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Does this also triggers you?
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I often get triggered by some injuries and haematoma (they're not caused from selfharm).
Does these things also triggering you?
(I'm sober for almost 2 years and 9 month...)
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Is this also triggering you?
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I often get triggered by some injuries and haematoma (they're not caused from selfharm).
Does these things also triggering you?
(I'm sober for almost 2 years and 9 month...)
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VENT / trying my best not to relapse
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tfw u have to dye your hair black to avoid hurting yourself again......
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yeah we are making do with what we got
which is... barely enough to avoid a relapse
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yay
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(TW) Three years Selfharm free. Gone from bad scarring and deep cuts to a healing full sleeve. Just a wee post to all those out there - it does get better, I know what your feeling and anyone who ever needs to talk please PM me and I’ll help whatever way I can. You don’t need to do this x
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I just broke my one month streak...
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I promised my bf that I was ok, when I wasn't, I was cutting myself while I told him that and I feel so guilty but at the same time so relieved, I missed my blade and I missed cutting myself. I'm gonna try and hide it from him, but honestly it's gonna be some time till this heals and it's summer where I live, (it's literally 30C° everyday), I'm physically not capable of wearing pants (I cut my leg). I'm sorry..
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Participate in meaningful mental health research
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It’s been three months idk if I can go any longer
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I hit my longest time period without self harm about a month ago, but I just got back to school and the urges are coming back again. Idk if I can stay clean.
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Relapsed today
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That's it, I'm just really bummed about it. I'd gone almost 8 months without cutting but now there are open wounds in my legs. I hate that that's my reaction. I know better. I feel like it's all my fault and that I'm weak for succumbing to these urges - especially given the social interactions that actually pushed me over the edge. Ah well, get to hit the reset and try again.
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over 3 months SH free:)
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Im almost 4 months clean and im starting to question why i even got clean in the first place it’s so hard
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I gave up and started working on me
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I don't know howmlong I've been clean from s/h now, but if you put your mind to it I know you can do it too.
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Took a year and a half to get here. Longest streak.
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why exactly do I respond emotionally this way?
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I struggle with self-harm often, before my period. No details, since I hate it myself if there is no TW and it is just pushed into your face.
the mere thought that someone is frightened but especially sad about the fact that I self-harmed .... makes me angry. Just not so sure a hundred percent as to why other than that I hate it that people push my past mistakes into the forefront?
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1 week down-many to go
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I am 1 week clean in 1 hour and I have so many more weeks to go but the amount of times I have thought about adding a line is insane.....it's like a burning sensation under my skin that I have to make a line to stop....but I have fought that feeling for a whole week but if I can make it through 1, I can make it through 4...I'm so proud of myself but also terrified of a relapse that has happened 4 times....started at 12 and at 16 I finally made it a week without the feeling getting so intense...🖤🤎🧡
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Relapse after 7 years (TW)
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Breakdown during xmas. Full on dissaociation in the bathtub to keep from continuing to draw as much blood as possible. Now every night for the past 3 nights. I keep trying to tell myself it's not the same, because I'm scratching rather than cutting with an instrument. But I know it's the exact fucking same feeling I had in the day, and I'd be cutting if my partner wouldn't notice. I don't even know why. I used to be so proud of myself for not SH'ing. But now it's my little secret. Now it's my little bit of control I still have through everything going on. And I want to ask for help, I want people to notice. But I don't. I don't want them to know I'm this deep in. That this episode is so fucking bad that I'm doing this again. I just need to tell someone. I'm so fucking sorry.
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The high is gone, but for everything sometimes
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In one of my hospitalizations for self-harm (scratching and burning), they gave me Naltrexone to get rid of the "high" associated with the self-harming - or that's how it was described to me. However, now there are "highs" that I don't get from many things that I used to get them from and I feel like i'm in the dumps most days this week. I've been on it about 6 weeks. ***Has anyone else had this problem?*** I don't want to quit the meds as I'm scared about not having the help to not self-harm.
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But additionally, I may just be depressed again and it may not be the pill (i have schizoaffective type- bipolar); so, I can't just isolate the problem to be related to meds, depression, or lows, etc.
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Six years ruined...How am i going to explain this one at my work
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I couldn't hold it together anymore, the impact of the rona pretty much nuked my chances at a personal life. Lately i have been feeling those cravings again, they came and went, but today, they came strong, and i took a razor at my arm. Im just tired of being alone, of all the anger and frustration...
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AA but for Self Harm
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I wish I had something like this. Somewhere I could go to check in and talk about things when it gets hard. I feel so ashamed, I just wish there was somewhere I could go to talk with people going through the same thing.
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Advise - scratching
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Hi all,
I used to self-harm as a coping mechanism as a teenager and now I seem to scratch my skin to excess instead, where my legs are sore and scarred. I think this probably falls under the self-harm umbrella but I really want to find something to else to do which doesn't cause harm. I seem to do it when I am anxious or uncomfortable. Someone suggested a rubber band around my wrist but that didn't help.
Has anyone successfully managed to switch to something less harmful that they could recommend?
Thanks!
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Relapse: I got drunk alone and sliced my thighs up. I have been clean for 3 years. My long distance boyfriend has no idea.
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Celebrating the longest I've ever gone without self harming
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Hit 5 months again. It feels good. I feel good... about myself.
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Hi everyone! I am new here so this is my first post
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I just wanted a place to share my story with some others who understand. This past year I had an OCD relapse and began to self-harm. It started off small with little cuts but progressed to carving words on my body. The incident that forced me to seek help was when I cut a chunk of my earlobe off and ate the piece (a sort of psychological infliction of harm). After a hospital visit to repair my damaged ear, I was clean for a while. I recently went through a tough time and relapsed with a bit of cutting, but nothing major and I was able to control the urges. I have been working on a book and I would like to share the final passage in hopes that it will dissuade anyone who is considering following a similar path. If anyone is interested, a free preview is available here: [http://hopefuldeviant.ca/stories.html#NTV1P](http://hopefuldeviant.ca/stories.html#NTV1P). I wish everyone the best in this coming year. Thank you for reading!
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some positivity! I'm really proud of myself :-)
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Just over 8 months clean and my god I'm struggling
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This is by far the longest I've ever gone in just over a decade of struggling with SH. I despise the holidays, but today I had an argument with my family where I was told I (and I quote) " cause all the problems". Trying to keep my mind busy with other things but I've had a backup blade for a while. I had been doing so well in terms of not wanting to self harm I wasn't sure I'd ever even want to use it again. As if this wasn't enough, tomorrow is new years eve which is the anniversary of a period of sexual abuse that lasted 4 years. I don't know if I want to keep putting so much effort into trying to put this horrible coping mechanism in my past when it always comes back in the end.
I started SH when I was 8 years old. I'll be 20 in June. I never thought my life would end up like this. I can't even hold a job so I can't move out of this hell hole.
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Sometimes we need a bit of advice from the past. Thought this was a good one. Hit me in the gut good.
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What works best for covering up scars?
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I need some help
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My little sister (12) is going through something. Lord knows what, but she’s harming herself. It’s pretty bad. I’m well established enough in life that I’ve volunteered to take her in from my grandmother’s care. How do I make things easier on her so she won’t harm herself? My husband and I have already talked about home schooling her, because she’s telling us she’s constantly getting bullied. Do I do a “body check” on her? I don’t want to take away all of her privacy, but I need to know if she’s harming so I can get her some help. We’re gonna put her into counseling, we know that for a fact. And lock up all the sharp objects and meds and such. But y’all, she’s creative when it comes to finding ways to hurt herself. I just need help😫😫 it hurts me to see her hurting.
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How do i explain my cuts to a guy
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Hi, I'm 22 and I hadn't self harmed since I was 19 but I recently relapsed. I did it on my hips cause they're less visible, especially since I get changed at work with other coworkers. I've now found this guy I'm kinda dating, I really like him and I think we're gonna be intimate really soon, but I have kind of fresh cuts (they have crusts) on my right hip which can't be mistaken for anything else. The ones on my left are healed and they can only be seen with bright light and you can barely feel them, but the other ones I'm sure he'll notice. Do I tell him beforehand? Or do I wait for him to notice and hope he doesn't ask anything? (which he surely will cause who wouldn't, he's empathic for all I know but I'm still afraid he will not understand)
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How to not harm myself but get out all the hatred towards myself?
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I thought I finally found a method of harming myself that leaves no harm and certainly no signs behind, for all those days around, and mostly before, my menstruation when my pmdd unfolds and my mind is drowned under a tsunami of memories, memory distortions and knowledge of how bad I screwed up. Always a different thing that makes me hate myself. This time it's that i feel beyond trust and belief that there is a point to my life and that I'll die lonely and at the same time hating myself for falling again for any pretty face that will end up smirking at me or pitying me or being full of hatred or disgust or both. (But not just that, it is about everything that makes me me that is giving me so much disgust towards myself. My health problems, my struggles, my faults,...) Hating myself for being single, despising myself for not having had healthy relationships. Hating myself for being alienated.
I found slapping myself would help me through those days. But recently I have realized that even that can end up as true harm and now my cheeks have freckles. I have never 'cut' with what this word implies, only 'minor' harm, nor do I intend to change that, nor was it ever a competition for me.
I still am in a bad spot of bad thoughts and it is easy to belief that I am always ending as a pretty but strange woman that just does not live up to value or need or wide openeness or .... but only am a driftwood of .... pointlessness.
I know my thoughts are dark, hence a shower to make myself feel a little better and from there on ongoing uphill battle, sometimes even landscapes, right until i fall into a hole again, a deep pit, before menstruation.
...any idea how to harm while doing no harm? Where to put this anger and disgust I then feel towards myself? I always feel like I need to punish myself. Telling me that punishing myself will do no good...will likely not be very helpful, for on some days the need is real. And i feel unable to feel the love and compassion people may have but feel ashamed of myself and hate myself anyway.
I am an adult, and struggling nonetheless.
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I relapsed and it didn’t help
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I want to cut more
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Being clean with therapy
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Idk where else to ask this so if you have a better recommendation for where I should ask this I'll take it. I'm a month clean and I meet with my therapist tomorrow. I want to tell him I'm a month clean but I never told him when I relapsed and stuff, so will he tell my parents cause he would realize that I wouldn't share if I was hurting myself? Idk if that makes any sense, I'm just concerned my parents will find out if I tell him and that'll make it a lot worse.
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Anyone Else Cut Themself As A Coping Method?
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I know I should stop this, however I can't get myself to stop, any advice?
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Is this like wanting to go deeper?
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I feel like I’m not normal for slicing my thighs and not my wrists like anyone else. Anyone else? And is this kinda like wanting to go deeper?
I think it might be me wanting to be noticed
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I relapsed :(
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4 cuts, all of them were styros. Bled a lot, but at least I feel good now. I hope I can get better.
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found evidence of friend self harming
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TLDR: found evidence of my best friend lying about being clean from self harming and i need advice on how to help her in this situation without embarrassing her or triggering her. looking for advice from people who self harm or used to and aren’t pro-self harm.
my best friend has an issue with self harming and we’ve related over it because i used to self mutilate. we have helped eachother a lot and i eventually got over the habit by distracting myself and all the help she gave me. today, i was house sitting at her house while she’s gone and asked her if i could clean her depression room. she said yes, so i started doing all the stuff like throwing away trash, doing laundry etc etc. i found a bunch of blood on napkins under a pile of clothes. i got angry at first, just because i thought she was getting better and she told me she hadn’t harmed in a while. i’m not mad anymore and i didn’t ever tell her i got pissed off. i just threw it away. later, i found bloody scissors, pencil sharpeners without the blade, and a bunch of very bloody bandaids. i got a little bit sad/mad again cause i wished i didn’t have to find this stuff instead of her coming to me/our other friends or going back to therapy. i don’t want to embarrass her or make her feel bad at all. i understand how tough and embarrassing it can be when you’re caught. i took the bloody scissors/blades, lighters, and other traces of self harm and put them in my bag. i don’t know if that was the right option? i didn’t want to leave them cause it would’ve ruined me to give her easy access to them when she comes back from her trip. i also don’t know if it was right for me to take them. i know self harm can pull people away from suicide, so that’s why it’s so hard for me to choose what to do.
i don’t know exactly how self harm works, as i didn’t self mutilate to experience pain. i’m not going into it, but i’ll just say it was a very different experience than what i know about self harm that comes from severe depression, like my friend.
can anyone give me ideas on what to do? should i keep the blades? should i tell her about me finding them? should i just leave it alone?
she allowed me to clean her room, knowing she had tons of evidence of self harm just waiting to be seen, so i feel like it was purposeful? maybe she wanted me to see?
please help me. i have a week until she gets home and i won’t bring it up to her until she’s home and in a safe place. i was thinking about leaving her a note to give her methods to stop self harming, so if that’s a good option and won’t trigger her, please drop ideas on what to write to her .
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I was almost 5 years clean...
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The last year has been terrible. Idk what I could’ve done to fix it and it’s only getting worse. I’ve been seeking help but it seems like there is none available and the only vice I could think of was cutting again....
Idk what to do
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How to hide fresh cuts?
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TW:
I just c*t myself out of anger and they’re really big, any tips to hide them?
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What should i do to make sh scars not visible anymore in a few weeks. They are about a year old. I use 93% aloe gel that made them look like this after a month of using it.
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Harder to fight temptation at night?
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Does anyone else feel like it’s the hardest thing ever to keep yourself distracted at night? I am always alright until the sun goes down then every bad thing starts running through my head. I feel so alone and separated from everything. Not sure how to keep pushing
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Doing some doodles to distract from self harm. 3 weeks clean today!
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Anyone else close to this milestone? 3 months and 28 days?
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im so close to relapsing.
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i’ve been clean for about two months but i just feel like giving up i miss the release and im spiraling but it’s fine:)
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I relapsed
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(TW) (death, self harm) yesterday I relapsed after my moms Service dog in training was put down, he had a growth about 42 cm and 15 cm in his pelvis and we didn’t know it was really hard and I ended up cutting 4 times and I’m falling back… i don’t know what help you can give but any and all would be appreciated.
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Need a place to talk about this.
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I can't talk to anyone about self harm. People either get too worried, don't understand (I'm scared they'll judge me) or they're someone that's gone through it too, and I don't want to accidentally trigger something for them.
I haven't hurt myself for a while, but I don't really consider myself clean tbh. I mostly stopped just because people found out about it, and I don't want anyone to know. It happened mostly when I was a teenager, and now it's just something I do when the urge has been bugging me for too long, or I get particularly overwhelmed with emotion.
Right now I'm just thinking about it a lot. I don't even know why I do it. I have no idea how to explain it to other people because I don't know my own reasoning. I just want to hurt and I don't know why. I want to mess myself up, and I want it to feel painful.
I don't really know how to deal with that. I lost my dog earlier this year, and I got broken up with last month. I'm alone, and I have a few online friends, but even though I do believe they care I don't think they really care anymore than you'd care for any other person going through something.
That sounds bad, but I mean to say they're not *my* people. They're just people that think I'm ok to hang out with occasionally. This might be a complex of mine though, I've always felt out of place.
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Relapsing
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I had been doing well but can feel myself slipping again. Everything is getting so overwhelming and I've noticed myself scratching and picking at my scars again.
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Like sandpaper beneath my skin
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I've been doing a lot better recently, and have found a lot of relief from the mental torment of depression. What scares me, though, is that now all there is to focus on is the physical aspects of it.
I can't think of a better way to describe it than to say that it's like my flesh itself is just *begging* me to do it. Ignoring this desire just amplifies it, turning it into the visceral feeling of having sandpaper wrapped beneath my flesh.
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Slipped up
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I haven’t self harmed in over 9 months and with everything that is going on in the world and being judged by my friend I slipped up.
I know it’s a journey, it’s just when I try and explain yo my partner thst seeing a consistent mental health professional meals being put on waiting list after waiting list I am bombarded with “that’s no that case” or suggested hotlines(good for short term not long term”
They are at the point of not asking if I’m okay cause I won’t open up.
How have other people opened up without feeling judged cause their worry was “silly” . I don’t want to run the risk of being a burden emotionally anymore.
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I gave in after 5 years
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Everything has been too much. I just want my physical health back and not have a psycho stalking me. 10 months of sick and 8 years of stalking. I can't deal with this anymore. If a little sh can get me by... is it really the worst thing? Help
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On the verge of giving in
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I’ve been sh free for a few months. I’ve had urges here and there,but the past few weeks have been really hard not to. I just feel like absolute shit and I just need a way to punish myself for the shit person I am.
I feel so isolated and I’m trying so hard not to do it,but I just don’t see the point anymore.
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2 months clean
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My urges to hurt myself have tapered off quite a bit over the last couple of weeks, and I can only hope that this continues. I feel strong, I'm so proud I've made it this far. 100 days is my next goal, and I have faith that I will be able to make it. I can do this, even if sometimes it seems impossible. I will beat this addiction.
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Even though I still have urges very often I've made it 2 years without hurting myself
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I can't say I'm totally better mentally, depression and anxiety are still very very much in the way of normal functioning for me but I at least don't hurt myself
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I used to cut and burn myself almost every day. Sometimes I'd use a razor and cut on my legs, stomach or upper arms. I thought I had to cut in places people couldn't see, but even years later I still have very visible, obvious scars. Eventually I turned to burning myself with a lighter. There was a time where I'd burn my arms on my lunch breaks at work even. Like I couldn't ever resist. I hurt myself probably almost daily, sometimes several times daily, for 3-4 years.
I'm still very self conscious and upset about all the scars I have because it's so many and they're very obvious, and I still frequently have strong urges. Whenever I get really strong emotions I still feel like I have nothing powerful enough to express them. I still feel like I deserve to punish myself, I still often feel like the best way to feel better about something would be to cut or burn myself, but I know I can't keep adding any more scars still.
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How to Stop (When It Might Be OCD)?
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I have an issue where pretty much any time I experience a “bad thought”, I punch myself, usually on my chest but other areas as well. The “bad thoughts” are typically memories of me doing something wrong, cruel, or embarrassing that I regret, but sometimes they are memories of bad things other people have done to me. When I hit myself, the thought goes away instantly, as opposed to my ruminating on it for extended periods of time, so that’s why I keep doing it.
My partner has OCD and believes that my use of hitting could be a symptom of OCD, because I tend to ruminate on the same thoughts over and over again (obsession) and within seconds I feel compelled to strike myself to make it go away (compulsion). There are other reasons my partner thinks I might have it which you can check my post history to read about some of them if you’re curious. I haven’t been formally diagnosed but I am looking into getting help currently.
I tried using CalmHarm but it didn’t work because it’s pretty much about distracting yourself from your urge to harm etc. but the time frame between my urges and the action is so short that I wouldn’t be able to open the app in time before I acted on the urge.
Does anybody have any advice on this? What has been helpful to you guys to resist your urges, especially if you act on your urge very quickly like I do? Any suggestions are very much appreciated!
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Don’t Damage December
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Hey y’all, I made this sub called r/nodamagedecember. Basically it’s like no but November for sh. If your interested and want to see more info, just look at the explanation post in the sub. I hope y’all stay safe this season 💕
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RIP lol
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Fucking was sending a pic of my self harm to a close friend accidentally posted it to my snap story. Fugging RIP a friend reached out and i blocked him. Didnt realize it was posted for prob an hour. Fucking blocked everyone and deactivated snap. Litteraly shook im so dumb wtf. Litteraly im so dumb didnt see who saw it didnt even wait just removed it.
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I’ve been clean for 2 years. I’m giving in tonight
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I recently got diagnosed with complex ptsd. I’ve been having daily mood swings for 3 weeks. Either I cry and sleep 20 hours or I stay up all night and do impulsive things. I asked for help from my family, friends, support system, but I’m at college 3000 miles away from home. They all say I should be greatful to be a college (even thought I’m on full scholarship from working my ass off in highschool” They say “Life sucks, just toughen up and deal with it” Nobody seems to care. They said this morning they’d help me get a flight home, now they are telling me to stick it out for 3 more weeks till break. I’m going to explode. I’ve had some bad urges the past 2 years, but this is the first time I’ve gotten the rubbing alchohol out in advance.
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A coping mechanism of mine when having urges,stickers and lots of temporary tattoos
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Did this fun template drawing thing
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Four years clean
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Today was a sucky day, I was super feeling super down until I realised. It's really been four years exactly since I finally stopped for good. Sometimes it felt pointless but it's still nice to keep clean. I'm happy about it, I think I might get some pizza to celebrate.
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50 days clean
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I can't believe I've done it. I've made it. I'm so proud of myself.
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It’s official!! The longest I’ve gone so far!
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Do I reset my counter or not? (TW)
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Context: I was about to wound myself with scissors but I didn't per se. I was about to until I stopped myself but I wasn't paying attention that I was gripping on the sharp edge but immediately let go when I saw it
I got a small cut in my right pinky from the accident
Do I reset my counter or not? Aside from that I didn't do much aside from punch a pillow
Edit: yeap it was a freak accident, not gonna reset but still could've been better avoided tho
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And the streak is broken 😭
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People who have suffered with self-harm up until their adult life, how have you told your family about it?
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Throwaway because my friends know my main account.
Title basically explains it all. I'm in my mid 30's, have a stable life and by all means seem like a person who has their shit together. But I have many hidden scars, mostly on my legs. I know my family will see them next summer, as this will be the first summer we spend together on a beach since I was 12, which was more or less when this started. I want to tell them before, so it doesn't get uncomfortable at an awkward time.
This is a closed chapter of my life. I would love to be able to say "Hey, I need you to know that I went through this stuff when I was younger, but I'm okay now. ", but I know this is not enough.
So my question is, Redditors who have suffered with self-harm but overcome it in their adult years, how have you told your family about it? What should I be aware of? Any questions that caught you off guard? Anything I can prepare for beforehand? What hit you the hardest when you laid it out to them?
If there's any way I can soften the blow towards them (and myself, as I'm scared out of my mind), It would be an enormous help.
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Could you help us understand suicide risk better? *Call for participants*
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Hi everyone, a study is looking for participants to improve our understanding of suicide, especially the wax and wane in suicidal thoughts.
* 20-25 min online survey
* **age 18+ in the UK**
* **with/without suicidal experience**
* optional prize draw on completion (￡200 Amazon shopping vouchers)
To learn more/take part, please visit: [https://glasgow-research.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/factors\_fluctuation](https://glasgow-research.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/factors_fluctuation)
Your participation will provide valuable information to advance our understanding of suicide. Thank you!
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I did it.
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I don’t want help :/
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I’m 13f and I’ve been cutting for I’d say 6 months now. Around 4 months ago I told a teacher I really trusted about my mental health and he told me he’d have to tell my parents. This resulted in me ending up at CAHMS and I’ve only been there 3 times but I hate it. No matter how many times people try to help me I shut it down immediately. I feel like I can’t be helped and there is no future where my mental state is normal. I just feel guilty because people around me are really bending over backwards for me but I don’t want them to. Is this a normal reaction or am I being a dick?
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177 days
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Today I am 177 days clean. Close to six months.
I came dangerously close this evening while in the shower, but I held off. I have a tiny scratch from the blade on my skin, but didn't actually SH.
I'm really, really struggling at the moment. There are so many stressful things going on, and it's triggering memories, suicidal thoughts etc. I won't lie and say that I'm coping well. But I'm not coping horribly, and that is a huge accomplishment.
I'm hopeful I will be here to reach six months clean, and share the accomplishment with you all. I promise I will try my best to hold on.
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Seeking participants for a study! :)
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Hi there,
My name is Jason. I am a graduate student in the clinical psychology program at Western University. I am creating a self-report measure on self-validation and invalidation for my master's thesis and would really appreciate it if you could volunteer some time to participate in this study! We’re hoping that this study will make a meaningful impact on how researchers and clinicians conceptualize risk and protective factors for mental health.
The study has been approved by our ethics review board, and involves online questionnaires (approx. 30 mins to complete) that assess how you relate to yourself, your mental health symptoms and personality features. Participants will also be invited to complete a 5-minute follow-up survey 2 weeks later. This follow-up survey will help me understand how self-oriented thoughts and behaviors persists or changes over time.
Participants will be given the option to enter a draw for a chance to win one of ten $20 Amazon gift cards (cad) for completing the main survey and one of ten $10 Amazon gift cards (cad) for the follow-up survey.
If you have any questions, please do not hesitate to contact me at [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]). Interested folks can click the following link to start the survey: [https://uwo.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_43ojoFy3WLu50pM](https://uwo.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_43ojoFy3WLu50pM)
Kind regards,
Jason Chung
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Why the fuck am I even staying clean
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A couple days from 7 months clean. I thought my brain had finally adjusted to the idea that no matter what I think I don't truly want to self harm. Even when I had urges my brain would remind me why it's bad. Nothing even happened but god I want to more than anything. Nothing is going to make this feeling go away other than harming myself.
| 16 |
Really need help...
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Hello
I would love your help on this one.
One of my friend has a habit of scratching her arm a lot when she is nervous.
So after we had our exams she looked nervous as she was scratching her arm a lot.
How I know she was nervous is because she had told me about her habit in a chat on Google Chat.
So after some time she had left the class and came back with lots of bad scratches and bruises and some medical gel applied on both of her arms.
I would really like to know how I can stop her habit as I am one of her closest friends and that's what a friend would do right?
Thanks for your responses.
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should i tell my friend i used to SH?
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i just started a new program at school and met a friend who i've been hanging out with recently. i have some scars on my arm that are decently noticeable. i've caught her looking down at my arm a few times and i get the feeling she has seen my scars. i dont know if i should bring it up with her? i dont think she will ask about them, but it makes me feel awkward that 1) i dont know if she knows for sure and 2) if she does know, i feel like i want to have a conversation about my history of SH ... idk im at a loss. any advice would be greatly appreciated
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Self-Injury Research Recruitment
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Hi all – I’m a clinical research methods graduate student and looking for individuals to participate in a study investigating the reasons why young adults self-injure and if reasons for non-suicidal self-injury (NSSI) are related to the severity of NSSI injuries. In this study, your participation will include filling out a questionnaire online. Participation is voluntary, and you must be between 18 and 26 years of age to participate. This questionnaire takes between 10 and 30 minutes on average to complete, though it may take over an hour for some. You will have the opportunity to enter into one of several $25 gift card lottery draws upon completion of the study. This study has been approved by Fordham University’s Institutional Review Board. Please click on the link below if you are interested in participating. Thank you for reading!
[https://fordham.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_em4h94T0flzYOnY](https://fordham.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_em4h94T0flzYOnY)
| 18 |
Relapse after 10 years ?
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Thought you can heal but do you truly ?
Is self harm a better form of pain management.
All those years and I’m back to who I’ve truly been right ?
I though I was better but I really wasn’t
Where do I go.
Cutting seems to be the best way I can manage my pain and anxiety. This shit has crippled me lost me jobs and if y I am like this.
Why did u make me like this.
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Explosive and violent anger at myself
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Just had an episode of it. Seems to happen when I feel stupid or ugly, and there's this really strong feeling of hate at myself, and sometimes I can't keep the lid on and I let rip on my body and face with my fists. Usually accompanied by an urge to get a knife and stick it in my neck. Face is swollen, mouth bleeding, and chest is bruised and blackened, not sure what to do, just needed to get it out in writing I think.
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I relapsed tonight
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i’m happy and sad. i’m proud and i’m ashamed. I wanted this. I know I will hate myself for it. i already hate myself for it. something came over me, it didn’t feel like it was me slashing the blade against my thigh. and earlier tonight I looked down and I felt so sad because I couldn’t even remember making all those cuts. there are so many, but I don’t have the memory of doing them anymore or what i was going through. Maybe the big ones, but that’s it.
i’ve been clean for so many years that I stopped counting. I didn’t think I would ever be back at this point. I guess if nothing else this is proof that it doesn’t ever get better, because even when it does, it’s not better at all. it’s just life, and life is inevitable continual suffering with chronic depression and whatever else happens to be plaguing you or mankind at the time.
I desperately don’t want to be here, but I am here, so I am trying to figure out what to do with that. and I feel so fucking alone in that thinking… no one understands, please tell me someone understands? please
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Found out what my clean streak is
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As of today it's been a week- And I've had urges throughout and just kept to drawing vent art or venting to friends instead of scratching myself .,.
Definitely not the best streak I've had (Went a month clean in August) But it's still progress regardless.
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I'm so happy guys! I can't believe I made it this far!
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Almost 8 months clean, happened so fast
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14 hours to 25 days going 💪
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Where can I get a fresh blade?
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im currently using one i found in the cupboard but i dont want cuts to get infected or shit so i need a clean one but i dont know where to get it
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Can someone give me a reason to stop sh
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i know everyone says its bad but i just dont know why and i want to find out the reasons so i can scare myself into stopping
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Keeping it to yourself
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I’m fortunate enough to have friends that would drop whatever they’re doing to come be with me if I told them I’ve been struggling to not cut the last few weeks. But I feel guilty putting that stress on them. Anyone else feel like this so they just don’t tell anyone?
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Does anyone else make designs or drawings with their self harm?
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struggling again at the moment, would appreciate any interaction
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moved to a new country, not been smoking weed (mostly because i don't know where to get it), got a lot of good things going on which i'm trying to be grateful for but also a lot of stressful shit. i think it's all catching up to me because i've been feeling really weird the past few weeks and have fallen back into self harm. trying really hard to not focus on the intrusive thoughts and urges right now but it's really hard and i feel so fucking stupid. can't stop having panic attacks feeling empty and worthless want to hurt myself so much and dont want to bother my friends. so tired of this. i know caving and hurting myself would only fuck with my head and make me feel weirder but i don't know what else to do, feels like i don't have any other options. want to but don't want to, don't know which thoughts are mine, anyone have any wise words?
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No answer when needing help
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I know that my control is my own issue, but how did you all learn to deal with people telling you “hey call me when you need me” and then them nit answering? Like I know they have lives and all.
Also, it’s just self harm not suicide, so please don’t mention suicide hotline, etc. , please.
| 6 |
Need help finding an electric razor for someone, any recommendations?
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Basically title, i cant go into too much detail but I need to find an electric razor for someone who self harms using the safety razors, mainly just trying to remove the means to SH from the house. Wondering if anyone has electric razor recommendations. [Was also looking at this product and wondered if this would be safe](https://www.amazon.com/RenFox-Electric-Rechargeable-Waterproof-3-Blades/dp/B07THSGQ8X/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?crid=28VW4OCUHAZKT&dchild=1&keywords=hair+removal+electric+razor+for+women&qid=1635462896&sprefix=hair+removal+electeic&sr=8-5)
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Treating Self-Injury through Research Study
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*Thank you to the moderators of* r/StopSelfHarm *for allowing me to post here!*
I am part of a team of researchers at New York State Psychiatric Institute/Columbia University who are currently recruiting participants for a research study looking at an investigational treatment for self-injury called transcranial direct current stimulation, or tDCS. tDCS is a non-invasive, well-tolerated form of brain stimulation that delivers a low current to a specific area of the brain using electrodes. Research has shown that tDCS can help reduce negative emotions and may help treat depression and other conditions.
We are seeking individuals between the ages of 18-65 who self-injure (through burning, cutting, or other means). Eligible participants should be staying/living within 60 minutes travel distance of Manhattan (New York, NY, USA) to participate. The study involves completing a baseline psychological assessment, questionnaires and twelve sessions of tDCS during six visits over two weeks. This is a double-blind trial, so you may be randomly assigned to receive an active or an inactive form of tDCS. All research procedures can be done from your own home–no in-person visits are required.
Three months of treatment visits with a psychiatrist for medication management will then be offered after AT NO COST to you. Compensation of $150 is provided for time and effort if you are eligible and complete all research procedures.
The researchers on this team have no conflicts of interest to declare. All study procedures have been approved by the Institutional Review Board for New York State Psychiatric Institute.
Some details about confidentiality and the use of your personal information:
\*If you consent to participate in this research, your personal information will be kept confidential and will not be released without your written permission except as described in this section or as required by law. Your name or other identifying information will not be made known if the results of this study are published for scientific purposes.\*
\*To make your personal research results not identifiable with you if they are used for publication in the scientific literature and presentation at scientific meetings, we will remove all your identifying information, including name and date of birth.\*
\*Questionnaire answers and data collected during the task may be used in future studies, and if shared with other investigators, information that identifies the scan, questionnaire responses, or task data with you will be removed beforehand. There is a potential risk of loss of confidentiality from such data sharing, but this is extremely low as only de-identified data from this study may be shared.\*
\*Clinical records, including your name and other personal identifying information, and research data will be kept in secure storage at the New York State Psychiatric Institute. Information in paper format will be kept in locked files. Electronic data will be protected by a firewall (programming that makes it virtually impossible to access the data from outside the New York State Psychiatric Institute) and by restricting access within the New York State Psychiatric Institute through use of a password known only to authorized personnel. If information is transmitted electronically, it will be encrypted so that your identifying information remains confidential\*
\*Records will be available to research staff, and to Federal, State, and Institutional regulatory personnel (who may review records as part of routine audits). Your information will also be available to other authorized individuals, including those at the New York State Psychiatric Institute. There are also legal advocacy organizations that have the authority under New York State law to have access to otherwise confidential subject records, although they cannot disclose this information without your consent.\*
If you are interested, please contact Ashley at 646-774-7529, or at [email protected]. More information is also available at https://tdcsresearch.wordpress.com/.
Thank you for your time!
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I got a new blade
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After I dropped my friend off at his house I went to the store and got another knife. It felt like I was on autopilot, I just did it without even asking myself what I'm doing. It didn't feel real. All I thought about was that I wanted to go to the store and get another, better blade to cut myself with.
It's been 3 weeks since the last time I sh. It's all I've been able to think about the past few days and now I'll have even more reason to cut myself. I felt like crying on my drive home because I realized what I had just done. It was so fucking stupid and bullshit and yet I felt numb the entire time I did it. I even took extra time to find the right one because they were all out of normal pocket knives; I had to get a thicker one that seemed more like a boxcutter than a knife. But it's so sharp.
I hate it so much. I know I shouldn't have gotten it, but I feel so numb right now. I just want to lie in my bed with all the lights off while playing music and cutting myself over and over again.
I want to talk to one of my friends and confess to them everything, but I don't have any friends right now I'd feel comfortable doing that with. I hate it so much. I hate this so much. I know I should be disappointed in myself right now, but I don't actually feel anything. I'm just tired. Fuck. I don't want to cut myself, I want to reach a month, but I have such a strong desire to.
This sucks so much; I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how much longer I can go without cutting myself again. I think I won't be able to stop next time I do. I'll just do it every single day. Fuck, I don't want to do this, but I don't know if I'll be able to stop it if I start.
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[Academic] Research study looking to hear from people with lived experience of suicidal thoughts & behaviours (Adults, 18+ only, UK)
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Final week of recruitment\*\*\*
Research study looking at what recovery means to people who have had or are currently experiencing thoughts about taking their life as well as exploring what factors have helped people in their recovery journey.
We are looking to hear from adults (18+) who live in the UK and currently experiencing or have previously experienced suicidal thoughts and/or behaviours within the last 5 years.
For more information and to express your interest, please follow the link
[**https://www.qualtrics.manchester.ac.uk/jfe/form/SV\_8J8RC0nv9iICcAe**](https://www.qualtrics.manchester.ac.uk/jfe/form/SV_8J8RC0nv9iICcAe)
**Support Services (UK Only)**
**Samaritans: UK wide, Free 24-hour confidential helpline for individuals experiencing distress. You can also email them. 116 123 or [email protected]**
**CALM: UK wide, Free confidential helpline for young men aged 15-35, 5pm-mightnight experiencing crisis. Webchat available via website (**[**www.thecalmzone.net**](http://www.thecalmzone.net/)**) 0800585858**
**AssistLine: UK wide, Free 24-hour confidential helpline for individuals with thoughts of suicide or self-harm. 0800 689 5652**
**Shout: UK wide, 24-hour text service for anyone in crisis.Text Shout to 85258**
**Rethink Mental Illness: UK wide, Provide free advice and information on living with mental health difficulties 9:30am to 4pm Monday to Friday 0808 801 0525**
| 7 |
How do i help my friend who self harms?
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he is a very close friend of mine, and today he told me he self harms, he is also suicidal and has a lot going on at home. please can anyone give me any tips or advice to make sure he feels he trusts me and if i could potentially make him stop if i can ?? he is a young teenager btw
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3 weeks clean!!!
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The urges to hurt myself haven't stopped, and I'm not going to lie and say that I feel fine. But I'm so proud of myself for making it this far.
| 22 |
My mental health is worse than it's been in years and I don't know how to do this anymore
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I'm almost 6 years free from self harm. And the biggest motivator for me is that I know how shitty it made me feel. It was an added stress because I had to hide it from my family, every morning when I showered the hot water would hurt. I felt (in hindsight after I quit) like it made me more depressed and more anxious. But now I am really, really struggling. And when I'm already feeling so shit I have a really hard time motivating myself to not start again. Because the point of quitting was that it made me feel better. It made me happier. But I'm so fucking far from happy. So what's the point? I'm tired. I can't find anything that will let me distract myself from how fucking shit I'm feeling. I just need help and I don't know what to do or where to go. I'm at a new school in a new city and the only one I know here is my sister but I don't feel like I can talk to her because she doesn't get it. And she's always trying to be positive about things but I can't be positive because I feel like I'm going to die. I don't know what to do.
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i can't make peace with my scars
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i've been self harm free for almost four months now but my scars havent faded at all. :/ ive alread tried everything but they're still very very noticeable. i hate them so much and i get so angry at them and at myself for cutting for such a long time. i wanna wear short tees again
| 14 |
just need to talk to someone
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i’m almost 3 years clean from self harm and i’m having a really hard time keeping that statement true tonight.
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Is my colleague sending out a cry for help, or should I ignore this?
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Hi all.
TL;DR: my colleague is displaying fresh-ish SH cuts and I don't know whether it's a cry for help.
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I joined my current company at the beginning of the pandemic, and my colleague in question joined shortly after I did. We've worked together some, almost entirely over video or audio calls, and been friendly; once lockdown lifted we've gone out in the same group to the pub, and had a few chats, and I've met his partner on the odd Zoom social call as well as briefly seeing his place a couple times when I had to drop something off. What I'm getting at is that I know him a bit better than just a casual work colleague, but I haven't known him for long enough to become fast friends or anything.
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He mentioned to me in confidence that he has CPTSD (to explain why he wasn't available to do a thing), and he's not made a secret of some recreational drug use. Today, he was wearing a sleeveless shirt and I saw that his arms are laddered with self-harm cuts -- or, if they're not SH marks, they sure don't look like anything else -- some of which look fairly fresh.
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Is this a bit of a cry for help?
I'm neurodivergent and have struggled with depression in the past, so this isn't a pity thing: I really would like to help if I can, mostly because he seems like a good dude and I think we could become friends outside of work. If this were a good friend or loved one, I'm pretty sure I'd know how to address it, but I'm just not close enough to him to be confident in that.
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I don't \*think\* it's just a case of being too warm, as I'm always freezing in the office... but then again I'm female and office AC is a vicious thing that doesn't seem to affect the men as much as it does me, so who knows.
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Any advice as to whether I should politely ignore these, the way I would if they were old scars, or whether I should try and talk to him -- and if the latter, how, or what to say -- would be gratefully received. The last thing I want to do is kick myself in the future for not having approached him now.
| 9 |
Just over two months :)
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So I’ve had long term issues with excessive guilt for a long time. Still do,but trying not to use self harm as punishment and has it been easy when you live with excessive guilt almost every day? No it’s been so hard. Mental breakdown,after the next and some days it still is. I’ve only posted on here once but the few comments of support I had meant so much in that moment,so thank you.
Also sometimes I dig my nails into my hand really hard,well I don’t usually realise it till I’ve done it. Does that count as a relapse. I hardly ever do it?
| 9 |
Wish I can help everyone going through a very dark time but I know that's impossible.
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Wanted to just share something that might be able to help instead.
I recently joined a nonprofit organization and helping them get the word out as a way to give back to the community.
Healing Habits made a free app for people with depression or anxiety. Gameface teaches you to look for the happiest person in a crowd of other emotive faces. By doing this repeatedly and as quickly as possible, it will aid the training of an automatic response that is looking for acceptance and ignoring rejection.
It's available on PC, ios, and android with absolutely no charge and no data collected: [https://happygameface.com/](https://happygameface.com/)
Currently, our only goal is to reach as many people as possible and make a positive impact on their mental health. I hope you can support us by downloading the app and sharing your thoughts about it.
Registration info of the charity: [https://www.acnc.gov.au/charity/0a84e67bc529e6cd967fb1d90acb2750#overview](https://www.acnc.gov.au/charity/0a84e67bc529e6cd967fb1d90acb2750#overview)
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I developed a mental health related app from my personal experience!
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So basically last year I was feeling a bit low. I really didn’t know how to become better since I had never faced this before. I used to not get proper sleep and woke up after having dreams due to my anxiety. So I just started noting what activities I did and whom I did it with in a google doc. Slowly I also started rating how I felt about the interaction. Soon I started to notice a pattern that I felt better when I hung out with some people and when I did certain activities. This way I was able to feel much better than before and I gained confidence that I can control my own mental health. I stopped dreaming as frequently since then. I even built an app for this so that other people can do the same .
The app is called Happyer which was made based on the above experience and provides insights into impact of a given activity or friend. The app also has a "Find Therapist" feature using which you can contact our therapists for help.
[https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.happyer4life](https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.happyer4life) for android [https://apps.apple.com/ca/app/happyer/id1537711110](https://apps.apple.com/ca/app/happyer/id1537711110) for iOS.
| 11 |
How to respond to a friend who admitted to doing self harm?
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As the title suggests, a very close friend of mine recently admitted to doing self harm to me. She said she felt mentally uneasy and self harm helped her feel better. Final year of high school so there is a lot of pressure in terms of studies as well, but she is one of the kids who do well academically and have a good social circle too. I told her that maybe she should see a therapist about this who could help her figure out what it means, she said she talked a counsellor once before and it didn't help.
She feels like she's doing great in everything else because of the self harm claiming that it calms her down and makes her behave better with others as opposed to getting annoyed or pissed at them. She says "You forget about emotional distress" and "I genuinely dont mind the physicality of it".
I'm not sure how to be supportive of her and at the same time indicate that I think there are better ways to deal with emotional stress.Or is it okay for a 17 year old girl to be engaging in self harm and should I not be concerned?
I'm guessing it took a certain amount of courage to admit to it and I don't want to be completely dismissive of what she's doing and make her think that she cant share things with me.
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