' miss Morgan (the princess . She's at that stage where if she screams then she gets her way unless you prefer complete humiliation). Then I came home, took a nap, and had the strangest dream. I was in this water city or some place like a lake but it was very pretty water and the place had all these steps or gazebo type things in it. Some anonymous girl (and I) were following a guy through this water world type thing... make any sense to you? Interpret please. Anyway then I woke up and went back to church, totally made an idiot out of myself in front of a totally hott guy, then partied with the girls. Jessica and I went to Applebee's while Kol and Sarah went to a Sunday School meeting. Then we all met up for ice cream * could I get a sample of that, from..... that guy right there?* and shopped out of the back of Sarahs pimp car. hehe. That was it! I'm sooooo disappointed that I have to work tomorrow, but Chad comes back tomorrow too... so that makes it better :) Good nite, muaaaah! |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 24,July,2004 | Today was just another summer weekend, i guess. I slept till 11:00, went shoppin' with my mom, and went to the movies......with my mom. It was fun though. I like spending time with 'Linda', lol, I even got her to dance in the car with me... to some Gigalo (gasp). I got some clothes and a bookbag today. I bought some 'plan of attack' jeans.. waaaa haaa haaa. lol. I did miss my buds today though. My mom and I saw the Bourne Supremacy it was a good action film, but i prefer the drama/comedy. I wonder what Jess and Blake did on there lil' date... can't wait to hear the juice. :) Song of the day: Let it Bump by missy elliot. This song was playing while I was shoppin in AE today, and it reminds me of my favorite dance at Chad's recital :) Sorry my posts are soooo short.. but not much happens with me. ~Meg |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 23,July,2004 | Today was laid back and wonderful. No work-- I just ran errands, got some sun, and went out with the girls (which was the best, as always). I had to get up early to go to the doctor so that he could tell me that something was wrong with my toe... no really????? Do they not think maybe I knew that and MAYBE that was why I went to see them.. hmmm. I should be an ace in medical school. After that I helped my grandma with her records and came home to chill. Then I had my adventure with the girls. We all looked like models and this is what we did: 1) Picked up Jessica and met Sarah at RSBC 2) Picked up Nikol and met Laura at the mall 3) Went to Chile's for some grub 4) Went back to the mall and Circut City for some shoppin' 5) Fell down the stairs 6) Got some Fraps and made bets (I can make it!) 7) Dropped Laura off at her car and raced a motorcycle 8) Hung out at Wal-Mart and the stinky bathroom in Bi-Lo *Did I forget that we almost died..... twice. That was my day. I'm always happy to be with my buds and no guys.... :) |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 22,July,2004 | I'm going to try to make this blog a little longer than the one from yesterday-- I have a little more to talk about. Well, first off I past BOTH of my AP exams.. yeaaaa. I made a 4 in Psychology and a 3 in Language/Composition, whew!!! I'm sooo proud of myself. :) Today was also the last day that I work this entire week which is very very good. I applied other jobs, but no luck yet. I've just got to get away from Subway !!! NO more Cold Cut Combo, extra mayo! Today a lady told me that the Tea I fixed her was sour, sour tea?? Come on now. Oh side note: I did not mean to affend Jess by the previous taxi statement, lol. My grandmother is going to Duke for some tests on Monday so i have been keeping her records everyday--I feel so bad for her, even though she did call me fat when i was little (sigh). Jess and Nikol have their bet going on--I call Travis, hehe. Oh I also cleaned the Caddy today especially for my friends to pimp tomorrow. I had to super glue my rear-view *mirrow* back on because it fell off and was swingin around while I was driving.. uggh..I'm sooo ghetto. Sorry I'm kind of jumping from subject to subject, oh well. My favorite song of the day is: drumroll, please.... Dare you to run atleast I think that is what it is called. You can tell I really love it. No word from Chad-- He's too busy for a girlfriend, of course! OH WeLL |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 21,July,2004 | I love that song by ryan .... uhh.. okay.. phonics... caaaa breeeerr aaaa... ok.. something like that. Today I was off... yeaaaaa. No making subs for Megan today--it was wonderful. I woke up early, ran lots of errands, ate lunch with my mom, looked for another job, visited my grandmother and played with Morgan. Jessica got her licence.. (loud clapping) now I dnt have to be a taxi :) hehe. I'm excited about this weekend-- I get to see all my friends! Even if I have to watch T he Notebook for a second time.. ill be happy. I still miss ol' Chad.. but i know that he is having lots of fun. Not much happened today--so thats all, i guess :) |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 19,July,2004 | I've been listening to Norah Jones all day..Well, I'm definitely feelin better than i was in my last blog... i was suffering some transition depression... but I'm okay now. Sooo much has happened since then.. I went to New York, registered for school, appeared on prime time TV (okay.. so it was like 3seconds on the Today SHow.. but whatever), and ... got some kind of disease from the nail salon.. sounds delightful, right? This morning i went out to breakfast with just the girls --watched sarah turn her coffee into a solid with 10 packs of sugar... and i realized how much i missed them ... I dont know what i will do in college.. but lets not go there again. I also registered for school.. I got good classes, but none with my monkey :( tear... I also got a very very crappy parking space.. but atleast i will stay in shape walking with my 100lb bookbag every morning from space 231... grrrr. I miss Chad (still in L.A) hangin out with the BIG stars... sigh, but I'm sooo excited that nikol, jess, and sarah are home.. for good, i hope, for the summer. I'm tired of hearing bull crap from a particular person of the past.. why won't he just let me rest in peace.. But I realize that (that particular person, who will remain nameless) just wants me back... wah haa haa *evil laugh*... that satisfies my spite... Okay.. i sound horrible, I'll stop hear. Until next time-- |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 15,August,2004 | Well I finally found my cd with Cannon ball on it, yea. This weekend was awesome--a very nice break from school. This is how it went down... lol.. FRIDAY: Jessica, Nikol, Chad and I went to eat japanese fast food and saw Princess Diaries 2. The movie was good, a little corny, but then again it is G rated. We also went to Applebees to see Sarah and watched Earth Girls are Easy at Chad's. They're Aliens!!!! ANNNNYWAY friday was fun. I don't think I can handle many more Friday the 13ths ... Jessica hated me all day... sry :( muahhh. SATURDAY: The crew went out again, well just to Chad's to watch Kill Bill vol 1 & 2.... muy bien...clase repita, muy bien... okay i tried. We ate pizza and oreos. *Note: my apoligies for making ANYONE uncomfortable, I am still in recovery. It won't happen again, pinky promise... and I keep my pinky promises... ahem....* We later got in the hot tub and Jessica and I (the brave ones) jumped in the pool (while reinacting the scene from Titanic... it was lots of fun). SUNDAY: I went to church, ate at Smithfield's with mom, came home, attempted hw, and back to church. After church (which was very good, i might add) Jess and Kol and I went to Joe's for some Ice Cream, Ice Cream .. lol. And now... here I sit... alone in my room... sigh. Thats okay, I'll get over it. I love my friends.. and I just know I'm gonna miss them sooooo bad... I wish I could just stop time right here... with Jess, Kol, Chad and Sarah... :( Song of the day: Cannon ball , of course. |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 12,August,2004 | Today was not too bad, besides Calculus (refer to Nikol's blog). Went to school, went to Jessica's house (refer to Jess's blog), and came home to work on homework and play with Morgan. Because my friends have summarized my life in their own blogs, listen to this dream that I had last night. I'm open for interpretations : Okay, Jessica, a mystery man (i think was Blake), Dustin E, and I were all at my house looking at this hill, in the sky, at a trailor park and huge, beautiful house. I get the idea that it would be absolutely wonderful to go to that house (I'm assuming was Dustin's) and look through binoculars to see if I could see my own house... so we go. Then we are all in this restaurant... a mix between CiCi's Pizza and a cafeteria. Well I get to the end of the line and I have no food on my plate, and the lunch lady says: 'get whatever u want, i'll take care of it.' Then I reply: 'No, I have the money, but I just don't know what I want.' Then Donna (Nik's mom) who is standing in front of me says: 'They have this chicken.' I agree and take the chicken. I go to the drink machine, fill up my drink and begin to eat. After we are finished eating the manager of the restaurant comes to sit down in our booth. Note: Chad has now joined my dream. The manager says that we owe him some money because Chad got the orange drink and that is more expensive than the others. While Chad looks confused, I tell the manager that I am NOT paying him more money because there were no signs that said that the orange drink was more than any of the others. Then the manager gets angry and I tell him that he will just have to call the cops... Then I leave. Well, then I drive back to this big house, use the bathroom, and then Dustin tells me that the manager is here and I need to crawl through the window and run from him.... So, then, I decide to just confront him. I go outside and both my car and the manager's car is gone. I ran into the woods, very afraid, and I hear this car coming down the road.... so I face dive into the woods and lay very very very very still... and i woke up... That is the strangest dream that I have ever had. Things that i recognize: 1) You can see a trailor park on a hill from my house. 2) Jessica and Blake have come to my house. 3) I have eaten at both CiCi's Pizza and the school cafeteria recently... and I do eat with Donna a lot on Sundays... and I did fill up mine and Jessica's drinks at CiCi's. 4) Chad's things are usually more expensive, lol. 5) The manager of the bowling alley told us that she was calling the cops on us. 6) I ALWAYS have to use the bathroom. 7) There are woods all around my house. 8) Dustin probably would freak out and tell me to jump through a bathroom window... lol, jk. *Please help me I'm utterly confused... (I apoligize for any spelling problems :)) My song of the day is: I'm too busy/tired/lazy to look up lyrics... I can't WAIT until Friday ! |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 10,August,2004 | Thats a line from the song Jessica wrote which I think is absolutely fantabulous (note: Nikol ... i know fantastic is not spelled with an 'abulous') Okay... anyway, her song goes right along with my continuous depressed state . I'm trying really hard to get out of it, but I'm just toooo frustrated for words right now. On a lighter note, school wasn't tooo bad today.. no wait, yes it was, Mrs. Cannon assigned 40 new homework problems. Considering I didnt completely understand the previous 20 AND it took me 2 hrs to do 20... I cant WAIT to do these 40 something, joy. Pew, pew . I only saw Chad for like 2 seconds today so I didnt get to talk to him :( , but thats okay ~ Just adds to my wonderful outlook on life as a senior :( I really miss talking to him. I did get to spend my day with Jess though because we have EVERY class together on Bdays... and i can live with that. Today I went to school, went with Kellie to pick up Austin, started Calculus, ate and ran... exciting.. i know. Okay, I'm finished complaining , sorry about that. Song of the day: I Miss You ~Blink 182 Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always this sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every time and as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason will you come home and stop this pain tonight stop this pain tonight Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you) don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you) |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 08,August,2004 | Okay, so a lot has happened since I last updated. I went to school Thursday and Friday and I have a lot of classes with my friends, but still, its school... :( ... Friday I went to the football scimmage with Kol and Jess. WE WON, can u believe it, okay, so technically you don't keep points in a scrimmage, but we won.. so..... we are counting it! After the scrimmage Chad and Kaci met us at Applebees and then we hung out at Ryans ... okay that is a little georgia, but whateva! Chad and I made an important decision, and I am still in recovery... but he seems happy... and thats good. Then Saturday I went out again with my buds... Leu's (where we were extreamly cheap) and then we splurged at the Melting Pot. After that we all hung out.... in Chad's bed... lol, and watched Earth Girls Are Easy ... well some of it. And today I went to church, went to eat, slept, went to church, went to eat.... Im sooooo adventurous!!! CHOW! |
3,671,850 | female | 17 | Student | Sagittarius | 03,August,2004 | This weekend was wonderful ~I saw my friends everyday of it, but today was boring. I woke up at 10:30 to get ready to go eat lunch with my mom. After we ate in Clemson, *note to self: there are NO good restaurants in Clemson* we went to Hallmark where we almost had a wreck with a cute college boy. My mom was backing up and didnt see him, he yelled, I called him a Jackass and then my mom apoligized.. and he totally changed his attitude... interesting, eh? When I got home I watched hours of MTV, played with Morgan, worked out, and ate jelly beans... hmm kinda defeats the whole work out, huh? Anyway, tomorrow is the LAST DAY OF SUMMER... nooooooo!!! This cannot be happening. I'm now depressed. :( tear* Okay, I'm over it. I am a little excited to see my friends, and force Chad to talk to me... waaaa haaa haaa, my evil plan, lol. I completely crashed at about 8:00 but then I woke up at 10:00 and now I'm sooo awake, I hate that. Oh yea!!! I almost had a wreck today too, imagine that. I had a yeild sign but the lady who was turning drove like 10ft into my lane, hello?? A yeild sign doesn't mean i should have to back up for you to turn. Who are these stupid drivers... I want to know! Song of the Day: Slow Motion by Juvenile... only because it came on TV sooo much I have it stuck in my head. I hate that song. pew. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 29,July,2004 | my honey bought me flowers ! how lucky am i ? who's better thanME? |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 28,July,2004 | apparently downstairs from me. after all it couldnt be those nice cali boys coming in at 4am then blasting rap music and talking smack could it? meanwhile back at building 10,greg has completely lost his mind. calling my house cursing and muttering/stuttering incoherently angrily at my vic. you know,no one likes to be dumped.no one likes to get their heart stomped but,dude,really get some pride, and assaulting a young woman is not really apropriate no matter what. your'e hurt,your'e upset ,your'e angry,filled with resentment are ya?swell , now be a man and shut up about it.honestly. made chili for dinner. it was great.im up at this hour listening to the idiots downstairs ,cant sleep,feel crappy, its just not good. i should be a pill tomarrow.--amy |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 28,July,2004 | sleepy head dozed off and forgot she was coming here then doesnt call and explain when she awakens she leaves for the train.honestly that child... another night at the bar. more rain fussing with my cross stitch stuff. must go buy chop meat for dinner.chilli. more later---amy |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 27,July,2004 | wow scared me, couldnt get in for a second. phew. anyway, its raining dogs and cats and small rodents here. great weather. so we went to the bar and drank more tham expected'gasp shock...' Had a good time but paitience always runs short after drinking. Have gotten an unsatisfactory email from victoria and a cryptic phone message. hope shes alright. she better be. we're all in a tangle here its hardest for icky , i remember her age myself. sometimes i think if i hadnt gotten married so young id be dead. if my partying hadnt had an early end, if creating a family hadnt fuffilled my and absorbed all my energy its likely id have imploded. i cooked tonight,dinner was good. ran around a bunch today. am sending a trade to italy sorry gotta leave.--amy |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 25,July,2004 | after catching the end of unbreakable ,we watched 21 grams.so the evening ended on a pretty low note for me so i read an entire michael connelly book till 4:00am to cheer me up. lots of betrayal and dead hookers. lets hope i can find a way to lighten my mood.or at least ruin someone elses day. off we go.wee. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 24,July,2004 | having a significant other who cooks is a lovely lovely thing,truely one of lifes great joys. awakening from a nap to find dinner a done deal... priceless!steaks and onions and mushyrooms garlic rice and corn. who's better than me?nobody baby, nobody. i need to dye my roots. my very blond hair needs attention cause it aint blond.and my greys are coming in curly/wavy after a life time of pin straight hair. i dont even know as yet whether we will be going out tonight. im not watching unbreakable as we speak ,or rather as i type. ive never seen it wish someone would just explain it to me. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 23,July,2004 | ran into someone i used to know,she doesnt look so fucking hot and she's younger than i am.i dont think i ever knew her or understood her. and im guessing i didnt miss much.the post office was a total nightmare it will have to wait. i feel like shit. im taking to my bed. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 23,July,2004 | now look,i hate cleaning. i am not good at'straightening up' i dont care if ive got the tits,and all day to clean, it is not in my power to do this stuff regularly or well. i am very up front about this at the start. i was a bad wife twice before,why why why is this suddenly some kind of friggin mystery? oh never mind. most women live to have things look nice.why dont i care? hell if i know. i dont mind cooking,i like it. but this endless-putting -stuff-where-it-belongs shit is pure nonsense. i hate my life.oh to live alone and answer to no one. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 23,July,2004 | the damn phone again im guessing a bill collector or some such. its rainy and grey and likely to stay that way today. lovely hangover your wearing madam, is it a smirnoff? no its a killians.why why why must i do this? oh yes now i remember. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 23,July,2004 | well we're ruminating on websites and message boards and forums. how is it that one or a few nameless faceless souls can ruin,tear apart an online community like this? and more importantly,why? why do they want to,the web is infinite cant they find something to intrest them in its vastness. is it the destruction of peaceful people having interesting intelligent conversations that spurs them to these acts of verbal vandalism, who knows? but i do know from the lofty heights of my soap box,that to do nothing when they violate a forums space is wrong we have gatherd for a purpose .banish the jackals for the greater good. that is all. i need to shower and get ready-amy |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 22,July,2004 | so the phone rings.yeah i hate that. it does it a bunch,several times in fact. and since its being insistent i crawl from my bed and lo and behold...no ones dead or anything cool,but vic needs to alight. its raining shes been to the court house and is not thrilled. so now theres two of us not thrilled. she shows up and my glasses are mia.so i stomp about searching while the vicster regales me with tales of the court house. her morning at the court house was the result of dating a genuine unwell ,lunatic,dangerous felon. aparently the courthouse was a veritable carnival of miscreants. the way one separates refuse for disposal ,we as a people should seperate the great unwashed from,well, me.nothing like being searched at the door,made to empty ones purse in front of god and everyone while surrounded by crack heads and wife beaters eh? i feel her pain,i do ive been to our illustrious court house with a crack head ex boyfreind a few times.and it is really frickin creepy. its raining.which is cool my flowers will be pleased. its a friday so the weekend stretches ahead unsullied as of yet by arguments,hangovers,and the like. there will be more,much more much to my chagrin.-amithany |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 22,July,2004 | im sure i'll hear this.shortly. alas i have no life so i will be ranting endlessly. i spent the day with my soon to be ex husband.endless joy.my children are moving from their home,which i left for them in arkansas to louisiana with their criminal element step mother and my other idiot ex husband.i am running into people from AA everywhere so either god is hinting or...the heat brings them out in force.my name is amy im 36yrs old i live in staten island new york.i escaped arkansas but miss it.im engaged to the best guy ever,he is a castle dweller. my dearest freind, vic is an x rated rapunzel.i read endlessly , am into halloween, enjoy cross stitch, drinking and am heavily tattoed. are ya scared yet? god knows i am. i watched the bone collector and gone in sixty seconds tonight. netflix rules. watched secret window with johnny dep the other day. it kicked ass. hit her again for me!!! watched ginger snaps very cool and how hot is that older sister?whew!recently read:the bromiliad trilogy,dead witch walking,dime store magic,cravings,am working on, after human. i hang out at several places online. makeupalley,garden partay at delphi,hauntersnetwork,halloweenforum,123stitch.google search them you'll find them or you wont.whatever. my printer isnt hooked up cause i lost the disc when we moved and i havent the foggiest how to work the digital camera .so im screwed for posting pics for now. remember kids-everybody wants to be a playtapus until they get the bill.--amy |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 14,August,2004 | well last night we were watching the blue collar comedy movie and we laughed our asses off. i love jeff foxworthy and this cast is too too much.'aparently i had the right to remain silent....but not the ability' i am trying to get my ass in gear in regards to starting a few halloween projects. i need to do some tombstones and corpses. argh. i need to figure out my scarecrow dimensions and head.more later hunny is spouting |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 09,August,2004 | well al's dad broke a hip,we're over budget. im still fat. my ex is deserving of a beating. joan is up my butt and annoying me mightily. thats about all i got. |
4,008,366 | female | 36 | Non-Profit | Scorpio | 02,August,2004 | i cannot begin to explain how depressed and awful i feel. it was a bad evil horrible weekend. i feel shitty. i cant find the strength to leave the house today. altho i should,there are things to be done but i just cant.and that fat bitch keeps calling .god dont i ever get a break. everyone always wants something what about what i want? yeah good luck there. i also hate despise and loath the post office. |
4,180,744 | female | 24 | Government | Leo | 18,August,2004 | Today was a bit dull really, I took Theo to the shops and for a walk around the market. I made gammon with roast potatoes and garlicky peas for my Mum and Step dad. The weather has been changeable, scorching sun to hailstones all in the space of a couple of hours. I got an email from Dennis saying I was a great friend, which was nice of him. Also had a few emails from my friend Rose in Newcastle, she's moving into her new house next week and is buying loads of new things. Well, that really is a waste of space and I truly apologies to anyone bothering to read it, what can I say? Everyone goes through boring phases in their life and I'm smack in the middle of one! |
4,180,744 | female | 24 | Government | Leo | 17,August,2004 | This morning (after letting the plumber in - we're having some building work done.) I took Theo into work to show him off to my colleagues. He was really good during the bus journey, but when we got to work they were testing the fire alarm and it really unsettled him, so he was a bit weepy after that. I got my return to work date sorted - 21/02/2005. Clive was there, beaming at me like a rather stupid child. He was wearing a Starsky and Hutch T-shirt which was far too tight for him, and he had shaved off his beard which didn't improve his appearance. Why WHY why did I ever fancy him??? I think the best way for me to live is to be single, as my choices in men are absolutely terrible. ~If I wasn't anti-religion I'd consider becoming a nun. On my way back home I went into Waterstones and bought a true crime book 'If loving you is wrong' by Gregg Olsen which is about Mary Kay Letourneau who is an American teacher who had an affair with an underage student and had 2 children by him. The weather was hot and sunny all day - despite the weather reports saying it would rain. |
4,180,744 | female | 24 | Government | Leo | 16,August,2004 | Ok, this is a little strange. I have never managed to keep a diary for more than 2 weeks, so we shall see how long I keep this up! I've always thought it odd that people write diaries to keep them secret - why write something down if you don't want anyone else to read it? So an online diary seems to be a good idea. The weather (if you are interested in that kind of thing) was really nice this morning and has rained all afternoon. I'm going to start at the beginning and explain a bit about myself - if you find this boring please feel free to skip parts! I was born on August 5th 1980 to a Mum and Dad who loved me very much. I was spoilt rotten! When I was two my paternal Grandma died and my Dad discovered that his Mum and Dad (who died in 1957) had never been married. They had had a wartime romance and his Dad had left his wife to be with my Grandma. My Dad also discovered that he had two older half sisters who he knew nothing about. I have still not managed to trace them. When I was six my status as the all important youngest in the family and first grandchild was shattered by the arrival of my younger cousin Tabitha, who is now a stunning, fashionable, intelligent 18 year old who is going to start at University in Manchester in September. When I was ten my beloved Dad died. When I was 13 we moved from the house I was brought up in to a new house to live with my Mums fiance. When I was 14 my Mum remarried. Depressingly she's still married to him. When I was 16 I got engaged to a fella I'd met at college. Justin was kind, gentle a computer whiz and had a huge family. I spent a lot of time with his family, especially with his brother Dennis, who I had very strong feelings for (which I never acted upon). I'm still in touch with his Mum, Sister and Dennis. When I was 17 my adored maternal Grandad died. When I was 18 Justin and I split up, he went off to University and I got a job, I was also diagnosed with diabetes. I was 20 when I met Burt. He saved me from being chatted up by a drunk in the bus station on my way home. I moved in with him and his Mum (BIG mistake, she was a filthy woman who smoked 50 a day, the house stank and she let the dog pee and crap in the kitchen because she couldn't be bothered to open the back door, she also expected Burt to pay all the household bills while her money was spent on fags, chocolate and getting a taxi to work whenever she was late (most days) however I will give her one good point - she wasn't a heavy drinker!) I got engaged to Burt. I was 22 and Burt and I had got a mortgage and found the home of our dreams when for no real reason Burt decided to resign from his job. I couldn't have afforded to pay a mortgage on my own, and I couldn't trust Burt, so the house fell through and we split up. Three weeks later he was living with his Dad in Wales and was madly in love with a 17 year old called Phyllis. I asked out a fella I worked with, Clive, he had been really good to me during the whole Burt episode. He told me he loved me, but he lied. On the anniversary of my Dads death he wouldn't come round and I spent the day alone and feeling suicidal. After we split up I realized he had never once complimented me without being nudged into it. Despite that I was in love with him and I was heart broken when we split. In my heartbreak I decided to believe the saying that the only way to get over someone is to get under someone else (Don't believe it!! It's a lie!!) and horror of horrors I joined a dating agency. It matched me up with a bloke who shall from now be known as Arrogant Fuckwit. He seemed to be a genuinely nice bloke. I'm obviously easily taken in. He demanded sex when I wasn't ready, I can only put it down to my bruised pride that I gave in and slept with him. We split up when I told him (after eight weeks) that I wasn't interested in marrying him and that I wanted to get back with my ex, Clive. Six weeks later in April last year I discovered I was pregnant. I wrote to the Arrogant Fuckwit who sent me a reply telling me that he was shocked, and very little else. I had tried for a baby with Burt but nothing ever happened, I assumed I wasn't particularly fertile. A 'normal' pregnancy has a one in five chance of miscarriage. I am diabetic and I have a four times higher chance of miscarriage. My Mum had lost 3 babies before falling pregnant with me, so I never believed that I would actually bring a baby home. I considered abortion, but I didn't have the guts to go through with it - suppose this was my only chance to have a baby? At 33 weeks I got pre-eclampsia and was taken into hospital, I was induced and Baby Theo was born seven weeks early weighing 7lb (very heavy for a premature baby!) He was completely fine, I was quite ill and in hospital for 3 weeks altogether (I'm fine now!) and now I have a 9 month old baby boy who is quite simply fantastic! When Theo was born I rang the Arrogant Fuckwit who answered the phone then told me that he was out - clearly not expecting me to recognize his voice. Half an hour later his Mum rang me to tell me that he didn't want to have a relationship with him (??? I was telling him that the baby was born out of courtesy, I think it's fairly important to know if you have a kid or not.) I asked if he wanted to see the baby, she said no and I said fine, I'm won't be getting in touch again and hung up. I can't believe that a mother would shield her son from admitting responsibility for his own child, but there you go - there are some bad mothers about. I can only try to be a better mother than her. Well, I think that is more than enough for a first diary entry. Hopefully the next ones will be a bit less demanding... |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 05,June,2004 | urlLink OOHHH How Wrinkly |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 03,June,2004 | Thesis defense in t minus 2 days and counting. For the past two days I have been feeling terribly stressed. Being completely psychosomatic I haven't been thinking stressed thoughts or worrying, but I have a knot in the pit of my stomach. My bodies way of saying, 'You should be stressed!' I had misattributed* it to being nervous about meeting old friends. They were super cool (and by using that phrase I reveal myself to NOT be super cool). And I still feel weird today, so it must be the thesis stuff. This project will, eventually, drive me crazier. On a happy note, I did go out to dinner with two old friends I had in elementary school. It was neat to see that, while not the 13 year olds I said good bye to 11 years ago when I was shipped off to Catholic school, on a very fundamental level they were still very much the same. Dinner was nice. I came home early. Gabe would be proud, I did not stay out late drinking and dancing at the black cat. I came home so I could finish my work. Next time I will not be so restrained. When did I get responsible? * This appears to be spelled incorrectly. Spell check wanted to replace it with masturbated. (giggle) ** Also does anyone else think it is weird that 'blog' comes up as misspelled on the blog spell check? |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 03,June,2004 | I have decided that the blog is the perfect, time consuming, excuse I need to avoid putting together my thesis defense. If you are heather (my thesis adviser) and reading this, be assured I have been working very hard. I just can't slave *all* day. I was hoping to put a link to my webshots on the main blog thing, not just in a post. But I can't figure it out right now, though honestly I didn't look very hard. So I have will put the link here: urlLink pictures I don't know if that worked, but there is html stuff floating around. I am looking to get more pictures up. One of my projects for this month, aside from my thesis, was to make albums of all the photos I have neglected for the past year. Another project was to get all crafty and make marriage party invites/announcements. Both of these tasks involve high quality printing. However, the printer here is about 8 years old and barely functioning. So I am kinda lost. I will have to do albums on the web and print them off later. Poo. Must...Work...Must...Stop...Procrastinating... |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 02,June,2004 | Thanks to the blog of Anna I have found two old friends from elementary school. As it turns out, there is a whole little online world full of people I would never have bumped into in real life. It is just now that I realize how backwards I had been living for the past few years. Absolute craziness. As an update for those of you who don't already know. I am almost done with my Masters in Clinical Psych from Penn State. I was working as a therapist at a community mental health center and receiving training while going to school until I came home (DC area home) in May. I now have a background in HIV prevention (my research area) and acute mental health disorders (my clinical area). Psychosis and sex. How can you go wrong? Once I finish my thesis, which keeps getting delayed, I will move north. As I write my boyfriend is en route to Alaska with all of my stuff. He just graduated from Penn State law school and found a great job in Alaska (where he is originally from) and I am moving with him. We will be getting married in July (at the courthouse, not a wedding) after I get up there. I will need to find a job and such. I hear the winter in Alaska makes people crazy, so work will be plentiful, and I will make connections to get meds if the winter drives me nuts as well. For those of you who have been following the saga... The pre defense defense is on Monday. The room has been selected. The paper has been compiled. The committee has been notified. If everything goes according to plan I will have the official defense scheduled by the end of the month. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 02,June,2004 | I have officially begun my journey into the world of blog. I ended up here by complete accident while searching for old friends on the web and avoiding thesis work. However, it seems as good a time as any to start posting the day to day randomness of my life for the world to read. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 11,June,2004 | urlLink I recieved more photos from Gabe. Here he is with the lovely Ms. Peanut. They are both just too adorable. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 11,June,2004 | So I had a super sucky stay at a super sucky hotel followed by a not so hot thesis defense. I almost thought I wouldn't have to go back and do it again. However, the puppeteer of the Universe hates me and has been trying to make this project drag on for as long as humanely possible. Now the official count is... price of new suit for defense - $ 140 price of hotel room - $ 70 price of printing millions of copies of the same paper - $15 dollars having to go back and do it all over again in two weeks at the request of protocol obsessed academicians priceless. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 19,June,2004 | How is it that, when I first started this blog I thought I had many things to write about. However, now that I have been traveling around the country, staying in luxurious hotels, and having an absolutely wonderful time, all I can write about is my BWI shuttle problem. Along with my new car I will also ponder this. Things to ponder... -My feelings on SUVs. -Why I don't share more interesting stories on the blog. -The completely random nature of my comma use. -Why my grandmother keeps inviting people to my after wedding party, who(m?) (whatever) I have never met before, and then thinks I will be offended when other members of our family tell her it isn't appropriate. -Why my grandmother is inviting anyone to my party in the first place. -Why America is the only place in the world that deems shorts are appropriate attire. -What it is about shorts that makes them so offensive to me in the first place. -All the reasons, one month ago, I thought it was a good idea to send every one of my bikinis to Alaska and bring my super goretex rain gear to Virginia. -The fact that Bed Bath and Beyond creates registries for commitment ceremonies in addition to weddings. Cool. -If it would be appropriate to purchase a dinner set of japanese plates and make my parents bring them up to me in Alaska. -Do I really think any of my friends would buy me an 80 dollar sheet? ---To be continued when I have more time to ponder |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 19,June,2004 | Back from New Orleans. Once again the Big Easy did me in. However, this time it wasn't the hurricanes. Instead it was the 90 some degree weather and the remmains of a stomach bug from last weekend. I made it to three dinners, a music in the park, an IMAX showing of Harry Potter, and the botanical gardens. I missed Marsha Ball at the House of Blues, and shopping on Magazine St. I will just have to go back later...either when it is cooler or I become smart enough to avoid touring the botanical gardens at noon on a day that could fry small children in cars. Today I did have quite the adventure at the airport. When I arrived to catch the plane to New Orleans I found a parking spot right next to the shuttle pickup as the shuttle to BWI was approaching. I flew through e-ticket check in and had a new security line opened up for me when I was stuck behind a very large tour group. The total time from my car to my gate was about 20 minutes or so. I was then asked to fill out a marketing survey for the airports service from parking to the gate. Granted, they got flying reviews. 'How long did you wait for security?' 'I didn't.' 'How long did you wait for the shuttle?' 'I didn't.' Today, however, when I got off the plane (mind you I was sick and dizzy and hurt) I found my bag and promptly got on the wrong shuttle. At the AMTRAK station the driver realized I was lost and tried to help me figure out which shuttle I should get on when we returned to the terminal. He asked 'Long term parking A or B?' 'There is more than one lot?' I replied. He sighed and went back to driving. He let me off at the terminal. I got off, went back to a bus stop, only to realize I didn't have my bags. So I found security, who found me a transportation person, who found me a courtesy phone, whose operator told me to find the shuttle and retrieve my bags. Duh. I finally found my driver who was not as helpful this time, found my bags, and found a bus to long term lot A. I found my car and drove the hour home. What an adventure! Now I want the marketing lady from BWI to ask me about my trip. While I am quite aware this whole mix up was 100% my fault, I would enjoy blaming it on the airport. I think Gabe is out negotiating for my new car today. I hope it ends up being something lovely. I may be getting a Subaru sedan instead of an SUV. I don't know if that makes me happy because I associate SUVs with middle aged conservative white guys, or unhappy because I will soon be living in the one place on the planet where an SUV could be considered sensible. I will ponder that tonight. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 24,June,2004 | Today I had lunch with my grandmother. Gigi has a very interesting view of the world. Every time we go out and talk I am always amazed at the ideas and misperceptions she has about me. For example, today we were talking about Gabe and I buying a house. Now, for those of you who don't know, I am completely employable and looking towards a fulfilling career in the field of mental health and addictions counseling. That is why I spent 6 years in the higher education system. That is why I am in debt for tens of thousands of dollars. However, today she asserted that I must be looking forward to making Gabe sandwiches for work and doing laundry and staying at home with the new puppy and keeping house. I protested slightly and she corrected me. Apparently, I love cooking for Gabe and I love doing laundry and I love staying home. Won't I just make him so happy! Now, don't get me wrong. I actually do enjoy cooking and will probably end up doing the laundry. For some reason Gabe hates laundry. The easiest way to get the bathroom cleaned was to declare it 'laundry day' and tell him I would fold clothes if he would scrub something else. But that isn't the point. The point is I have no idea how she got the notion I was planning on being a housewife. Before this she declared I would hate going to visit my friends in Japan (wrong). I would love for her to bring _____ (insert random person) to my wedding (wrong). I love ham (I am a vegetarian and have been for YEARS). I want to keep my car (It is listed in the paper for sale). I think she secretly snoops around to find things out about me and then insists I believe/do/think/enjoy/want the opposite just to drive me nuts. By the way if anyone wants a 97 Saturn coupe, email me. I have one to sell for cheap. Today I ponder...The intentions of my grandmother and the possiblity my thesis may be done in less than a week. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 30,June,2004 | I have arrived in Japan and am exploring Otsu by myself for a little while. I have discovered a couple things in the few hours since I have been here. 1. Everyone and everything is very tiny. The space bar on this keyboard measures less than 2' wide. The counters in Jen's apartment are lower than my hip. I hit my head on the bedroom light fixture three times yesterday. Everything is mini. In turn I feel like a huge bumbling sweaty oaf in comparison. Not the place to come to boost one's self esteem. 2. The Japanese love English words. There was a sign outside this internet cafe that said *internet*. Yet, there was not a single person in the place that knew what 'internet' meant and I had to resort to miming using a keyboard to convey my need for a computer. Today I am going to the local department store to try and purchase fun Japanese things. Maybe some yam ice cream or a little seaweed flavored ramen or a nice salad with little dried fish instead of croutons. So very interesting. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 29,June,2004 | I PASSED. COMPLETELY PASSED. I turned in my final, and this means FINAL, thesis project today. On the 14th of August I will officially have a Masters of Arts in Applied Clinical Psychology, with a concentration in Health psychology. FINALLY!!!!! On a completely unrelated note... (Bearing in mind that my dogs name is Peanuts, and that my grandmother is older and may not pronounce words as well as the rest of us....) I have an activity for all of you. First, stand up and retrieve a piece of bread from your kitchen. Seriously. If you are at work, find something to eat that is slightly squishy. GO. GET BREAD! Now. Take the piece of bread and eat it, chewing it up into a gooey paste in your mouth. Don't swallow. When the bread is properly masticated say the following three times fast.. 'Peanuts, Peanuts, Peanuts' If you are in an office space, or have a roommate, say it loudly to get the full effect... Now say 'Peanuts loves to roll in dead fish' Then 'Your parents must get so mad when peanuts rowdy and chases the cats around the house' Then 'I just love Peanut so much! She is so wrinkly!' Then 'Peanuts isn't stinky! You should wash peanuts off more often' That was my dinner conversation with Gig a couple nights ago. I could have died. When my thesis advisor asked me the name of my dog and, after I told her, exclaimed, 'You named your dog Penis?!?' I decided it was time to change the name. And I thought 'Peanut' was adorable. Sigh. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 17,July,2004 | So I have finished my time in Japan and moved to Alaska. If anyone out there has the opportunity to travel to Japan I highly recommend it. It was a wonderful experience. Once I have my own computer up and running I will post some pictures and commentary. It was a trip filled with memorable, exciting, and beautiful experiences. I spent one night lounging in a wooden tub of warm water in a rooftop garden at a Japanese bath and watching fireworks go off across a lake to signify the opening the the midsummer festival when two stars cross in the sky. Just amazing. I am now at a computer in Alaska. For the past week I have been learning how to function in my new home. I am almost proficient at navigating the roads and not completely offending people with my pushy east coast attitude. If life moved any slower up here, I would be going backwards. I think I will love it! The house shopping has been going slowly, of course. We have found a few places that fit our needs, but were already sold. We have found another place that is still being built that is just the right size on just the right amount of land. We figure if we try and bid on it when it is still just a frame we may have a chance of snapping it up. Today we go out looking at houses again. |
3,528,597 | female | 24 | indUnk | Libra | 25,July,2004 | For the past two weeks I have been devoted fully to the hunt for a nice house. A house close to town with three bedrooms, two bathrooms, and a decent sized yard. Until this morning we had been looking at houses in the 160-180 range. Assuming that we could find something suitable, but not glamorous for that price. This is Alaska for the love of Christ. A state larger than Texas with fewer residents than the Dallas/Fort Worth area. There should be plenty of cheap land, right? NO! WRONG! No land for you! We saw cute little houses next door to apartment complexes with missing windows and cars junked in the front yard. We saw houses in the middle of nowhere. We saw houses with yards that would require hauling in tons (literally) of top soil to cover the gravel yard. We saw fix'r up houses that I could pull the siding off of with my fingernail. The final straw came when we saw a perfect house, small but made for a couple. Large master bed and bath small side rooms. Nice lot, close to town...but when we went in the garage there was a giant tank of water. Apparently when a well has a low flow a 'bladder' is used to collect water and store it until it is needed. The realtor told us not to worry, bladders had to be installed if the output of the well was lower than 3 gallons per minute. If it was a solid 2-3 gallons per minute and the well wasn't deep, it wouldn't be an issue. We checked the paperwork. The output was 3/4 gallons per minute and the well was 200 ft deeper than standard. The house could have run out of water . The only house in our price range we liked didn't have water. We went home and rethought our plans and upped our housing allowance by 20,000 bucks. This morning we found the perfect house. Large lot. Awesome bedrooms. Giant kitchen with oversized side-by-side fridge. Mud room. Deck. I can not reveal the location of this house because it would completely jinx it. When our bid is accepted and our earnest money taken, I will put up tons of pictures. I am in charge of the financing as I understand money and Gabe is going to draw up our bid. The next step is shopping for furniture, appliances, and shoes. I firmly believe every house needs a few new pairs of shoes. Wish us luck. |
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